Dear hubby,

I know you love when I call you hubby but for the past two months I know I have hurt you by calling you a monster , but it was hurting me so much and everytime ,  when I looked at you it hurted me more.

I tried.

I really tried.

Did you notice how for the past few days I am trying to be normal,doing everything we used to do and you thought I am becoming okay and trust me I also thought the same but I could not be okay.

Yesterday when you slept at night taking me in your arms I didn't feel the same warmth anymore.

Your arms around me felt like a trap and I wanted to be free.

I know you are also in pain , maybe more than me and I am also causing you a lot of heartache but I feel like I am going crazy.

Each and every moment is becoming tough for me.

We promised to be with each other forever but how could I forget the promise I made to my son that I will always protect him.

I failed the promise.

We failed our promise , Abhay.

We could not keep him safe.

I still remember the last time I kissed his forehead and waved him goodbye.

He was so excited to go to Neeraj's house , afterall Neeraj was his favourite uncle and Rumi was his favourite cousin.

"I love you mumma."his last words still echoes in my ears.

Remember how he used to say "No daddy" whenever you used to scold me.

He was just five years old but acted like fifteen.

He never liked me being sad.

He used to always wipe my tears but not anymore.

That day he called me through Neeraj's mobile and said that he will be back with Daddy.

Then why did you ask me to come to hospital?

Why didn't you come home with him?

One office party changed our lives.

I know to keep up the social status you drank ocassionally but you never told me what happened that day which made  you drink so much.

Maybe I was not ready to hear the reason.

Now , I will never know the reason.

But what will I do knowing the reason when our son has gone due to your one mistake of drinking and driving.

Anyways I will not blame you because I want to leave happily.

Afterall I am going to my son.

By the time you will read this letter I will be with my son.

I don't blame you but I couldn't stay with you.

Dont get me wrong I still love you hubby, but everytime I look at you ,I remember my son taking his last breathe in my arms.

Just one request.

Don't drink and drive please.

Now I have to go.

Without me , yash is feeling scared and lonely.

He is calling me.

Dont cry Abhay , it will make me sad.

Let me go to my son happily.

Yours lovi......

The End.

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