Ok so I made a promise. I made a promise to not cut. I have not broken that promise but

I stabbed and scratched myself with my fingernail, not enough to break the skin, and the red spot is from me punching myself continuously. I can't keep going on like this. I can't count the scars on my body from previous self harm. If I had the materials, I can't say how many times I would have killed myself by now. Just wanted to share. Maybe get some sort of help but probably not because the world we live in now it's every man for himself