Tw: implied self harm scars, not wanting to eat, calorie counting, purging

"My class is going on a field trip to a ranch soon," Patton said as they ate dinner, "but we don't have enough chaperones. so it might get canceled."

"If i'm allowed to I'd be happy to be a chaperone," Virgil offered.

"Of course you can! You have to fill out some paper work but it's easy," Patton said.

Virgil got the paper work from Patton and he filled it out. He was going to chaperone, he liked children and it sounded like they needed help so why not.

Virgil got in the car with Patton to head to the elementary school. They got there and they had to be in the classroom for a little bit before the bus got there. All the other chaperones were in the classroom so Virgil went inside to. A little girl gasped and ran up to him, "Virgil!"

Virgil was confused on how she knew his name but he assumed that she was Elizabeth and she recognized him from his stitched jacket. Virgil knelt down and smiled at her, "You're Elizabeth, right?" She excitedly nodded. "Nice to meet you," Virgil told her.

Virgil got a few weird and or curious looks from the other people in the room but that was expected. Soon the bus showed up and they all got into it. Elizabeth wanted to talk to Virgil more as she was curious about him. She sat next to him on the bus, making Patton have to sit next to one of the other chaperones but he didn't mind too much. "Why do you wear so much black?" She asked.

Virgil fought the urge to reply with 'because i'll stop wearing black when they make a darker color', "I just like the color."

"I like your hair," She complimented.

"Thanks, Pa- Mr. Sanders helped me dye it," Virgil told her.

"Do you love him?" She asked, just as she had asked Patton.

"You are a curious child aren't you?"

Elizabeth nodded, "It's why i'm the best in the class. So do you love him?"

"Of course I do, it's him," Virgil casually replied.

"Do you know that he loves you?"

Virgil looked up at Patton who was ahead of them a few rows and smiled, "Yeah."

At the ranch all the kids got into their chosen groups. They then got to choose which chaperone they got, but everyone had to agree or else the adults would choose for them. Elizabeth convinced her group to choose Virgil and so that's who they got.

They walked around the ranch in their separate groups. Virgil really didn't see the point of this field trip. He guessed that maybe it was to give the kids an experience because they weren't really learning a lot. Or maybe it was to just show them where their food came from. Either way it was uncomfortably hot. One of the kids in his group looked up and saw that he was still wearing his jacket in the direct sunlight. "Why are you wearing your jacket still?" the little boy, who Virgil had learned was Marco, asked.

"I just like it," Virgil answered when the truth was that he was wearing a short sleeve underneath and he didn't want any of the kids to see his arms. Marco accepted the answer and went back to petting the cow.

Lunch time came around. Part of Virgil's mind told him that it was a perfect time to not eat as he was exercising by walking around and Patton wasn't there right now to stop him. The louder part of him said to eat because maybe if he didn't the kids would remember and think that it was okay to not eat, and he didn't want to influence anyone to not eat. Virgil put on a small smile and ate a sandwich he had made. 690 calories so far, 690 too many.

When the field trip was over and they were back home Virgil couldn't stop thinking about how he had too many calories. He wanted out of dinner but he saw the looks Patton was beginning to give him, if he skipped then Patton might find out he'd relapsed. Virgil tried to keep a low calorie count for dinner but there wasn't anything he was certain on the calories and the only thing he was certain on would put him right at his limit and it would be concerning if he only ate that.

Virgil told Patton that he was taking Bear out to go to the bathroom. He brought her outside with him. In the small back yard he made sure Patton couldn't see him if he glanced out. Virgil kneeled and took a plastic bag out of his pocket. He opened it up wide and then he stuck his fingers in his mouth. He triggered his gag reflex and his fingers were pushed out by his vomit. He spit the remaining stomach acid in his mouth into the bag. He looked at it, disgusted. He knew that there was more in his stomach so he triggered his gag reflex again. Virgil tied up the bag and hid it in the bush he was next to so that he could dispose of it later. Bear walked over to him and licked his cheek. He smiled at her then got up and they headed inside. Virgil washed his hands and rinsed out his mouth with water.