i know we don't do things like this on this book, but i figured its time to shake things up a bit and discuss some of my diary entries. i know it's only going to be me ranting, but i feel like i might enjoy this. 

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so a few weeks ago i found my ancient diary from 2016. i was really excited because this was the year i had my first full fledged crush and my first boyfriend. needless to say, 2016 was an extremely interesting year.

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so my first entry was on 9th feb, 2016. i was smol 12 year old girl (13 in april) who's biggest problems were her big af hair (dw boo, it gets amazing as you grow up) and her horribly unrequited crush (spoiler alert: he was a dick).  

now for some reason i thought it would be a good idea to start writing a diary in some book that i found at home cuz i was feeling specially mad that day- the girl i hated wouldn't stop flirting with my guy.

not that she knew he was my guy.

not that he knew.

but stiiiilllllll.

anyways, in my cute little tween head i thought that was the worst thing that could have ever happened to me and proceeded to rant and about that to myself on paper. turns out i enjoyed that experience vv much. yey.

this first entry is just full of "omg he's so cute" "i hate her" "his hairrrr" "she can die for all i care".

^kids, that is wrong. please do not wish for anyone to die. thank you.

anyways, nothing much happens in this, 2016 was good, no seriously depressing entries. 2017-18 on the other hand oh hohoho- totally went through a phase there.

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i feel obligated to put another thing out there. this is nearing my bad bitch popularity phase. you know, when you're popular in only one circle of assholes and everyone else hates you. you also shuffle through friends faster than maddie ziegler can do the shuffle thingy w her feet?? yeah that phase. yo girl's been there, done that.

that's all done and dusted, never going back there gosh.

now I've gotten this thing called "self acceptance". took years to realise that its all you need, took months to get it, took a few more months to keep it. but hey, it worked. 

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okay idk where i'm going with this or if i'll ever write another one of these, but i hope you enjoyed that rant :)