MEERA'S POV

I came out of the surgery and sat on the bench which is in the corridor for patients to sit. It's seven in the morning. Took me five hours to stable her condition. I was tired, sleep deprived and I miss Arjun badly.

I took my phone and called his number .

The number you have called is currently unavailable

It says same everytime. I was numb and clueless. It pains so bad. I look around and see there's no one waiting for me. It's like storm has passed and there's serenity all over the place.

Why?
Why my Arjun?

I sat there for hours looking at people praying , kids playing around and relatives visiting their loved ones.

" Meera. " someone called and I shifted my gaze from floor to see that person. Akash came and sat beside me giving me a cup of coffee.

" Drink this." he ordered and I just stared at the cup remembering how Arjun got me a cup of hot chocolate.

He sighed and said " Meera say something. You have been extremely quiet and emotionless these past few hours. Cry , shout or atleast be angry. "

I just looked at him and shifted my gaze back to the crack which is present in the wall opposite to me.

" Meera please talk." he begged and I didn't feel like speaking at all .

" Meera they say flight has been missing after a severe storm hit it. They are saying it might have landed somewhere near the location it found missing. Nik and Sameer are trying to contact officials to know where abouts of Arjun from the time he entered airport. " He said looking at me.

" He can't leave me like that." I spoke finally trying to digest that information.

" He did not. I am sure he's safe somewhere." Akash spoke.

I got up from there and went to my cabin to freshen up. All the while I kept thinking about the time we had and what all he spoke to me.

I couldn't even say I love you to him . I am such a coward .

I closed my cabin door and switched on my music player. I don't know if it's weird that I am not crying nor I am showing any emotion. I don't want to cry and make them believe that he's actually gone from our lives. I don't want to show any emotion indicating I agree to the fact that he's gone. A single tear slipped from my eyes and I tried to stop it. But couldn't. Just then door was banged open by my brother followed by khushi and Akash.

" Meera.! " He said running towards me.

I hugged him and cried out loud. I had this throbbing ache in my heart. I don't want this to be real. I just wanna wake up and say that it's bad dream but it's not !

" Shhh Meera shhh don't cry . No don't. " Sid tried to console me but I didn't hear anything other then that. I cried my heart out holding my brother. He knows how much I love Arjun from the time I met him . He's the one to whom I confessed that I love Arjun and how much he means to me.

" I lost my love Sid , I lost my first love." I shouted crying hard .

" No! You didn't. Be strong Meera. You can't be like this. Meera ! Meera!." I heard him faintly.

My world suddenly got black and I couldn't hear anyone speaking anything about Arjun and his death . It was peaceful. I felt someone lifting me up , probably I am dead too. I didn't want to open my eyes nor do I want to face the world in which Arjun doesn't exist.

" I think she will open her eyes." someone spoke . Am I dead ? Why am I alive ???

" Meera." someone shook me.

I slowly opened my eyes and looked at faces looming over me. I could see them stressed out and worried.

" Sis can you get up?." Nik asked me holding my shoulders.

I got up and sat on bed . I could see both my familes are standing near me looking gloomy.

" For how long I have been out?." I asked them .

" Two complete days Meera." Sid spoke urging me to drink water.

" Sis I know it's tough for you. I got some information infact some thing related to Arjun." Sameer spoke while rest of them looked anixiously at me.

I looked at him confusedly .

" Airport officials found his laptop, apparently after checking CCTV footage they found out that he left it in hurry and after that all footages got blackened due to poor weather and storm . So we assume he did not board his flight." Nik informed me.

I had tears running down my eyes. Can someone please lie to me that he's not dead and going to come home at some point?

I slowly took his laptop bag and asked everyone to leave as I want to be alone. All of them left with Sid closing the door partially. I looked around my room and thought about how we kissed and slept here the other day.

I opened his bag and what I found made my world still.

He has my book. The one which I thought I hid from everyone . My small wish list book !

How did he even get it?!

I plugged his laptop for charging and switched it on. It asked for password and I typed my name in fluke. It didn't open. After many trials I gave up ! I finally typed I love you Meera and bingo ! It opened up!.

The sight infront me made me cry coz he kept our pictures as screensaver. I look drunk in most of them. I went through his files and suddenly found a file name life with my love. I immediately clicked on it curious to find out what is there in it.

I finally got married to my love! Is written in one page .

Marry my best friend - done ! Is written in next page and sentence is striked off.

My first kiss should be unexpected and infront of whole world! - hell yes! Done even this striked off.

Make fun of someone in public and not get caught - done! Written in his writing and striked off

Get drunk - done even this is striked off .

Sit at edge of cliff - it' s striked off.

Love someone secretly - your secret is safe with me Meera . Is written on other page.

I scrolled down and saw my pictures.
Our first kiss, our wedding photo where we are seen holding each other , photo of me during the time when I made fun of my brother by leaking his video I could see Arjun looking at me lovingly, photos of my drunken state me standing in different poses with different statues in a hotel and last one with me looking somewhere sitting on edge of cliff which is taken during our mini honeymoon.

I was shocked looking at next page .
Fulfilled her wishes without her knowledge

This was my last wish out of all seven I wrote when I am younger ! My eyes pricked with tears and my body shook with realisation that what a waste of shit I am ! I could've even say that I love him and he did all this just for me? For my stupid wish list which I once told him that I won't be showing anyone coz it's embrassing for me even then he found it and did these for me!

I looked at screen for hours , pictures of us together or me while sleeping or thinking. I don't know when he took these all but one thing I knew. I can never love as much as he does.My love can't even match his level and dedication.

I regret the day I didn't confess directly to him. I miss him. I miss his presence. He says he's not good at showing emotions but the amount of effort he had put to let me feel it is something even I may not be able to do for him.

I lied back down on bed looking at those pictures and after sometime switched it off as I don't want to remember how pathetic I am.

I saw khushi entering my room carrying a plate of food. I ignored her and sat near window looking at dark sky with full of clouds. How can the almighty play such a game with me?

" Meera have something." khushi said a bit far from me. She knows when I am sad I don't want to talk and when someone forced me to I break out and cry hard. I guess she doesn't want me to black out again.

" Just leave khushi." I said.

" Meera you haven't eaten anything since two days except glucose which has been sent through I.V." she spoke.

I didn't respond. I don't care how they are keeping me alive. I am dead inside. Dead without my Arjun to live with.

" I will, just leave ." I said trying to hint her that I want to be alone. She understood and closed the door partially leaving me to the silence and darkness of this night.

Arjun

That's all I could think before I slipped back into darkness something cold hit me which I think is window rod or something. It didn't pain much and I am glad I am not awake to experience the worst situation of my life.

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