Tw: Talk about eating disorders

Happy Pappy Patton:
Have you told Logan yet?

Roman The Beautiful Prince: 
No. I was going to last night but we were cuddling and I didn't want to ruin it for him!

Happy Pappy Patton:
Roman it'll be better for your relationship once you tell him

Roman The Beautiful Prince:
Ugh I know

Roman The Beautiful Prince: 
I just don't know how to tell him! How did Virgil tell you?

Happy Pappy Patton:
I don't know if that's my business to tell you. I don't know how much Virgil wants you to know.

Roman The Beautiful Prince:
I guess that is fair, I'll ask him instead. And if he doesn't want to tell me I'll just find a WikiHow article

Roman took a deep breath to prepare to ask Virgil. Patton was the only that knew but that was only because Patton was too good of a friend so he caught Roman with ease.

Roman The Prissy Prince:
Hey Virge

Sewer Emo:
Sup prince boi

Roman The Prissy Prince:
So uh I was wondering how you told Patton about your eating disorder?

Sewer Emo:
Uhmmmm why do you ask?

Roman The Prissy Prince:
Uh well, I guess I should tell you since I'm asking. You know how you were(?) bulimic, do you know of the different types?

Sewer Emo:
Yeah there's the most typical which is vomit, there's laxatives, exercise and then fasting which some people argue is just a form of anorexia. I think that's all of them

Sewer Emo:
Why do you ask?

Roman The Prissy Prince:
Okay so uh, I kinda have exercise bulimia and I don't want to lie to Logan anymore so I want to tell him

Sewer Emo:
Oh uh well Patton found me trying to kill myself and at the hospital it was revealed that I was severely malnourished, I was extremely thin and I tried to resist being fed through a tube until Patton frowned at me(I swear that frown is magic). It was kinda obvious but I highly suggest not doing this. I'm pretty sure my organs are fucked up because of it but at least they still work👍

Roman The Prissy Prince:
Wait you tried to kill yourself? Patton said that when he visited you that you two realized you missed each other too much and so you moved in together

Sewer Emo:
Yeah, that was probably because Patton wouldn't want to say anything about my issues without permission first

Roman The Prissy Prince:
True, the only lies he tells are to protect his friends

Sewer Emo:
He once said he was straight

Roman The Prissy Prince:
Dirty liar

Roman The Prissy Prince:
He's just so obviously panromantic. There is no looking at him at any point of his life and thinking that he's straight

Sewer Emo:
I detect no lies in that

Roman The Prissy Prince:
Lol

Roman The Prissy Prince:
Wait I still don't know what to do with Logan!! Do have any advice?

Sewer Emo:
I don't know, just be honest with him. Get him at a good time and sit him down. Tell him it's something important and explain what you do ed wise

Roman The Prissy Prince:
Thanks

Roman The Prissy Prince:
Ugh I'm scared, I hate being scared

Sewer Emo:
You'll be okay. Logan loves you, he's not going to leave you

Roman The Prissy Prince:
Thanks

Roman The Prissy Prince:
You know you're really kind. In fact-

Roman took a second to change Virgil's name in his phone, sending a screen shot of Virgil's new name to him.

A Very Kind Virgil:
Ew, put the sewer back in and make it honest

Roman The Prissy Prince:
You just don't know how to have a nice moment do you?

A Very Kind Sewer Virgil:

Roman The Prissy Prince:
Why do I feel like you just already had that on your phone?

A Very Kind Sewer Virgil:
Because I did

Roman The Prissy Prince:
Good job

Later once Logan had come home and had taken his mandatory 'high school teacher with rude students' nap Roman decided that it was a good time to talk to him. "Hey Love," Roman cautiously called.

Logan looked up from his book, "Yes Bambi?"

"You're free to talk right now, right?" Roman asked.

Logan set his bookmark into the book and shut it, "Of course I am. What do you need to talk about?"

Roman took a deep breath, "I have a disorder, it uh." Roman didn't finish his sentence, instead he sighed.

Logan took one of Roman's hands into his own, "It is alright. Take your time."

Roman gulped, "I'm just scared. You're always so calm and perfect, I don't like worrying you and being less than you."

"Roman it is not possible to be perfect, everyone has flaws and I would rather be worried than have you bottle up your emotions. It is not a good way to deal with them, you know that."

Roman took another deep breath, "I have exercise bulimia."

"Exercise bulimia?" Logan questioned, "I believe I do not know what that is. Would you like to explain it to me?"

Roman inwardly smiled at Logan's willingness to learn when he didn't understand, "You see me eat, and I eat normally. You also know how I exercise a lot. So I just kinda count the calories of what I eat then I go off and exercise until I burn all of them off. But if I don't do that I have very dark thoughts."

Logan frowned, "Is that why when I try to stop you from going to the gym or try to get you to exercise less you get angry."

Roman sadly nodded, "Yes, I just feel worthless if I'm unable to exercise. I don't mean to get mad, I'm sorry if I've ever hurt you because of it."

Logan shook his head, "No, I always have assumed that you were grumpy and needed to sleep or something along those lines. I never took your anger personally."

"I'm glad, I'd rather die than hurt you."

Logan smiled, he looked down and rubbed the back of Roman's hand with his thumb, "So what should we do now?"

Roman shrugged, "I don't know, I just wanted you to know the truth. Plus Patton would probably attack me if I refused to tell you."

"Patton knows about this?"

"Yeah, he's been trying to convince me to go to the gym less. I've kinda been lying to him and I tell him that I don't go to the gym as much as I used to but I honestly still go as much, maybe even more. I don't even know how he found out and then I also told Virgil while asking for advice on how to tell you."

"He knows a surprising amount about mental illnesses," Logan said.

"I wonder why," Roman thought aloud. "I hope it isn't because he has mental illnesses himself."

"He does seem to have problems with expressing any of his negative emotions," Logan muttered as he thought through all of Patton's actions.

"Should we tackle him next time we're over and make him tell us how he feels?" Roman asked.

"I don't think we should literally tackle him but I think it would be good to make sure he's okay."

"He tackled me once when I wouldn't tell him how I felt," Roman brought up. "Granted it was an accident and he just meant to hug me but it's a tackle."

Logan rolled his eyes, "Not a tackle, and don't attack Patton when we see him again."

Roman groaned, "Fine."

Logan smiled and kissed Roman's cheek, they smiled at each other until Logan's smile halfway faded and he looked down at their hands, "I'm going to take you to a therapist."

"You don't have to do that," Roman protested.

Logan shook his head, "No, I want to help you get better. I don't know how to help you so I'll take you to someone who does know and then I'll help you along the way."

Roman softly smiled, "You're an amazing boyfriend."

"I'm just doing the best I can."