My name is Hayden but i go by ella most of my friends go by ella...im 12 years old nice and kind..my whole life is not the way i wanted it to be...like when i was 5 growing up i got abused and yelled at for no reason..when i was 10 i got raped...but..i didn't let those things get to me i fought back to live longer....i have heard many people say they want to kill themself...and i know..life is tough and you cant take it...but i know your strong enough to fight it back...i could've when i was 10...i took all my courage to tell someone "i need help..." when i did i felt like i was on a cloud...that wasn't stormy and full of low self-esteem i stood up for myself i took a step forward and told myself "You can make it" i thought i couldn't but i did and i tried...i know you might say life is terrible you have no idea what im dealing with...sure mabye i dont but i know how it feels...cause...When i cut myself it hurt me for a small bit...but what i didn't know was..it hurt my family forever...they dont hate me they worry they might be doing the same..if your family hates you just know i love you...there is someone so special that loves you..dont think no one loves you cause put there..there might be someone you loves you alot....

Like i said my name is Hayden...
And i want to ask you something...

Do you want help?