𝚕𝚎𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚜 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚜𝚞𝚗𝚊
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It must have been lonely for you.

Your parents explained what happened, they did with clarity.

But my mind can't process it–or I can't just accept it.

How could you, Suna? Everything would've worked out if you just told me–told us. The team is in great depression right now. Everything...would've been fine if you managed to tell us about your condition.

These past few weeks being absent, skipping classes, skipping lunch, skipping practice, and not communicating with anyone–I should've known. I should've noticed. I could've done something–atleast something, to ease your pain.

I always thought of you as a strong, silent type. But even if you were strong, you couldn't fight your depression. I extremely hate myself for not noticing.

I'm sorry, Suna. Please forgive me. I just want to go back in time and save you from your pain, ease it, and help you be happy again. I'm no professional therapist, but I could've atleast talked to you and hang out. If only I was strong enough. If only I was confident enough.

I could've stolen your hours of being in pain, and replaced it with potential happy memories. I can't fight your sickness, but I could've helped you through it. It's not that simple, but I atleast should've grasped on that small flickering flame of hope there was.

Suna, am I an idiot? I still love you. I think I'm obssessed with you. But I can't help it, I can't just control my feelings and throw it away if I wanted to.

Maybe, I am an idiot.

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