Lately I have not been in the best phase of life.

I am questioning if it's a phase that one day I'll come over with or just the beginning of obstacles.

Obstacles or failures?

Failures.

How it feels when you had always imagined yourself somewhere for the longest you can remember, something so vivid, so specific. As if nothing could be contrary.

But all of this breaks .

Shatters.

Was it all a dream? Just a dream? It wasn't, right.

You scream in agony, pull your hair just to realize the reality you lived for the longest of you life was all a dream.

It was a dream all along?

You chuckle. It was me who didn't think with a brain and chose that dumb heart. That piece of shit only knows how to make you weak.

They told you before, didn't they? It was you who ignored all the signs that said 'no' and now you act like there were none?

When the people around you act like you fragile, sugar coat their words so they don't hurt you. It stings way more than they can imagine

All the feelings I have been feeling lately, I can't write them all. This is a small portion. I don't know what to say .