"Once you asked to me to shout out that I love you to the world but then I whispered those words to you because Avery you are my world "

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Dear
                 Avery,

I know I am a coward for writing a letter instead of talking to you in person but I was never good with talking.I love to express my feelings by writing.Writing helps me to calm the chaos inside me.The best feeling in this world for me is that you chose me amongst all those rich, good looking and perfect boys and the worst feeling is that a day will come when you will realise I am not enough for you and leave me.But you never left me and I am thankful to you.You have seen me in my best and worst and accepted me in both the situations without complaining.Everyday morning waking up and seeing your beautiful face makes it difficult for me to leave you.You are the most effective medicine for me.I am addicted to your hugs and kisses.I was never a guy to believe in love but then you came into my life and turned it upside down. Trust me you are in my every dream.Not a second passes by when I am not thinking about you.With each passing day I get to see a new side of you and I love each one of them.

Do you remember once you asked me in which dress you look most beautiful.Well back then I said anything you wear which was indeed the truth but I know you will look most beautiful on your wedding day wearing a long white gown and standing at  the altar for your groom but sadly I cannot be your groom.I am going away forever.I hope you learn to love again and be happy.

I know you are trying to be tough around me but your eyes tells me something else.They are dull and lifeless seeing you like this breaks my heart.Everyday you come and ask the doctors about my progress but you only get to hear is how many days are left for my death. But you never gave up on me ,on us.Every day you come and tell me about the outside world.Every time I come from chemotherapy you try to lighten up my day with your silly jokes.How can I forget the kisses you give me.They are always filled with so much love and hope.They make me feel alive.

I know I look like shit with no hair but you say that I am the most handsome guy alive on this earth.I know that's not the truth but still I believe you.Thank you for the cap that you made for me its really cute.Bury me with the cap.I want to have something from you.

Thanks for being a part of my life.Find someone to mend the heart that I have broken and be happy.I know you will find someone much better than me. Just remember you will always be the melody that my heart sings.

                                                  Yours,
                                                               Carl

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