Jack comes to see me everyday. Even now and then Hiccup and Merida come over to. For the fall, Merida has to go back to Scotland. We all wish she could stay with us but she's the princess so she kinda has to go. Plus she says her mom wouldn't let her hear the end of it if she didn't go.
Even though Merida annoys me, it's nice to have another girl around. Especially when I'm on my period. Merida understands and always helps me through mine. For my bleedings are heavy and ache. As I would help her through hers. Her hormones make Merida very cranky, but I've been told mine do to.

"So, just us, I guess," Jack spoke breaking the silence. Jack, Hiccup, and I were all sitting in a circle in my tower. Merida had just left 2 hours ago, but it had felt like eternity. Without her snarky remarks in her Scottish accent it wasn't much fun.

"Actually," Hiccup began as he scratched his head. (Something he does only when he's anxious.) "I have to leave in a week. Astrid needs my help training dragons,"

"Sure..." I say sarcastically "she needs.....help,"

"Aw man! We'll have fun with Astrid," Jack then nudged Hiccup and winked. I've never met Astrid, but Hiccup is very fond of her and from what I hear she's beautiful and rough.

"I'll miss you," I tell him "but, enjoy yourself."

"Thanks Punzie," he then hugged me. And my friend was gone.

I shouldn't be saying this but I enjoy it being just Jack and I. Merida sent me a picture of a corset with a pain face emoji and a vulgar gesture. I always hated corsets, they were so tight and I always felt exposed in them.
   Whenever I wore them, I would get Eugene to unlace them, then he'd joke saying, "How do you wear this it's so tight?!!"  or "you're showing too much cleavage, are you having an affair?!" But I knew he didn't mean it. He loved it when I wore corsets, he'd always kiss my exposed neck and body as he unlaced them. Every night, he'd rub my back because the corset made it so stiff. I pity Merida for having to wear one.
     Hiccup sent me a postcard, he was riding, Toothless, the dragon, with Astrid holding onto him. I missed riding Toothless, not even Jacks flying makes me feel as free as those dragon rides were. Astrid was prettier than I thought. Jack called her a plain Jane. I always though that was offensive, I mean I've seen girls named Jane who are gorgeous.
   Astrid had blonde hair that was pulled into a French braid, she has more freckles than anyone if ever seen, and she had crooked teeth. Which somehow made her more beautiful. She seemed so happy in the picture with Hiccup. I knew Merida and Hiccup liked each other, but I couldn't see it going anywhere. Merida was too stubborn to admit her feelings and Hiccup didn't think he had a chance with her. He seemed more relaxed with Astrid. Maybe it was for the best. Maybe sometimes people just aren't meant to be, no matter how strong their feelings are.

   Jack had been gone, saying he was on a mission he had to accomplish.
   As he flew thru the window, I tried to hide my grin. I was so lucky to have him. And I realized now that I want him to be more than a friend.

   "Punzie, I got some new members to join our group,"

   I didn't understand. Why change our group when it was already perfect?! I was the nice but smart one, Merida was stubborn and outspoken, Hiccup was shy but reliable, and Jack was the one that kept things fun. That's perfect!!!! Why change it??!!
   But I couldn't say anything, brocade Jack seemed so happy;hopeful.  So I plastered a fake smile on my face.
  
   "So, now we'll be the super six. Punzie you won't believe it! Elsa's a queen and she has ice powers just like me, it took her a while to warm up to me but,-"

   "Elsa?" I question. So all this time, This mission, he was with a girl...a queen! Was I not good enough?

   "Yeah, they're waiting down by the tower, come meet them!" I didn't wan to  but Jack grasped my hand and dragged me. Just a simple touch from him, made me lose my breath. Besides, how can I say no to Jack.

I knew I wouldn't like Elsa as soon as I saw her. Her sister, Anna, however, wouldn't stop talking. While Elsa only spoke if spoken to, and stayed close to Jack.

  "Have Merida and Hiccup meet them?" I asked. Without their approval, Elsa and Anna couldn't be in the group.
 
   "Yeah they visited this morning, they're awesome!!" Anna squealed.

  "They were here this morning?" I question looking at Jack "why don't you tell me?"

  "I thought you were busy," he shrugs.

  "You know I've missed them!!" It was going on spring now, I haven't seen them in months. I can't believe they were here and I didn't see them. I felt as if, I would cry and that I wasn't welcome anymore. I was a burden. Elsa must have noticed because she spoke up.

  "I think Jack just wanted us to meet them, it was only a quick visit, he didn't want to keep them here long," since she was a queen she had so much confidence and sounded so sincere.

  "I didn't ask you!" I snap.

"Don't snap at her Punzie," Jack warned. He never talked to me like that, he never went against me. I turned on my heels and walked back to the tower.
  "Punzie," Jack chased after me and grasped my wrist "come on, you know you and Merida would have ended up yelling and it wouldn't have looked good,-"

  "That's not my name!" I tell him.

  "Geez, okay Rapunzel!"

"My names Lydia." I cut him off.

  "Listen I'm sorry, but I need to help Elsa with her powers. Ok? She needs me."

   "Like I don't," I mutter

  "You understand don't you?" He tuned me out. He didn't care about me. He then blushed like crazy.
     "I think I love her. You understand if I want to be with her right?" He had hope in his eyes. I knew tears were pouring out of mine. After everything we've done together. Anger boiled in my veins.

   "I understand," I say; putting on a fake smile.

  "Great!!"

  "Jack," I began "one last thing before you go,"

"Hmm?" I knew there was no taking this back. But what's said is done.

  "Everyone who has ever love you," I paused "is wrong, because you belong in the trash can; like the piece of trash you are. I pity Elsa for being your next victim." I then did a vulgar gesture Merida taught me. I didn't wait to see his expression, even though I hoped he was hurting as I was.

  I felt like I was dying m. I had nobody. Eugene was dead. My sweet dangerous prince was dead. After the wedding with Eugene he wanted to be a protector. He wanted to be a shadowhunter and I joined him as we drank from the mortal cup.
   We were with Joker and Halrey when the warlock tricked us and the demons attached.

Flashback

   A demon had Harley corned and I attacked it using my hair and seraph blade.
   My little sister who became my best friend would not die tonight.
Joker told us to run, that he was going to set off a bomb. He began laughing like a maniac with hope in his eyes. He was a sick man. That's when we heard the scream.

  "What's that?" Harley asked in her high pitched voice.

  "Wh...wh..aaatt?" Joker muttered, sounding like a drunk. He probably was.

   "We have to go help whoever it is," Eugene began

  "What if it's a trap? What if it's a demon trying to lure you to it," I realize that I was screaming in panic. I could feel my whole body shaking an do tasted salt because of my sweating and tears.

  "Hey....hey..don't cry on me," Eugene spoke as he cupped my face in his hands and wiped away my tears with his thumb. "I've trained for this, I can't let someone die on my part,"

  "I'll come with you," I protest.
  
   "No," he leaned in close and whispered in my ear "you have to protect Harley, even though Joker says he loves her, you know as well as I do, that he would leave her to die as long as he lives. Harley's too oblivious to see it, and she'll listen to you,"

  "Harley can fight," I whisper.

"But with Joker, she won't be worried about saving herself,she'll just want to save him," he pauses and smirks "sisters before misters,"

  "Don't joke with me when your lives at risk," I scold him.

  "I'll be back," he then quickly kisses me and runs toward the demons, as Harley pulls me away, with tears streaming down her face, as her mascara poured down her face like a waterfall.

  "Thank ya'," she mumbles "for staying to save me, and for loving me for me."

Eugene never came back. Harley found his body for he funeral. She said that I had least deserves to see him one last time. Even though the demons had destroyed most of his flesh. I cried myself to sleep that night. So much that my eyes burned and my nose ran so much that it got clogged up.
   I felt hollow, like there was nothing left in me. No purpose. And there never would be.
   At his funeral was the first time I ever saw Joker cry.

  "He was so loyal, my favorite gang member by far," I wanted to object and ask ''what about Harley?!' But didn't, because a sad clown, is even scarier than a killer one.

  Harley and Joker stared a new gang to take down Batman. I refused to join but Ianthe didn't. She said "maybe I'll be noticed this way," and burst into laughter. All Ianthe wanted was attention and power. I didn't have the nerve to tell Harley that Joker had the power. Prince of crime. That's what Ianthe wanted. But Ianthe and Harley were finally getting along. I didn't want to mess that up.
  I wish I could help Ianthe, and convince her that she doesn't need power. But how can I help my baby sister, when I can't even help myself.

   
   I pulled my hair out of its braid and began running my fingers through it and pulling it, making it a mess. I should look how I feel. I wanted to start putting it into knots, but that wasn't enough anymore. I just wanted everything to stop!
   Grief, heartbreak, pain, I want it all to stop!!! I didn't want to live like this anymore! If Jack won't love me, than who will? But I'm not going to kills myself, no matter how desperately I want to, it's not the right thing to do.
   I grasped my phone and dialed the number as quickly as I could with shaking hands.

    "Joker,....." I began " I need your help,"

Note: I haven't edited for mistakes in grammar.

A/N: thank you all so much for reading! Sorry I haven't updated in a while, I've had a lot going on with school. I tried to make this chapter longer and I hope you all like it. Let me know your thoughts and predictions in the comments.

    Have a great day and be happy! :)