(If you don't like hearing being vent about their lives then go ahead and skip this.)

I'm so drained anymore... I feel like things have kind of gone to shit in my house. I have to deal with my sisters when my dad is at work on his 48 hour shift, and I also am currently doing 2 jobs here at home, and miscellaneous side jobs on top of school and studying for the Fire Cadet Program. I'm not saying my life is horrible, or that things are not gonna turn out okay... I'm just sort of going insane not being able to see my friends... go to school... have things back to normal, and I'm not trying to say that you guys don't want that too. Things are so different from how they were... and my dad is on the front lines of all of this... being an EMT (Emergency Medical Technician) and a Firefighter. I have many family members who are nurses and paramedics as well.... and some great friends who are either firefighters in training or training to be EMTs. Though not a whole lot can be done but follow the governments orders right now, it's the best we can do... I'm trying my best to make the best of things the way they are, some days I'm actually out and handing out food to people who need it in my community... our state is trying to open up, though I think it's too soon for that. I'm training to follow my Dad's footsteps, and I am very aware that another Pandemic May happen in the future, and that would put me on the front lines, but I'd rather go out there and try and help others rather than sit back and watch things unfold. So many things are going through my mind like this... and I know they won't stop for a while... some days I just feel like screaming, I can barely sleep most nights anymore... I just hope things'll get better...

I may vent some more on here, I don't know... I'll try not to wast your guy's time too much with my venting after this...