I just want to reset
I want to refresh this chapter on my life
Because it keeps crashing so many times
There's too many painful files
Popping up all over my loading screen

I just want to reset
I want to log off tonight
Because even through all the notifications
I still feel desperately alone
I want to give them my best
But the user behind the screen has gone afk
I don't know where she went

I just want to reset
Clear all the history of those scalding words
But there's too many copies
Of when you said I would fail
Over and over again
Year after year, month after month, day after day

I just want to reset
I want to update this whole system
But I fear even then I will never be enough for you
Even after a successful download
You remind me how I haven't measured up
No, I'm not even close

This system is too old
Who needs this computer anyway
It's just a useless waste of space
I wish I could blink all my sadness away

I'm falling into the void of pitch darkness
Where even your voice won't echo
Past this chamber of distortions
I'm trapped behind an algorithm
Of ones and zeros
Between Something and Nothing

Am I something to you
Or am I nothing?
The only times I feel like something
Are when I'm the burden weighing you down
I thought I would feel less pain as nothing
Yet it still hurts not being worthy of your recognition

It's ok, though
You're teaching me
To stay silent
Like I should have a long time ago
No ones, no zeros
Soon it will be too late
When all you're staring at
Is a pitch black screen