Kiro

I looked around my surroundings...a hospital oh no....No no no no...I heard my heart rate monitor start beeping and feeding tube up my nose...No no no no..

Kiyoshi looked shocked and he grabbed my hand and kissed it softly. "shh Kiro its okay...calm down...your body needs this...if you waited any longer you would of died..." he said with tears falling down his face. I want to die though....then why does my heart clench when I see him crying for me...why does he care so much....

I'm going to gain weight....I was so close to my goal weight...a doctor came in. "so you're awake I see" she said smiling....kinda?

"well Kiro we have examined you and depending on your parents choice you are going to go either home to psychiatric ward or be an inpatient for anorexia/ bulimia. We looked at your throat and they are irritated from purges and from not talking. So how can I contact your legal Guardian?" she asked. I started shaking and my heart rate increased more. I put my hands on the side of my head shaking my head no. My eyes wide.

If she finds out she will kill me...she will murder me....she will beat me.....No....I can't do this...then I felt warmth in my hand. Kiyoshi grabbed it tightly and smiled at me. "hey doc can I have a moment with him please" he asked. He's going to yell at me....I know he is....

The doctor stepped out. Kiyoshi pulled me into a hug. It hurt but I felt safe I bruise easily. I cried on his shoulder. "Kiro what's wrong.. Please you need to get this help.." he said. Then handed me the notepad.

I wrote: "she can't know...she can't."
"why love" he said calmly and we both blushed at what he had said. I wrote again:
"Because she will hurt me..."
he was Confused then a look of realization crossed his face and his face looked sad. He looked down then said "were all those bruises from her at school..."
"not just her....John and his friends too...and my dad..." I wrote. And then he looked shocked and said something that made terrible memories come back.

"Kiro...where were you for a month..?" I looked down....I can't cry again.
"nothing" I wrote then looked up with a fake smile and tears pricking the corners of my eyes. He hugged me again.

Why is he hugging me..."please dont lie to me..let me be there for you.." I squeezed my eyes shut..and pushed him away slowly grabbing the note pad and paper..

"My dad tried to sell me to a man as a neko prostitute...I was beat until someone found and liked me...." My hand started shaking. "he raped me...everyday...he touched me...tied me up...beat me...and raped me multiple times daily.." I looked away and shoved the paper to him.

He grabbed me and hugged me tightly...holding me. Then he grabbed my face and looked into my eyes and kissed away my tears..I blushed and cried harder...I probably looked like a fat mess..we just got together...is this okay...

He then strokes my cheek and said "I will NEVER let anyone hurt you again" he got in the bed with me which made me scared...I dont want to be touched..."it's okay I won't hurt you" I relaxed a little and he pulled me into his chest. I was happy. I fell asleep on his chest gripping his shirt.

                         Next morning

I woke up to not see kiyoshi by me...so he left already...tears pricked my eyes and then I heard the door open quietly.

"Kiro?? What's wrong?? It's okay I'm here" it was kiyoshi. He ran over and hugged me softly setting down a plate of food.I cringed.

"Kiro for me please " he said with pleading eyes..it was so much..I realized it was already noon..he brought a sandwich some fruit and a cup of juice..

"please eat at least half the sandwhich and the fruit...You don't want to do this anymore...You dont want to suffer everyday counting calories throwing up meals...killing yourself slowly...You have me now.." he said slowly and in pain.

I have to do this...I dont want to be like this anymore...but I know the feeding tube made me gain...but I'm going to do this..

I grabbed a fork and slowly poked one strawberry taking a little bite..I love strawberries..I put it in my mouth chewing slowly..6 calories..No Kiro stop..eat dont count..

I ate the fruit with my eyes closed quickly so I couldn't count the calories..I felt sick after eating the cup of fruit..but I have to eat half a sandwich to..I took a bite slowly..I felt sick...this is the most I've eaten in awhile...but I have to..I ate the sandwich..I felt like I would throw up and not on purpose.

"kiro...are you okay..?" kiyoshi asked worriedly. I fake smiled and nodded my head then tried to get up but collapsed on the floor..he helped me stand up.

I pushed him slowly then walked to the garbage can with the stand helping me stand steadily ..I threw up everything I ate. I tried to talk. "I-im so-" I started having a coughing fit and my throat hurt. It felt like it was bleeding.

Kiyoshi ran and grabbed me water. I drank it slowly. He must be so disappointed in me. I pointed at the empty fruit bowl.
"pl-ease" I squeezed out and took another drink of water.."i-im sorr-y" I choked out again. "Kiro please dont force yourself you will hurt yourself" he said.

I pointed at the fruit again looking down "pl-e-ease" I said shaking a little and he went and got me some more fruit. My throat couldn't take anymore so I wrote "arigato...." then I put a line through it and wrote "thank you sorry".

I ate the fruit slowly this time. I peered up at kiyoshi and he was smiling at me. "thank you kiro" he said then leaned in and kissed my forehead. I blushed and hummed in response. He's proud of me...

I smiled a little. "I love your smile so much" he said gazing at me with a smile of his own.. I smiled down at myself.

                            Kiyoshi pov
"kiro" I spoke slowly. He looked up at me confused. "I called your mother" his eyes widened and he looked at me scared. "wh-wh-why" he replied in a raspy scared voice. "Kiro I told her you were in the hospital for anorexia nervousa and you almost died...she came here signed some papers and now my mom has the rights to talk to your doctors and decide what you will do.." I said. " My mom doesn't mind actually she's glad..you'll be released today and you'll come live with us until my mom's done getting you into inpatient care..she found a really good eating disorder and depression Institute..you'll be there for a month we will visit every Friday okay...?"

(A/n : I'VE NEVER BEEN HOSPITALIZED FOR AN EATING DISORDER SO THESE THINGS MAY NOT BE 100% ACCURATE I'M JUST GOING BASED IN EXPERIENCE AND HOW ID HOPE THINGS WOULD GO OKAY BYE ENJOY LOVE YOUR ANNOYING AUTHOR)

He just sat there staring at me his eyebrows furrowed. "after the month you will be an outpatient and you can come home and live with us for as long as you want you can sleep in my bed until you go to inpatient care okay...? For now let's practice speaking". Kiro sighed and we practiced getting his voice back.

It was the next day yesterday we practiced getting his voice back and today he will be released to live with me. He will stay at my house for about three weeks and then he'll go to inpatient for a month...ah I'm going to miss him.

Right now me and my mom are picking up Kiro and informing the doctors of our plan. When I went into kiro's hospital room he was dressed sitting criss cross on his bed...I sighed his clothes were baggy on him. He was just staring blankly at his breakfast with a fork in his hand. He didn't notice me yet.

He sighed and picked up his bowl of yogurt with granola and berries and clenched his eyes shut and took a bite. I was so proud this was the perfect chance. I walked over to him while his eyes were still tightly shut and kissed his scrunched up nose. Then he slowly opened his eyes and he jumped back and started choking on his food. I guess I scared him.

I sat next to him patting his back and apoligized while rubbing the back of My neck. He glared at me but then smiled a bit and continued eating. I could tell he didn't want to but he continued.

My mom came into the room and told us it was time to go. We got in the car me sitting passenger. And the car ride home was peaceful. I broke the silence. "hey mom?" I said in a gentle calm voice. "yes honey" she said smiling while staring at the road. I looked back at Kiro and smiled he looked confused.

"I'm gay." I said. She smiled and kept driving Kiro was in the back panicking. I put my hand on his knee and said "Kiro is my boyfriend" then I smiled. "honey you didn't have to tell me all you had to say was he was your boyfriend you know I accept you no matter what okay? I love you thank you for trusting and telling me." she smiled still looking at the road.

I looked back at Kiro and smiled softly. I knew she'd accept me but I just wanted her to know. Also it makes me happy I'm finally being honest to myself.

My mom came to a stop at a gas station and then smiled evilly at me then said in a menacing soft kind voice. "You better not do anything perverted to precious Kiro or else I'm taking away your car." she patted kiro's head and smiled sweetly at him and he was in shock. Then she glared at me and walked into the store. Then I heard giggling from the back seat and it was Kiro.

"Hmph" I pouted. Then I felt something poke my cheek and I turned and saw Kiro glancing at me pretending nothing had happened. I exited the car and kiro's eyes followed me and I opened the door and sat next to him. He played innocent and looked confused. I started tickling him mercilessly and he started laughing uncontrollably.

My mom walked over with some snacks and she glared at me. "leave poor Kiro alone" she said then gave Kiro a snack with the calories scratched out. He looked and sighed but ate slowly.

"moommm what about meee can I have a snackkk " I asked in a annoying kid voice. "hm of course" she Gave me one and patted my head I sat beside Kiro he was blushing.

We got to my house I introduced Kiro to my sister. Lilly smiled at him and shook his hand she already knew the situation and why. "Lilly." I said normally "I'm gay and Kiro is my boyfriend" she just shrugged. "figured but I accept you big bro" she smiled and walked away. I looked at Kiro and he was blushing and looking away.

Kiro and I ate lunch and then I gave him a tour of the house. It was getting late so I decided to prepare dinner.

Last night me and my mom spent hours crossing out the calories on everything in the house so Kiro had nothing to worry about she even restricted all pages of internet on every device so he can't look up calories nutrition facts food related stuff and eating disorder stuff.

"hey Kiro wanna help me make dinner?" I asked and he looked shocked but nodded anyways. We are making chicken stir fry over white rice and chow mein.

Kiro made the rice and I made the chicken and vegetable mix. I looked over to check on Kiro after feeling him tap my shoulder frantically and his pot was boiling over. I went up behind him and put an oven mit on his hand and we picked the pot up together.

I heard a click and turned around my sister smiled evilly. "fu~ fu~ I got an amazing picture" she said then showed me and Kiro. Kiro was bright red and was frantically trying to explain but he still couldn't fully talk.

"send that to me" I said with a straight face then Kiro gave up. "ouch!" I heard Kiro say. "Kiro what's wrong are you okay??" I looked at him and he was holding his hand tears pricking him the corners of his eyes. He hummed and nodded yes and I sighed.

I dragged him to the restroom upstairs and took our a first aid kit and pur burn cream and wrapped his hand. "please be more careful and let me take care of you"I said and sighed again.

"i-im sorr-y" he choked out his voice still sore. "it's okay just next time please be careful." I said with a small smile then we went down to finish dinner but my mom was already finishing it for us.

She served out plates and we thanked her for the meal and ate peacefully. I glanced at kiro on with pleading eyes seeing he was taking small bites and eating slowly.

He saw me and I noticed him trying harder. When dinner was over we said our good nights and got ready for bed. Since Kiro has been trying so hard he can finally speak normally but if he talks too loud it can damage his throat.

"kiyoshi...You know I can sleep on the floor if you like you can have the bed it's your bed to begin with" he said slowly and softly looking unsure. "No it's okay I'm fine on the floor" I said with a smile. He nodded in response still looking unsure.

We slept until I was awoken by screaming and sobbing. "NO DONT TOUCH ME STOP PLEASE STOP...please.." it was kiro.

                          Kiro POV
                           ~Dream~
"NO DONT TOUCH ME STOP PLEASE STOP...please.." I screamed he kept touching me he kept beating me hurting me.

"Ki...Kiro..wake up it's just a dream wake up.." someone said.

                           ~End dream~

I woke up to see kiyoshi looking at me with worried eyes. "Kiro are you okay? You were screaming is your throat okay? I'll go get some water." kiyoshi said in a worried tone.

No....dont leave me alone..I unconsciously grabbed his sleeve. He looked back at me and I looked down embarrassed. "please dont leave me alone..." I said. "Kiro you're okay you're safe I promise I won't let anyone hurt you. Kiro I'm going to lay with you is that okay?" I was scared but I nodded anyways kiyoshi wouldn't do that to me...he wouldn't hurt me.

He crawled into bed next to me and pulled me into his chest. I felt safe. He's going to keep me safe. I snuggled into him.

"hey kiyoshi...why did your mom name you a Japanese name..?" I asked. Kiyoshi in Japanese means pure and it suits him but why? "well my mom always loved Japanese culture and my father is actually Japanese but he left us when I was young. They said that as a baby when I was first was born I'd smile at everyone I didn't cry I just smiled. And my dad thought that kiyoshi meaning pure suited me best" he said with a smile.

"I think it suits you very well....thank you for saving me.." I said. Before drifting off to sleep I hear kiyoshi say one thing. "thank you for coming into my life..goodnight..I'm in love with you." I slept soundly for the first time in a long time.

A/n: wow guys almost 3000 words so I'm really actually gonna try to update regularly please be patient with me 💕