Dear God,

I had another migraine today.

Cody asked me if I ever considered just ending it all because it hurt so bad.

I told him I thought suicide was cowardly.

He didn't say anything after that.

Love,

Peyton

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I'm aware I may have insulted people with the suicide comment but remember, its just my opinion, you can have yours.

*a new disclaimer for my idiotic fourteen year old self coming from my 18 year old self- I realize that this is very very toxic talk and really derogatory towards people who do commit suicide. I do not think this anymore (especially after spending the better part of my seventeenth year on this planet seriously thinking about suicide) and I apologize to anyone who was offended. I should not have said that suicide is cowardly, and I do not believe that. Those who we lose to suicide are wonderful, beautiful people and I'm sorry that they saw no other option but to end their lives. I'm truly sorry to those I have offended- it was not my attention, and I know this excuse is overdone, but I was a young idiot with no idea what the world held, and I am sorry.