Mom and Hunter were both sitting at the dinning room table when I came in I'm not sure what they were talking about, but it certainly wasn't good news. Hunter's face was red, his cheeks were puffy (both from crying), and he had tears falling slowly down his face as he wept. I could tell he had been crying for a while because of how red his sky blue eyes were. Mom's face was red from crying to and she never had cried before then I knew of something was very wrong...."Cara please come here" my mom had said that one sentence with a concerned tone to her voice and I could see the worry in her eyes. As I approached the table I asked with as much concern as she, " Wh....What's wrong is every..everything ok?"

"Your father won't be home tonight Cara" at that moment she started to cry and Hunter broke down as well and I knew what had happened sort of."Mom what happened how did this happen" I said as I broke into tears and collapsed to the ground , I was told he was hit by a car, but that wasn't enough for me there had to be a better reason this couldn't happen not really not now. I didn't want to believe it was real ,I knew it was though and that is when life really became hard.

May 31, 2013
I hadn't gone to school or spoken to Kyle since my father's death I didn't want anything to do with life anymore I decided it was a good idea to go with that plan ..mom and Hunter were at his orientation so I took the opportunity. I made a plan , I was going to drown myself right then. I went to the bathroom and filled the tub with water and I went and put on my favorite t-shirt it had been dad's that he gave to me and my favorite jeans they were my favorite simply because they were comfortable, they were now my death clothes.

Just as I was about to step into the water I heard a knock on the door ,"Cara it's me Kyle don't ,I know what your doing I know you to well to think you would do anything else come here ,please!" I ran to the door as fast as I could with tears streaming down my face I opened the door and looked at him he embraced me in his arms and started crying ," Cara I know what happened I am so sorry but please don't even think of doing it ,I don't know what I will do if I ever lose you".

We had a very long conversation after that and it made me feel somewhat better and it definitely made him feel better mostly because I promised him I wouldn't try to go through with a plan like that even again and I always keep my promises to him and I always will.