Nobody cares unless you are beautiful or dead

The rain was the one of the reason why earth is alive. The small drop dancing back and forth making their own music and the essence which made you want to grab the handful of soil and gulp it down. How odd right like they are descendant of heaven sent to earth for spreading happiness and lurk people fall for them. When you can't suppress the urge to swallow hot sizzling food and burn your tongue same was happening with her, she can't stop herself when the rain drop were tempting so what if its March and freezing her till death.

The air was extremely cold, sky wear black silk shirt embeeded with glittering stars, a warm blazer of dark clouds hugged it, the beauty made Jupiter envious. Trees were bare having lost the last of their leaves. The branches swayed naked in the breeze. Despite of many layer of clothing she felt naked and lost like a kid which get separated from the her parents in the aisle.

She stand in the bright lamppost making her glow like firfly, sometimes shiny sometimes dull, the moonlight and rain kissing her when she come between their path back to earth. Her skin was lunar reflection of night sky, silent but beautiful and her eyes were twinkling stars, beams of light leading the lost soul through their darkest hour.

Her smile painted like a mythical creature and can make you captive of her like fairytale. The hair fleet similar to gold river ready to purify you, exceptionally shiny that can fail Kaleidescape, she was beauty, imperfect beauty which made her all more powerful in the realm.

Sitting on the edge of ocean wondering how it felt to dive in, and not knowing how to swim, like an intrusive thought, the urge of seeing what inside made her wanted to jump and discover the whole new world beneath. Everyone in the world stand in front of her like she was the art which needed to be understand and appreciated but in reality no one ever think that she just simply needed to be loved.

" Are you for real right now?" Intruding her thoughts a strident voice torn through the water toward her pinna. She closed her eyes and inhale loudly when her bracelet digged deeper in her skin by the hold of her captor who yanked her back and glared the bullet in her skull.

" Do you even know what my investors were thinking when you walk out the party like you don't care" he made her look into his blue embraled eyes which reaches the depth of ocean yet it unable to reach her heart. She stood there and she felt it, that weird burning coarsing feeling through her vein, except this time it was stronger.

" so what do you want to prove this rain can make you happy and I can't but the reality is that you can't make me satisfied cause you don't care, you ruined my reputation today. I know you you were cheep but do you really have to show it to other, it was fine until I was the only one of your victim but now everyone know your real face" just like the hammer on the ice slices she don't understand how he manage to crack her heart open again and for how long he was going to do it, maybe until it melt in front of his eyes and paint his wall red.

" No matter how much expensive clothes I made you wear, you won't fail to show where you belong, down market" she held the dress tightly in her fist, only if she know the dress was more worthy then her, she would have kept it safe in voult and lock it with her life as password but was it worthy.

" Who gonna pay for your 25000$ Louis Vuitton dress, you can't even afford  your one time food, it's given by me in charity, all you could in return is to behave civilized " she tried to held his cheeks to make him come out of the bloody nightmare but the person who use to lean in her touches like toddler lean for their mother embrace now pushed her hands far away in glenn, he didn't even wanted her in front of his eyes anymore.

" There are more than thousand of women running behind me but I choose you and now I'm regretting it, I wish I cheated on you so you can leave me for good, you are nothing but a burden to me" for one last time she look into his eyes and searched the unfamiliar emotions like looking for the small pond in the desert it was very rare case and even if she found it, she wasn't sure that it was real or mirage, a game that her mind was playing on her.

" I pray I never met you on the first place" that was it, the last string he needed to break to make her limbs fall apart, as long as she remembers she was his pet who talk like he wanted, walk like he wanted, do everything according to him in the name of love. Now she wanted to be free and wanted her and she was going to do it even when it will leave a nasty scars on her soul.

" Do you really have to be that honest?" her shaky voice hop on the water droplet and reaches his ear, his features show how shock he was to hear her speaking back to him, his pet decided to bite her master" So honest that you made me bleed just by your words" the heavy breathing exchanged between them for few solid seconds and she kept looking at him, the man who claim to love her failed in even differentiating if her lashes were wet with tears or rain.

" I never care what other think, I always prioritize what you think about me, rain can never make me happy until and unless it able to hide my tears, washes away your essence from me" her red bloodshot eyes look at his sinful gorgeous one. As much her smile was short on her face the pain was longing deep in her heart. She can't take it anymore or else her heart will burst out like a overloaded oven.

" I wanted you to be part of me, my happiness, I wanted us, the small bickering, the long walk, the late night phone call, the good morning text, a cute picture with you, to hold your hand in public, to make food together, to call you baby, that's what I want, I wanted you" she try to hold herself together and let out the amount of hatred he manage to engraved in her soul and broken her.

" But you know what I got, this 25000$ dress, 100$ high heels, and these 90000$ diamond set, why I get all these because we can't have small bickering we fought like we were enemies whole our life, long walks were very far I wished you would have spend the weekend talking to me or maybe just few hours, phone call and good morning text what's that, have you ever even return the message I sent you, cooking was the work of maid and you can't do it and neither let me, you were too ashamed of me calling you baby that I forget this word existed, I lost you, hell you were never mine" he watched her eyes turning darker and grayer like always when she get angry or sad and now it was darkest.

" you give me food in charity, wow,  remember the alpha man who was shattered like piece of glass when I found you, I glued each and every piece  back together which so much love and prayer, kiss its crack filled, polished the surface with selfless time" her hands gesture on the other like she was fixing something and then she kissed the imaginary thing in her hands and close her eyes before attaching it to her heart.

He watched her heavy eyelid struggling to open once it did she doesn't hold any emotions underneath like a blank paper, " what I get in return, blames, cheep, you remind me everytime I was smaller than you that I don't belong beside you,  Do you ever loved me?" She asked holding him by his collar and yanked him closer so when he tell her lie only she can hear him, world will make fun of her if they get to know she was still hoping" I almost loved  you-" his words were left uncompleted when she attached her hands to his cheeks and made his head turn to side.

The impact made of them feel pain, he felt it physically while she felt it deep inside in her gut " Don't pollute the word love because love shouldn't be exhausting, it shouldn't leave you feel stressed out and unappreciated. Love is suppose to be free, natural, a release from monotony and routine of life, love won't leave you drained, depressed, distraught. Love isn't easy, it's a challenge and we failed Leon" she hugged him tightly pressing her cheeks on his drenched blazer, his arms either side of her not reciprocating the gesture back.

And she, she was confuse, she wanted to walk away and hold on at the sametime and a battle was going inside her heart and she lost it, she fell on his feet and hugged his leg letting the gushed tear dropping in his unappreciated presence. She couldn't help herself, she was trying to make a building home from past 7 years like a making a earthen pot, so much delicately yet it still decided to break and turn into sand now she can't help but try to gather the left pieces.

She might lost the battle with her heart but won the war by detaching the engraved shinny metal ring in her ring finger, the finger which attach to her heart artery. There time when she took the oath she will never remove it not even after her death but now she forced herself to threw it on the face of her destroyer. She pulled herself back to her feet, ready to decided her own destiny.

" I wish you all the best, hope you can find the another doll for your accessories, I had great time " with that she turn her heels and her emotions darted away from his tartboard, she wasn't going to aim a love arrow at him anymore and she understand the person he have become can't feel emotions for her or anyone and before she lose herself in his delusion love she wanted to run away like she was running for her life when grim reaper chased her.

Leon watched her walking away, stumbling and even falling down, he smirk knowing she can never survive alone without him, she will return like she always do, not only that his money could make anyone kneels in front of him even her soul, He was very unaware of the fact that there wasn't any currency which can given in exchange of your self respect. Once you died that's doesn't matter but if your self respect died it can cost you more than anything you ever earned.

Any of you know the feeling of the kid who was trying to read in the car while it was dark outside and his parents doesn't let him turn the light on so he would try to grab the snatches of the sentences when he raised by the streetlight just like that kid she was trying make sense out of her life when other doesn't want her to, she was trying very hard to atleast see the light, grasping sentence out of her life is way to far.

" He was almost in love" and the saddest word in the world wide was almost for her, 'he was almost in love, she was almost good for him. He almost stopped her. She almost lived. He almost cared' she started mourning over the death of her joy, Sniveling on the almost. The pain in her chest was physical.

" you'll catch a cold, wear something warm" and like the streetlight where the word can be visible, she heard the voice, a snowy voice like his heart was frozen same as her. She smiled but he could see the agony in her exotic eyes.

When she met his earthy eyes which was hard but melt as soon she showered it with her watery gaze " Thank you, I will" he was deadly silent like sea before strom, unable to name the fleeting emotions that was roaming in his chest. Like action movie where races take place but instead of car it was his heart which was doing cartwheel.

Why, because she just replied to him, she was able to see and hear him.

She was able to produce a heartbeat in dead heart of Jeon Jungkook, the one who died three months ago.

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Did you felt the emotions, I swear I cried during writing and it's just first chapter. I don't know what will happen in future.

Okay so which paragraph was your favorite in the first chapter?

Anyways I never wanted to tell you the skin color or tone of my female lead so the description might be bit tangled hope you get that and please the lead is nit you but a character so yeah don't mind if I ever describe about her physical approach by mistake.

Votes, do I really have to beg for it?

She was either weirdly naive
Or dangerously intelligent