Arthit's POV

Kongpob and I have avoided the topic of sex for a while now. We are both scared and confused. We are scared since it's our first time, and Toota didn't make it sound too pleasant the last time I asked. Confused, because we really don't know who should be doing what. Now, that he has brought it up again, I guess it's time to think about it again. So, in the name of research, I have been watching a lot of porn. So much that I think I need to clean my eyeballs. I may have to start taking yoga classes with Krystal too. I really don't think I can bend that way.

As I've watched all these videos, I have noticed that no one seems to be in pain. I mean, if it was so painful, then why would anyone want to do it, right? Everyone makes sex sound so great, so it shouldn't be dreadful, right? Maybe I should ask Toota again since he now has a steady boyfriend. His boyfriend Sam is from the Medicine faculty. Sam is rather quiet, and mature. He is two years our senior. Toota and Sam are the perfect example of opposites attract. Toota makes Sam laugh, and Sam makes Toota calm. They are almost as perfect as Kongpob and I, almost.

After band practice as everyone was leaving, I grabbed Toota by the arm.

Arthit: Toota, can I talk to you in private.

Toota looks at me, and then turns to wave to Bright.

Bright: You guys aren't leaving yet?

Toota: No, I need to get some notes from Arthit. You go ahead. I'll see you tomorrow.

Arthit: Yeah, we will see you tomorrow.

Bright: Alright, bye.

We watched Bright and everybody else leave before talking.

Toota: What's the matter Arthit?

Arthit: Not here. Follow me.

I walked to a vacant office that nobody uses, and locked the door once we got inside. I pointed to a few empty chairs there.

Toota looks at me nervously.

Toota: Arthit, what's going on? Is everything okay?

Arthit: No no, everything is fine. I just have a few questions to ask you.

Toota: Okay, go ahead.

Arthit: How are you and Sam?

Toota: We are fine. Why? What have you heard? Is there something I need to know about?

Toota starts to panic.

Arthit: No. Of course not. I haven't heard anything. I was just asking.

Toota instantly looks relieved.

Toota: Don't scare me like that Arthit. So, what is it then?

Arthit: Do you guys have sex?

I feel very embarrassed and awkward, but there's no other way to ask. I can literally feel my ears getting red as we speak.

Toota: Like bunnies.

Toota smiles dreamily.

Arthit: Okay, then can I ask you a few questions about it? I mean sex.

Toota: Huh? Didn't I tell you before? Hold on. Does this mean you and Kongpob haven't had sex yet?

Toota gasps feigning shock with his hands over his heart.

I just nod looking away.

Toota: How do you not jump Kongpob's bones? Look at him.

Arthit: Hey! Don't talk about him like that.

Toota: Fine, but don't tell Sam I said that either. So, what do you want to know?

Arthit: First, I want to know is, how do you know who should be top, and who should be bottom? Do we just rock, paper, scissors?

Toota: Well, everybody is different. Some people only like to be top, some only like to be bottom, and some are versatile where they like being both. Actually, a lot of couples like to switch it up. It just depends on how they feel at the moment. Don't let those stigmas about being top or bottom get to you. Top doesn't mean any manlier, and bottom doesn't mean any less. It really is just a preference.

Arthit: What about you? What do you like? If you don't mind telling me?

Toota: Well, I honestly prefer bottom. I've tried to top, and it's just not my thing.

Arthit: Bottom? But you told me it hurts, and you bled the first time.

Toota: Yes, it did hurt, and I did bleed the first time. And that's because I was not well prepared. I told you what to do last time so you can avoid my mistakes. Remember?

I shake my head vigorously.

Arthit: I think I stopped listening after you mentioned bleeding. I'm sorry.

Toota dramatically rolls his eyes.

Toota: Sighs. You are lucky I'm around to tell you all this. So, here's the thing. It's going to be awkward no matter what for your first time. However, if you prepare well, you can at least avoid my painful mistakes. I suggest that you and Kongpob start getting familiar with stretching your butt holes. You guys can try just stretching it in the shower sometimes. That way the feeling won't be as weird when the real thing happens.

I know I'm probably as red as a tomato right now, but all this was actually helpful information.

Toota went on to tell me about the types of lubricants, condoms, cleaning requirements, and stretching. He has even offered to get me all the necessary supplies. He truly is a great friend. I should get him a nice gift for his next birthday.

I went home that night a little more hopeful. However, how do I explain all this to Kong? There's no way to make any of this sound romantic. Maybe I should ask Toota to explain all this to Kong. I want both our experience to be as pleasant as possible. It's our first time, and it's meaningful to us.

Kong has offered to let me top him, but I want to try it too. Being Kong, he probably just doesn't want me to be in pain, but I want us to experience everything together. Like Toota said, we won't know what works for us unless we try it. Valentine's Day is coming next week, and it's our first one as a couple. I think it will be perfect timing for our first time too.

I have already bought bus tickets for Hua Hin, and I've booked a night with a nice beach resort. This will be perfect. I'm also glad that Kong won't have practice that Saturday too. Maybe they finally realized that even contestants have lives outside of that stupid competition. I honestly can't wait for that to be over with so I can have my boyfriend back.

I've told my mom that we are going to go do research for an assignment, and we will be back by Sunday night. She didn't even question me. See how awesome things are aligning. Now, I just have to find a way to get Kong on that bus without him suspecting anything. I want this to be a total surprise.

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AN: Yesterday, something tragic happened to me. I lost this whole chapter in Apple pages. I don't know how or when it happened. 🤬 I must have accidentally deleted it. I don't know. I was so pissed. I rewrote everything up to 3am last night/morning. I feel like I'm still missing parts, but I can't think anymore. I hope it's still okay. I'm still very mad though. 😠