I now know why I can't let you go
Willingly, I lock myself into your hopeless prison
I now know why I can't tell you no

I crave love and attention so desperately
I'll take it any way it comes
I'll take it even when I come undone
I'll take it even when you hurt me for fun
I'll take it

I've grown so accustomed to this sky of somber clouds
Those once in a blue moon days when the sun peeks out
Are the days I celebrate and lure me to stay for more

Whisper to me all the darkest wishes in your heart
Tell me how you hope I fail
How I've already let you down
How my dreams are just that, unreachable dreams

It's nothing I haven't heard before
It's nothing I haven't felt before

It's me, I put these chains around my wrists
I'm the one who follows this cloud of darkness
Chasing it, hoping to see light

Why do I run where I don't want to go?
Why do I stay when I have nothing more to say?
Why do I tolerate scraps of your attention?

I know... I've heard it a thousand times now
They tell me I could have so much more
So why do I accept less?

I'm holding onto this lifeline
Because in this vast ocean of despair...
Perhaps you're right
Without you I think I would drown

I have to let go
I wish I could
We both know we're no good for each other
Scared to feel alone
Yet no better when we're not apart

Only you could break me into millions of pieces
Only you could do this and have me come running back willingly
I'm trapped inside a house with no doors
My failure to reach your expectations are suffocating

I have no air
But I'll take it any way I can
I'd take poison if it could help me feel alive for just a moment

I was too afraid to climb out the window when roses bloomed
Now I'm covered in thorns
Marked the calendar for one more month
As if I could place an expiration date on my pain