Loss is an empty feeling
The days are not black and white
But I can just feel like something is missing
The sunlight is faint and pale in comparison to the past saturated sunsets of gold
It is hard to believe
The last day I saw you was today
A whole year ago

Alone I lay in my bed
Awaiting a call I would never again get
Was it worth it to open my eyes
If you won't be here with me?
I still have so much
And yet it does not seem to be enough
It is hard to believe
The last day I heard your voice was today
A whole year ago

Why do I feel so greedy?
All day I've felt I've something missing
Where was my attention?
I was missing just one embrace
One last embrace
It is hard to believe
The last day I embraced you was today
A whole year ago

I've finally identified it clearly,
this feeling of mine
It is undeniable heart-wrenching grief
An unfathomable emptiness,
I tried to displace
I thought I wanted more from my friends
I thought I didn't have enough from my partner
But in the end, it was you I missed all along

Yet today, your beautiful memory lives on
In the warm embrace from my parents
In the unbridled laughter of my sisters
In the unconditional support from my partner
And in the kind attention from my friends
Even though you have moved on from this world...
There are moments when those saturated colors return

In the golden sun that sets over the hazy desertlike clouds over a bright blue ocean..
The gold and purple zebra patterns of my new sunshade..
In the glossy silver print of my new purse..
On the wooden board with poetry written from the heart..
In the rich flavor of dark chocolate..
and in the sweet coldness of a mocha frappuccino

Your memory lives on
Wherever love exists.