Tw: Deeming certain foods as bad, being anxious about eating, not wanting to eat certain foods(because of calories) also another that I don't know how to explain it but I wrote a note before it comes up so yeah

They came home from walking Bear. It was an extremely hot day so they had cut it short to avoid over heating. They gave Bear more water than she would typically drink. Virgil collapsed onto the couch, this was the one thing he didn't miss from when he had moved to a colder part of Canada. He absolutely hated being hot. "I know a fun way to cool off," Patton said.

Virgil lifted his head to look at his boyfriend, "What is it?"

"Ice cream!" Patton answered. Virgil was filled with fear, he had cut ice-cream out of his diet as he saw the food as bad. Patton was already heading to the kitchen, "Come on Virgie!" Virgil reluctantly followed after. Patton took the freezer-burned ice-cream out of the freezer. Virgil's mind told him that he couldn't eat it, he had to deny it. Have a popsicle instead, they typically were lower calorie. Bear stood up from her spot next to the couch and brushed up against Virgil's hand. He looked down at her and weakly smiled. He keeled down and scratched behind her ears. She gave his face a dog kiss, it wasn't her usual happy one, it was more sad and maybe understanding that Virgil was anxious. He hugged her close and took a deep breath. He had to do this. Every meal he ate brought him closer to being okay.

Virgil tried to find a reason that would make him feel it was okay to eat the desert. Then he thought of it.

(These next couple of lines I don't know how to write because I don't want to body shame because all bodies are beautiful but like eating disorders demonize bodies on the heavier side and it's just like bfbsdbsjiobfsiskisbd. I'm sorry)

He would see what people were eating and if Virgil's head deemed their bodies not good enough he would cross that food off of food he was allowed to eat. Of course he hated that he did this as he thought all bodies were beautiful but his disorder messed with his morals a lot. It was also weird to stare at people, especially to focus on their thighs and stomachs. The good thing was that he never left his house before so he didn't break his morals and stare.

Virgil focused on Patton's body, it did look great. He had nice thick thighs and a stomach that was soft and great for cuddling. If he loved Patton's body and Patton ate it, that made it okay. He'd honestly would love to have Patton's beautiful body and then also his body confidence. Patton turned around with two bowls with ice-cream in them. Patton had already decorated his food with toppings. Virgil decided that he could do the same. He went with just some chocolate sauce and whipped cream. Patton smiled at him and began rambling about something. Soon he noticed that Virgil had finished his ice cream quickly. "Wow, you ate fast. You must've hadn't had a sundae in a while!"

Virgil shrugged as if it wasn't anything to talk about, "Yeah I stopped eating it when I was eighteen I think."

Patton grinned at him, "Well that's progress!"

Virgil sent a small smile back, "Yeah, sweet progress."