Thank you guys for 12k reads and 647 votes. I didn't know that so many people liked this book so much. But the real question is, whhyyy? And according to the ranks it's #1 in blue exorcists. People actually like my stories. I feel like you guys like me more than I like me.....I suck.

No offence Alex, but you suck.

Oh, I know Alex, I know. But at least we can suck together. WOOOO OOO ITS JUST ME MYSELF AND I. SOLO RIDE UNTIL I DIE, CUZ I GOT ME FOR LIFE. WOOOO OOO I DON'T NEED NO ONE TO HOLD, EVEN WHEN THE NIGHT IS COLD, I GOT THAT FIRE IN MY SOOUUL. actually my soul is cold too, guess I'm freezing to death.

Sorry I kept you waiting for the next chapter, it's just a lot is going on now that school has started again and I'm just so busy. On top of that I get writers block too. I don't really have too much of an idea of what I'm gonna do or how I'll end this...

Thank you guys for giving me ideas on what to write <3 You are all amazing!
I'm using a little bit of everyone's ideas in this chapter, except for one. That one I'm saving for later because it would be a good idea when nearing the end of the fic. It can fit into what I had in mind well and make it more interesting.
So the ideas I'm using this chapter belongs to ThaisGrijalvaNavarro , part of Ch276Zj , rest of their idea will be for later, and LarryAdoptedMe was a great idea but I think I'll use it later along with Ch276Zj . I think it would be a great idea to add in later on. Thank you so much you guys.

So based on the question I asked at the end of a previous chapter, all of my readers are female? 12k reads and every single one of those reads came from girls? How.

You know what that means?

THAT I CAN FREELY TALK ABOUT REDS!!

They suck don't they? Most ppl say they feel like they're being stabbed in the gut when they're on their reds but I don't feel that. For me it's more of a sickening nauseating pain in my gut that comes and goes. And it makes me wanna curl up in a little ball and do nothing. Not like a quick painful stab, more of a gradual ...pain that slowly gets more intense and comes and goes and lasts all week.

Man..us women are tough.
Ftm Trans guys too, since they gets their reds.
Every person on the spectrum with a coochie. They're tough. We bleed non stop for a week without dying, all while suffering intense pain, grouchiness, and low iron from loss of blood.

How did I even get here....what was I talking about? Oh yeah! Sorry for not updating in a while, enjoy! This may not be the best but I really tried.

I hope you make it to the end though, there's another long ass a/n at the end. You don't gotta read it. It's just stuff about me if you're interested 🙃 but y'all aren't interested about my life.

~oOo~

(3rd person p.o.v)

It was 6 O'clock in the morning, the air was crisp and little light shown through the leaves of the forest trees. The sun had not quite risen yet so the sky was still rather dark.
Rin and Amaimon rode on the back of Behemoth as he tracked the faint scent left on the book.
Although they were still confused, they knew that that book held important information that could be dangerous in the hands of those who misuse it. So they understood that it was crucial they retrieve the rest of the pages.
They did not know for sure yet, but it was their theory that the random portals leading to different locations in the multiverse was some how connected to the book. Perhaps they opened all of those portals in search for its knowledge. Obviously they found what they were looking for if they had ripped out all the middle pages.

They had been riding non stop for about an hour now while Behemoth sniffed out the scent of their culprit.

"This is getting boring." Amaimon said slouching over.

"I know, but this is really important, we need to do this. We're getting close, I can feel it."

"I understand why we have to do this, what I don't understand is why they had to come."

Trailing behind them were the group of cram school students struggling to catch up to Behemoth. He had already slowed down a significant amount, he wasn't going to slow down any more.
Mephisto had ordered for them to work together, with great reluctance Rin agreed to let them tag along so long as they don't get in their way.

"You guys need to slow down, we're supposed to work together." Shura said, they were barely keeping up with them.

"I only said I would work with you guys to get that old clown off my back. We don't need your help, you'll only slow us down! We'd like to solve this as quickly and smoothly as possible so we can go home." Rin said irritatedly and sped Behemoth up almost leaving them behind.

Yukio cringed when Rin referred to Gahenna as home. How could he call that hell hole home? He really was a monster.
He didn't understand how the others could act so fripendly towards him. Not only was he the son of the most wicked being to ever exists, but he sided with the demons, moved to Gahenna, and became a demon king. How could they ever trust him? They should be sending him back from which he came. It was disgusting. They had all been blinded by him, after all, demons are the masters of trickery and deception. But he would not be fooled.  

"We'd find the demon faster if we work as a team!" Shura said speeding up. She summoned a lower level demon and ride on its back trying to catch up.

"You don't know what you're in for. I suggest you leave now!"

"This is our mission too! We were assigned to do this!"

"This doesn't concern you or any exorcist. You shouldn't have even gotten involved. You don't even know what you're tracking!"

"And you do? I Know its a high level demon, it's causing chaos, an' It's a threat. That's all the information I need. I'll know it when I see it."

"Oh! Is that so!?"

"I thought you forgave us? What's with your attitude?!

Rin didn't answer, he only sped up.

"Well!?" Rin sucked in a sharp breath.  He could feel his rage like lava flowing through his veins.

"I only said that to keep the peace." He slowed down a bit for them to hear.

"..What?"

He furrowed his eyebrows in frustration.

"Did you really think I would forgive you all so easily?"

"You don't really forgive us?" Shiemi asked in a small voice.

"You all ruined me." He seethed. "You made me ashamed of who I was. You made me think I was the monster when really it was all of you. You made me feel bad for something I never did. Or had control over."

"I never did any of that to you." Shura said. "I was there for you."

"You were every bit as bad as them Shura. You made me think I was weak. You underestimated me and my capabilities. You said I was a threat to no one. I couldn't hurt a fly. I couldn't even control my powers so I wasn't a threat. " He said in a mocking tone. "You held me back. I learned more in one week from my brothers than you could ever teach me in a year. With your stupid candle training. Only light the two on the sides but not the one in the middle. How about I light half of your group on fire, and only leave the ones in the middle untouched? That'd put your candle training to shame!"

Shura went wide eyed and came to an abrupt stop. He sent back her summoned demon and stood I a defensive stance.

"Look Rin. I get that you're upset but NEVER threaten the lives of my students. We upgraded our weaponry. I have all the tools to kill you right here and now if you pull anything."

Rin stopped Behemoth and hopped off of him. Amaimon followed after and stood next to him.

"Oh, I'm so scared."

Yukio pulled out his gun and aimed it at Rin.

"I knew we couldn't trust demons." He spat. "You guys all defended him, and wanted to work with him. But I was right all along. They're a threat."

"Really? You think I'm a threat? I'm so honored." He said putting his hand on his chest. Yukio scoffed. "Put the gun away sweetheart, it has no affect on me anymore."

A shot rang and there was a loud crack and pop sound. Shiemi screamed. Bon went wide eyed. Konekomaru covered his eyes from the scene. Shima stood still like a statue.

Rin had a bullet hole right in the center of his forehead. It was gushing out dark crimson blood. Yukio had a hard expression as he still had his steaming gun pointed towards Rin.

"YUKIO! WHAT THE HELL!" Shura screamed. Izumo had a look of pure shock and horror on her face. "YOU SHOT YOUR OWN BROTHER!? KILLED HIM!"

Things seemed to move in slow motion.

The holy water filled bullet had gone right through his head. In the front and out the back causing blood to splatter. Some landing on Amaimon who was right next to Rin.

To their surprise Rin was still standing. Before their eyes the bullet hole closed itself back up.

"What a rush." Rin said. "Have you gotten it all out of your system, brother?" The way he said the word sent an unsettling chill down their spines.
Yukio stood angry and confused."What on Assiah?"

"No?" He tilted his head to the side. "Shoot me again. It's alright. I dare you. This time aim for the heart." He traced and X over his heart with his index finger.
Yukio slowly put the gun down, still enraged.

"How...are you still...alive?" He breathed heavily.

"I told you. It has no effect." Yukio's faced twisted into an angry scowl. Rin let out a chuckle, which almost sounded creepily demonic. "That look on your face is priceless." He said poking Yukio's nose.

"Is this some kind of game to you? Do you find all this amusing?"

"Very." He smiled. "It's so funny. How you think you're a danger to me. You have no idea what I am. Or what I'm capable of. Don't mess with me Yuki. You're playing with fire, and you're going to get burned." There was a firey look behind Rin's eyes.
Yukio was practically growling.
"I can't believe there was ever a period of time where I wanted to be like you."

"You- wanted to be like me?" Yukio questioned. His expression changing.

"Of course. Yukio, the star child. The perfect son, always behaving, getting good grades. I thought you were so innocent and pure. Boy was I wrong. You are wicked. Wicked and cruel. Cruel and weak. And so very pathetic. I never want to be like you. An evil little weakling with a short lifespan."  

Yukio's face twisted again with rage and he spat in Rin's face.

"AAGH! WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU YOU DISGUSTING SWINE." Rin yelled bursting into flames.

"Ok you two! Break it up!" Shura pushed the two of them apart. "If this is ever gonna work you two need to sort out yer issues! You two are brothers! You should love each other! It's time for you to put aside yer differences and talk it out!"

"Never going to happen. I want nothing to do with the spawn of Satan."

"You are the spawn of Satan. You just insulted yourself."

"I have no connection to that beast."

"Besides sharing the same blood and DNA? No, I guess not. We're twins Yukio. Just because you're a weakling, have no powers and live only a couple decades, you're still half demon. Ever heard of a powerless witch? Just because they have no power, it doesn't make them any less a witch." He just stared at Rin with an angry expression, but did not respond. Everyone was deeply interested in their conversation. "Is this entertaining to you?" Rin said to the cram school students without looking directly at them. "Are we putting on a good show?"

"That's enough!" Shura exclaimed. "We're heading back now! We can't work like this."

"You don't tell me what to do."

"I said we're heading back." She grabbed Rin and started heading back towards True Cross.

"Don't touch him." Amaimon pulled Rin out of Shura's grasp and gave her a threatening glare. "No body grabs him, except for me."

Shura stared at him quizzically before continuing. "Anyways this has got to stop. You two are brothers and I'm sick and tired of you fighting."

Amaimon looked up and down at Yukio.

"That thing is not related to us." He said holding Rin's arm.

"That thing is a human being." Shura said.

"Yeah, I know."

Shura gave him a pissy look. "We're heading back to the academy. Now. We need to sort this out."

"We don't have to listen to-"

"Amai-" Rin cut him off. "Fine, we'll go back with you to the academy."

"What-" He looked at Rin shocked and confused that he was agreeing with the humans.

"I don't have the patience to deal with this. Let's just do what she wants and go back to the academy to talk or whatever. I don't want to start anything, I'm on the verge of losing it. I can't put up with the pathetic whining." Shura looked offended at that last comment.

"Fine." Amaimon puffed and they got back on Behemoth to head back to True Cross.

*~*~*

Rin and Yukio sat on opposite sides of the room in Shura's office, which she had gotten after officially becoming a Cram School teacher at True Cross. She had gotten a job a real teacher because mo eh had gotten tight after Rin disappeared. Demon's disappeared a long with him so she couldn't get paid by people to exorcise them. Yukio sat in a chair looking away while Rin sat on a desk. She had forced Amaimon out of the room which he refused to leave until Rin asked him politely to wait for him in the dorm.

"Now, do you guys know why yer here?"

"Because you want to waste my time?" Rin asked.

"No! B'cause you guys need t' talk out yer problems."

"There's nothing to talk about!" He whipped his head over to Shura.

"What he said." Yukio made a pissy face.

"See, now you guys are agree'n on somethin'!"

"Shura this is pointless and I actually have better things to do! Like solve this case so I can go home! I have a life, and a family, and a cat." Rin shot up from his seat.

"This is important too! How do ya expect to work together on this mission if you can't get along!"

"WE'RE NOT! This isn't your mission it's mine! You just threw yourself in without even asking if we needed help! You don't even know what you're looking for! You think we're looking for some random demon wreaking havoc! But nobody's wreaking havoc but all of you! And a demon isn't even what we're looking for! The only demon powerful enough to open all these portals is Satan! And we know for fact it isn't him because I'm not even sure he fully knows himself how the wuyr they got there!! You don't even understand the severity of the situation! That's the problem with you exorcists! You don't even look into the situation! You kill every demon just because! Heck, you even kill off your own kind just because!"

(A/N: Wuyr is Ente Islan for fuck, I'm using Ente Islan for demon tongue m'kay?)

  ".....good. You're opening up, now we're getting somewhere."

"DO YOU EVEN HEAR WHAT I'M SAYING?! that's the problem with you humans you only hear what you want to hear." He muttered under his breath.

"Yukio, now's yer chance to open up. Do ya have somethin' t'say to Rin?"

"I have nothing to say to him." He said not looking Rin in the eye.

"You must have somethin' you want t'say. Anything? Nothin' you wanna get off yer chest? Nothin' you want to ask."

"There is nothing I need to say to that demon."

"I don't need to sit through this." Rin said starting to get back up.

"SIT BACK DOWN! WE'RE NOT DONE HERE!" She barked at him. Rin shot her a deadly glare but she glared back. He sat back down crossing his arms. "You guys are brothers. Ya shouldn't be act'n this hostile towards each other."

"FINE!" Yukio yelled. "Fine. If it will take me asking questions to quiet you then fine." He whipped his body towards Rin. "Why did you abandon us for the demons?! You used to be set on destroying all of them. What changed your mind!"

"You're the reason why!" He exclaimed. "I couldn't handle being around you anymore! You were nothing but cruel to me! You called me useless and stupid and told me everyday about how much you hated me and wish I were dead! In fact, you told me that so often it made me wish I were dead! I was going to end my own life that same night I ran away!"
A look of confusion and shock flashed over Yukio's face before immediately returning to his furious one.
"That, doesn't explain why you sided with Satan. It only explains why you ran away."

Rin growled in frustration. "Because Yukio, they saw how miserable I was here, and they offered me a better life. One where I was surrounded by family who loved me and people who adored me. One where I lived in luxury, and was respected by all. Gahenna is my home. I have real friends, my real bothers and my real mom and dad. Not fake ones who lie to me and betray my trust."

"What do you mean, real Dad and real brothers and real friends! You had all of that here! What about Father Fujimoto? Did you already forget about him? And Shiemi, Bon, Izumo, all of the other students. And me, your actual twin brother?"

"Oh, so you're my brother now? I thought you said I had no relation to you? And father Fujomoto isn't our real dad, he abducted us after our mother died. And these students, of yours were never my real friends. Real friends don't abandon you after they find out who you really are. Real friends don't betray your trust. Real friends don't put you down to the point you don't want to live anymore. You guys were never my real friends, and you were never my real sibling, and Shiro was never my real family. You guys just lied to me. You kept me in the dark. You made me a fool. Every single relationship I had on this stupid dimension was one big hoax!"

Yukio had a look of great discomfort.

"Do you have any idea how it feels to find out that's you've been lied to your whole entire life!! That Shiro was never my dad? That I'm really the son of the highest demon king? That you guys really cared about me when really you all feared and despised me?! That I was some kind of monster, that would never amount to anything although I was capable of greatness this whole time! And the greatest lie of them all! You made me believe demons were the bad guys, when really it's the exorcists who are, and all of this is just apart of the Grigori's grand scheme to take over the world!!! We are all the the pawns in their game!!! The apocalypse is soon arriving!!! The world as we know it is an illusion, a lie!!!" By the end of this Rin was standing up and panting, his veins popped out in rage.

Shura looked at Rin with great concern.

"I can't stand you Yukio! I can't stand you exorcists! You're all so naive! You believe everything your higher ups tell you! You're all so brainwashed! You won't even listen to anything we tell you just because we're demons! Ever stop to think that we know something you don't?! We live longer than you! We've seen it all. I've been around for over 200 years. Time moves differently in Gahenna. I've seen things. Yukio. But you're just so full of yourself. That's why I hate you! So self absorbed. I hope you really know what you're doing just as you say you do. Because if you're not prepared for the battle, you're screwed. If your stupid gun won't work on me, what makes you think it'll work on the rest of us."

"What the hell are you going on about Rin." His face showed pure annoyance.

"A little foresight. I gained new powers once I transitioned from demon prince of darkness to Demon King of Darkness. I'm the closest one to Satan. Which means I possess more of his powers. We have our ways of knowing what's going to happen before it does. I may not be all seeing like father, but know enough to not be easily tricked like you!"

"What's this, about an apocalypse."

"Burry your gold, and stay underground. I need to go now, I've kept Amaimon waiting long enough, he gets easily bored without me." They looked at him confused, Rin was about to walk out of the room before Shura got up and grabbed his hand.

"We're not done here. You guys need to get to the root of yer problems, and forgive each other."

"What he did to me isn't easily forgiven."

"But forgiveness is the right thing."

"Look, I don't give a rats ass about what you feel is the right thing." He put his hands on his hips. "I'm not going around forgiving people who don't deserve to be forgiven."

"It's not a matter if they deserve it, it's still good to forgive and forget."

"Well I don't forgive! And I did forget before you idiots made me remember. I was perfectly content not knowing who any of you were! I was just fine, and now I'm pissed off all over again!"

"Well, you can't leave yet." She turned towards Yukio. "Yukio, we're not done with you. Rin shared his feelings. It's yer turn to share yers. How do ya feel about Rin leaving?"

"How do you think I feel about him leaving to side with Satan?"

"No, how do you feel about him leaving you. He's your brother, ya must've felt a little bit upset when he left in the middle of the night without saying goodbye."

Yukio was silent.

"To be honest.....I was kind of relieved. I enjoyed the silence."

"You ajjtole! I don't need this. I'm leaving."

"Rin wait! Yukio, you must've missed Rin a little bit."

"Actually, I didn't. Not in the slightest bit."

"Bye." Rin charged towards the door. "Thank you for wasting my time." With that he left.

"You know what?" Shura turned to Yukio. "You're a real ass!" She ran after Rin leaving Yukio alone in the room.

~oOo~

A/N: Ajjtole Entean for asshole.

Sorry for the short chapter.

Y O U  D O  N O T  H A V E  T O  R E A D  T H I S !

L E A V E  N O W  I F  Y O U  W A N T  T O

L O N G  A S S  A U T H O R S  N O T E  A H E A D

I T  I S  H E R E   I  W A R N E D  Y O U  T O  S K I P

*~oOo~*

Guys. Guess what.
After many many years of questioning my sexuality. I have finally come to the conclusion of what I might be.

Now I'm not 100% but I think I may be Polyromantic (not to be confused with polyamorous. I'd like to date one person at a time please. Ya know, if I'm lucky enough to not die alone...)

But yeah, when I think about it, it makes so much sense. It's like, similar to being panromantic, but instead of liking all genders you like only some. Ya know, poly meaning many and pan meaning all.

And yeah, I did research, and polyromantics are open minded to dating anyone of any gender. But not necessarily being sexually attracted to them. And it's like being bi, but instead of only liking boys and girls you acknowledge there's a whole spectrum too.

And wait a tick.

Isn't that exactly what said before?

(maybe in another fic, oh well)

That I'd be openminded to date anyone of any gender? Like if we had a connection then yeah. And if being open minded to dating anyone of any gender AND not necessarily being sexually attracted AND not necessarily wanting to date EVERY gender is being polyro. Is that not me??

(PS. sorry for that run on sentence, I just wanted to make a point)

It explains so much. Its like, all this time I was like I'm not straight because I'm open minded to dating girls and non binaries. But I can't be gay or bi because I've never had a crush, not got overly turned on by a girl.

But I guess I would date one in a romantic relationship. But then that wouldn't make me straight??

And I have been stuck in that loop for 3 years now.

I even told my friend about all of this any she said when she googled the definition of polyromantic it fit me to a T. She saw it and was like, oh yeah, that's her alright.

I am no longer question mark sexual. Now the only question is am I a poly romantic asexual? Or polyro but still attracted to men??

I mean, guys are idiots, I mean some guys are hella smart but the way they act if ya know what I mean. and I'm not sure if I like....want to date one. Maybe it's only the guys I know who are idiots. The more I hang around them, the more I'm like...no thanks. That's unrelated tho. Like, not too long ago I went to my beasties party and met her BF and other friends which some are male. And the whole time I was like...yeah, no thanks. And I met her BF and how they interacted (cute couple btw) but I was like..yeah, no thanks. Like seeing it I didn't like it. Like I wouldn't want to be in her place. He's a great guy..but like. So after her bday party that's when I knew dudes. I was like, I'd rather have myself a classy lady. Doesn't even have to be a lady, could be non binary, or whatever just not,..this. Maybe I'll find a good guy for me. Maybes it's just the guys my age who are idiots. Unrelated...

You guys. I sympathize for the lgbt community. Cuz it was super hard for me to come to this realization. Really f ing hard. Like, if been putting off trying to figure it out because it hurt my brain thinking so hard about it 🤕. And I don't even know if its 100%. I just know that it makes sense that I'm polyro. If kinda connects some pieces in my life. It kinda explains why I  how I am. Unless I figure out I'm something else I'm going with polyro. Because I can change my mind. I knew someone who thought she was a lesbian, but turned out to be pan.  And vice versa. And ppl who think they're straight but turn out to be bi. So yeah, unless I change my mind later on and find out I'm really something else. Then yeah, polyro. Just..thought I should get stuff off my mind. I know y'all are accepting. I know because you read my gay shit on here. My EddEddy had so many reads and its pure gay shit. I chose this story to write this on. Each story I write have a specific group of readers from a specific fandom. Mainly the eene fandom and blue exorcist fandom. Tbh, this group of readers I honestly prefer to my others. Y'all seem to really get it. Ya hear that, you guys are my favourite. Y'all seem to actually give a shit about what I say 😟. And I noticed you actually read my long ass A/N's.

PS. I figured this out not too long ago sooooooo.

Dude. It hit me like a truck. Like, you know that feeling of sudden realization. Like 'oh..Oh.OH...OOOHHHHH SHIT. HOW WAS I SO BLIND!' yeah, like that. Its like...my life...makes sense now. Like I was told a lie, but was revealed the truth. For y'all that don't know...its in sense. I was frozen for like a full minute.

I'll tell you, so it was bi day yesterday and texted my friend 'happy bi day'
And so she told me about how there's a lesbian day and a pansexual day. And I was like, cool there's like a special day to celebrate every sexuality. So I ended up googling if there was a polysexual (I've always been interested with that one, now I know why). And I was upset when I couldn't find a specific day the celebrated polysexuals. I didn't even know why I was upset. So yeah, I made it my mission to find a poly sexual day. Still didn't find it... So yeah I e see up googling the definition of poly sexual, ya know, to find the day, even though I already know what it means. And then under it was the definition of polyromantic and I was shook. Because the definition was me to a T.
And I did more and more research on what it is and yeah.

Polysexuals need more rep.
I noticed we get lumped with pansexuals and confused with polyamorous. I mean, if you like polyamory that's great, you do you boo. I just don't want to be confused with you.
Like, guys are ok but I don't wanna be confused fur one.
Bad comparison, I don't even look like a boy, and I would not give a shit if I were confused for one. I wear boy clothes anyways. I'M TELLING YOU! You find the best shut in the guys section of stores. Shaving supplies for less, (idk if that's sexist or not. But their shit is cheaper, pads are expensive ya'll but I need them) graphic t's, shoes with extra padding and support. I'm a size 9 or 8 in guy shoes so I don't feel bad for having big ass feet. I also refer to everyone as dude or bro or man or guy regardless of gender. Shame on me.

The reason this has so much A/N's is because I wrote them all on different days. I get different ideas on different days ok? This is many weeks worth of A/N's

You really don't have to read this next edit. Skip to the next chapter if you please.
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~2022 Edit~

Ah, yikes.
I'm re-visiting this story now, and I'm not sure if I should edit the A/N. I'm not gonna delete it because it was pretty much my first coming out online. But it also doesn't really apply to me now as much. I was still figuring out my sexuality and I still am. So here's an update on my life.

I'm not exactly sure what my sexuality is. I definitely lean more toward women and feminine presenting non-binary people. And sometimes I like feminine men. I'm not usually into masculine cis men.

Basically, if you think of gender as being on a linear spectrum, the closer you are to being a woman, the more I'm into you.

I could potentially be a lesbian. But I personally don't really feel comfortable labeling myself as a lesbian if I sometimes like men, however rare that may be. And I don't feel like the Bi label is right.

Technically I could still call myself polysexual, since I like all genders but masculine men (anyone on the extreme end of the gender spectrum. That includes masculine trans men.)

Also, although I'm sometimes attracted to men, I don't necessarily want to date a man.

I don't know if that makes sense.

Right now I'm labeling myself as queer. Since if I tell people I'm queer, it gives them a clear message that I'm a part of the lgbt+ community. While giving me time to figure myself out.

Sometimes I'll use the label polysexual or mspec because I feel almost attached to the label even if it doesn't quite fit anymore. Almost like an old sweater with sentimental value.

I don't 100% like the label queer for myself, mainly because it's so broad. That may work for some people, but I personally like having the specific label. It's nice having a word that can be defined to explain how I feel.
Right now my sexuality kind of feels like some abstract idea.

I also can't say I'm just attracted to femininity. Because I like masculine women.

Basically, I like masculine women, feminine women, feminine presenting NB's, and feminine men. But not not masculine men.

So yeah, if you guys know any label that kind of fits how I feel. I wouldn't mind you commenting. It's the one time I'm giving people the permission to analyze my sexuality.

I will accept any help, because I genuinely don't know a label that matches that description.