Mikey was happily humming is favourite tone while doing some baking, which surprised half the family...Only one was hard to make contact with AGAIN! The youngest turtle had found his eldest brother looked in his room and by the sound of it he had tossed out some of the furniture to make room for some private training since the Dojo was occupied most of the day by very pissed Raphael.

Speaking of the turtle he needed a check up while the cookies were in the oven he ran to the Dojo and opened it a little to see inside, proving his suspicions right as almost 7 ripped sand bangs covered half the floor! Some had been sent off the chain and some had been met an unpleasant fate with clean slice holes and some had been sliced to shreds. Mikey sighed and knocked on the door to be on the safe side and he was glad for that when Raph looked at him.

"You okay Raph? Is it still about Leo?"

"No...Yes...I just...I'm not maikng sense right now huh?" Raph tried to say.

"Well...You sound clueless of if you are fine or if you are upset...Heck why don't you turtle into the Hulk already!" Mikey asked and next second his hands were glued to his mouth at the last words and Raph looked at him in confusion so he hadn't paid attention to it...Lucky Mikey!

"*sigh* Yes...It's about Leo...I keep trying to figure out why he was so depressed enough to almost kill him self and..." "WAIT WAIT HOLD ON! LEO WAS WHAT?!" Mikey screamed and tried to repeat the words in his head and got the same answer: Suicide. Raph nodded and sat down covering his face and looked like he was about to brake "He said that the leadership was killing him and that he didn't fit and... jada jada jada...something about us not following him! Half of that nonsense made my head spin and now..."

Mikey sat down beside Raph and placed a hand on his shoulder "Hey, if we solves this like brothers we might fix this...But like Leo says: 'you can't solve things on your own sometimes...But you can solve it with others who stands close to you'...And he think I don't listen when he goes on like that" Raph didn't answer so Mikey left him alone for now and went to Donnie's lab, he could hear typing inside so he was inside. A few really hard knocks and then he heard something that sounded like a boulder crashing before the door flew open but before he could be yelled at Mikey opened his mouth.

"First Leo was sad now it's Raph! I swear that depression is spreading in birth order!" Donnie slowly calmed down and pointed to the chair next to his and close the door, Mikey sat down and looked at his genius brother...If he could be a genius in a situation like this one.

"I can't say I'm surprised...I watched Leo that whole time and when he tried to...you know...I knew that we didn't make things easy for him but when I asked him about it he just said the usual"

"What the heck is the usual?! He has like...50 different 'usual' lines and they sound the same to me! Next thing you know he's laying on the floor almost dying!" Mikey brust out and none of them knew that the turtle they were talking about was right outside listening when Mikey yelled, Leo was surprised at first but then he got on same track his two little brothers were on.

"I know Mikey, but, he says he's fine and they end up the same way...He ends up in here almost freaking me out to death! At least Raph is honest when he's upset and tells us but not Leo...*BAM!* He doesn't have to shoulder everything!"

"Dude you need a new desk...You just smashed that one..."

"What are you...How the shell did I do that?!"

"Am I the only sane turtle left here?!"

Mikey opened the door and slammed right into Leo and slowly got terrified "You've been standing there since I got in there right?" He asked, Leo slowly nodded and patted Mikey on the head before moving to the dojo where he found Raph looking at his sai. For a second Leo thought he was gonna stab him self but then he saw some bad drawing of Shredder, Stockman...Everyone who had tried to hurt him in the past, Raph slammed his sai in the Shredder drawing and ripped it to shreds.

"It all you fault Leo tried to kill him self! Next time you try I swear I'll kill you my self!"

"You look like you could use either a long talk or one of Mikey rib crushing hugs"

Raph turned around and found his big brother looking at him with the same look he thought was long gone "Leo...I thought you would be happy again! But you're still just as..."

"Because neither if you guys has been laughing for a weeks...It's...So quiet in the lair and I...Guess I felt lonely" Leo said and sat down on one of the mats and placed his fore head in his hands, like he was trying to regain some of his control. Raph had already noticed that Leo was close to lose the fight with his tears and sat down in front of him.

"How come you feel lonely? We're always here...Even Dad but you never ask for help..." Raph said and looked at the door, Donnie and Mikey stood looking fearful and sad. This could be the only chance they had to know why Leo was still so depressed, Raph sighed grabbed Leo's hands.

"Leo...PLEASE just tell me already"

three pair of jaws slamed in the floor and two got a heart attack! Raph said PLEASE?! Mikey felt his heart racing so fast he was seeing nothing but black and Donnie had to go in doctor mode, Leo didn't say anything at first but letted Raph ask him some short questions-

"How long have you felt like this?" "Since that day Splinter chosed me...I felt like I was going to kill my self...If I did as he wanted then I would slip away from you guys and not be there when you need me and...I heard one time...How you guys talked about me" Raph felt the lump in his throat grow and gasped "You...Heard it all? Leo we...We were so angry that you had been chosen bad we were scare that you would ignore us!" Leo shoke his head as he knew Raph was lying...They were angry and the leadership, they were mad at him.

They hated him.

"Raph...Don't lie...I heard you almost scream how much you hated me at that time but I didn't, I kept going even thou you guys hated m-"

SLAP!

Leo, Raph and Donnie were all looking with wide eyes as Mikey now stood in front of Leo with his hand now behind him in the air and the other warped in a fist...Mikey had slapped Leo with all his strength leaving a mark that grew darker each second and the dojo was now in such silence it could have matched a graveyard.

"Would you just...Stop take everything on your self...Just tell us what we did wrong! I can't take this any longer Leo! Just tell us what we did to hurt you this much"

"None of you did anything wrong...It might just be me that's, what would you do...If I finally died and you were all alone?" Leo asked and waited for a second hit that he knew would make him lose some teeth but it never came, his brothers were looking at him in horror and then Donnie finally had the courage to answer "Leo...Are you saying you was this depressed because you didn't know how to tell us you were dying?!"

Leo looked at him and his gaze fell on the floor in defeat "Leatherhead told me...That I had a small tumour which he suspected was cancer, he said that there was time to treat it so for the past few weeks I had been going to him but nothing has worked so far. So I only had one option left and it wasn't easy...It was the same day you caught me Raph and almost beated the shell out of me, I knew you couldn't handle watching me slowly waste away in cancer so I thought that the only way to put an end to this was to make it quick"

"By killing your self with your own blade?! Damn it Leo! If you hadn't mentioned the caner I would have killed you myself by now!" Donnie said and almost dragged his big bother to the lab and ran some test while RAPH lectured LEO! But he didn't care much about it and Mikey was in some room calling Splinter in Japan, their father had gone to Ancient One for some peace but this wasn't exactly they way they hoped it would be. Of course their father got worried and Mikey asked Ancient One to keep their father calm while they tried to slow the cancer but they were both coming...Resulting Leo would indeed get killed quick...

By their father!

Mikey went into the lab and shared the news "Well, I told Dad about your brain deadness and he's REALLY pissed at you"

"Which level?"

"50 levels higher then Raph's which is 1o according to Donnie" Raph's eyes went wide as plates and his skin lost all the dark colour "did he..." "Oh YES! Some which you don't know off little pupil and the rest were in Japanese, hurry up with the tests Donnie coz this moron to big brother won't be here much longer!" Donnie rolled his eyes and turned to them "Nice try Mikey, Splinter never loses his cool. No matter what the situation"

"Dude, he's going to murder Leo in two seconds! Heck he even threaten to skin us for not making him talk sooner!" Donnie rolled his again and finally got the test results, which brought a surprising look on his face "Leo? How long have you been cancer sick? "According to Leatherhead...About a month and he was worried that it could grow out of control" Leo said and finally laid down on the lab bed as he was starting to lose conscious.

Donnie sat down and looked over the results again "Sounds about right cause...These results shows that it has slowed down just a little but it's not gone...Yet, there's still time to save you..."

"Are you in pain?" He then asked.

"Yes, it's faint...But it grows stronger"