This wasn't supposed to happen. None of this. They had no time for it. They were trying to catch a serial killer who Light was accused of being by the only person who's touch he craved, connected day and night by chains. Feelings had no place in this. And they would catch feelings, if they hadn't already.

But this feeling was intoxicating, made them become addicted to it. Claiming each others lips over and over, their hands traveling over the other one's body, never getting satisfied. A burning pleasure performed by supposedly cold hearts.

How did they even end up like this? Sun slowly setting, their room a dark red, red like the blood they had tasted and made them continue this dangerous yet alluring game. Their kisses became rougher and needier, convinced that if they were to part, they would die. What was this feeling?

Hands slid under shirts, feeling the soft skin and wanting more of it. Light held back little noises that wanted to escape him as L unbuttoned his shirt, never being able to forgive himself if they'd be heard. Their shirts soon landed on the floor like the chains did, becoming incredible irrelevant for tonight.

The brown haired couldn't help himself but to put his arms around L's neck, clinging to him once again and sucking on his bottom lip, getting a dark, amused chuckle in return. He could only imagine how needy he must have looked, eyes half closed and focused on big, dark ones looking down at him in pure love and adoration.

"We can't continue this here",whispered the older male seductive before his hands found their way to Light's thighs, lifting them around his hips and carrying him to their bed. Light instinctively held onto L, although he jolted a bit at the suddenly caused friction- hopefully he doesn't notice. Yet what was Light thinking this would end like, surely not innocent- not that he wanted it to either.

Muffled moans escaped the brown haired as he was being pushed into the mattress by the only person he'd ever allow to do that, eyes filled with lust and need. He decided that he liked this feeling, it was only natural after all. They were just following their instincts, fulfilling one of the most basic human needs.

But they both knew that it wasn't supposed to happen, never. How were they supposed to continue after this?

Maybe only for tonight.

Yes, tonight.

No feelings, that would work. After this they'd go their separate ways again, acting like it never happened. He could turn his feelings off, act like he had none. It was so easy. He'd done it all his life, no one knew what he felt. They only knew what he allowed them to know. Not more. He was lying. To his friends, his family, the world, himself. Sure, but there was no way around it. His feelings would only hurt everyone, including himself. It was better to deny them. From his friends, his family, the world, himself.

Love bites decorated his collarbones and lower neck, placed so that a scarf or a turtleneck would cover all and leave no hint of them ever being there in the first place. L knew how important it was for Light to hide everything connected to feeling certain ways.

Feelings would hurt- but only later on. They'd hurt and be painful once this was over, whenever that was. Right now, their feelings were the most amazing thing they'd felt in so long, not wanting it to stop, ever. Maybe feelings weren't so bad if shared with someone who felt the same, maybe they were nice for only them.

Saying it was love would've been a bit hastily, yet how should they know. But if this love meant pain, then they could hurt. Only for tonight.

L suddenly went motionless, sat upright, his hands and lips gone from Light's body. 'Why are you stopping...?',Light asked in his mind, expectingly looking up at L, wet lips parted and panting slightly, 'Do it again, don't leave me like this'

"Light-kun",L started with a certain tone of seriousness in his voice, "Are you sure you want this? Really sure? I could never forgive myself if I did something to you without your consent"

Because even if he wanted to, they were two people, not just one. Maybe Light wanted to stay friends, didn't want any of this. How could L ever forgive himself knowing he did something like this to the one he liked so much that didn't want to? He couldn't remember Light doing anything that could have made him certifiable, expect for the necking maybe. Surely that wouldn't make Light lose his mind to the point where he wasn't able to answer rationally anymore, right?

A few heartbeats passed until Light had fully thought about those words before he leaned foreword as much as he could, elbows supporting him. "Yes, yes I am sure. And now fuck me before I lose my mind",the last part was more whiny than he intended to, but L seemed to have understood. He didn't even want to say the last part, his mouth had just been quicker.

Their lips crashed back together after a seemingly eternity parted, pale hands gripping the other male's shoulders and softly pushing him down again. Oh how wonderful it felt. Hormones going crazy and showing them parts of themselves they didn't knew of yet. But who could blame them, after all they were only young, stupid, and potentially a bit in love. It was highly likely the most stupid thing they had done so far, but also the most pleasant.

Kisses slowly but steadily got lower, down his chest to his waist as he bit his lip, trying his best to hold back every sound that formed in his throat because it would've been far beyond embarrassing if they were to be heard. Especially if L heard them, knowing well that he caused them. That definitely wasn't something Light wanted to think of, he must've looked needy enough, he didn't have to sound like that too.

Although that became a lot harder when L gently squeezed between the teens legs, hand quickly flying over his mouth and slightly muffling a moan. 'He definitely heard that',he realized with hot and red cheeks.

"Light-kun~"

'Oh hell no he really did...'

Light shut his eyes as tightly as he could, not daring to look L into the eyes. He could not remember anytime he'd been more embarrassed than now, not a single time. How could L's touch make him so helpless, so defenseless, so... human?

"Light-kun, look at me",he heard a voice say softly but with a somewhat firm tone that made him want to do what he was told. What other choice did he have anyway? There wasn't much else to do than to look at L, no matter how much he didn't want to. He had to. So Light slowly opened his eyes again, only to be greeted by a warm smile and big, loving eyes looking at him.

"You're very beautiful",the man whispered and placed a gentle kiss on the younger one's forehead, "And you'll always be to me, no matter how embarrassed you are or anything else. And there is nothing you can do about that" Staring into each other's eyes for eternities, their gazes saying nothing at all, yet so much.

"Say my name"

"Ryu-"

"No, I said my name",he cut him off.

"What are you up to now, L?",Light asked smiling, enchanted by the other once again. There was something special to this man, something he hadn't figured out- yet. He would someday. Maybe not tonight, but someday. Even if he couldn't name it, he just wanted to know what made him so special, made them so unconventional.

"Oh why would I tell you that, dear Light. The only thing you need to know is that tonight, I'm L for you. And before the sun rises tomorrow, I'll have you screaming that name until it's the only thing you know"

"Oh I highly doubt that",he returned with a slight chuckle and a mischievous grin.

"We'll see Light, we'll see"

With that the black haired undid the belt that was gracing Light's waist, throwing it somewhere to the ground where it was quickly followed by his pants. It was pretty cold outside, but they didn't notice. Certainly not Light, who felt like he was literally on fire, burning kisses embellishing his pristine, soft thighs. His breathing becoming heavier, almost but not quite a little moan escaping him when he realized he was being prepared and the pure thought of what was to come was almost enough to make his mind go crazy. Hands gripping the sheets beneath him tightly and hips tenuously moving upwards when that one spot inside of him was grazed ever so slightly and oh how was he supposed to survive this night?

The only thing he was sure of was that he wouldn't be able to endure this for much longer without any unwanted incidents. Just how was he to say that? No, he couldn't allow himself to. He had to keep as much control over his mind and body as he could, no exceptions. Definitely no-

"Aaah",the boy moaned softly as he closed his eyes and quickly covered his mouth again- so much about no exceptions. But what was that and why did it feel so good? And slowly, really slowly he began to understand that, if they would continue like this, he would indeed be screaming his lover's name before the sun rose. This was pure madness, and he wanted more of it.

But who was to judge him if he let a bit of his control slip away, parted with with a bit of sanity. It was only him and L, both just on their hunt for one thing that they'd get one way or another, bodies, minds and hearts melting into one loving, violet mess giving each other the safety just like the thrill they had searched for their whole lives, having found it after all this time of doubting that both would exist for them. That was love. Their love, only theirs.

Light's legs rested around L's hips, connecting them even more as if he was trying to insure that no one would go away and leave. Hands gripping at pale shoulders, surely leaving visible marks. Room filled with puffs and moans, air filled with the scent of sex.

Head thrown back, moaning as his neck was again being covered in kisses and love bites, body being lit on fire with every single one over and over again. Hips rapidly going up and down, now with bruises like fingerprints on them. Messy black hair tickling his reddened cheeks, sweet words of praise being whispered to him again and again.

"L! L... I l-"

"Shh, save your breath",he cut him off once again and kissed him on the lips, "You can tell me everything later. Don't waste your beautiful voice for those things now. No matter how talented you are, Light, I doubt that you can speak fluently at this moment... panting this heavily, you like it, don't you?"

Light nodded, gripping harder on L's shoulders and body jolting up suddenly as that one spot in him was being hit again and again, pleasure almost too much to take it, completely overstimulated.

"I can't...",he rapidly managed to say, "Please, L... I aah, need t-... ngh" A small smile played on the black haired lips' as he quickened his pace, wanting to hear Light scream again, louder:"Then do, Light"

Moaning loudly, panting heavily, madly rocking his body against his lover's, screaming L's name like it was the only thing keeping him alive- all things Light wouldn't have thought of him doing tonight.

Yet here he was- moaning loudly, panting heavily, madly rocking his body against his lover's, screaming L's name like it was the only thing keeping him alive.

Vision suddenly turning white for some instants, a moment of pure bliss. He slowly fell back onto the mattress, still not seeing anything apart for some faint outlines, in a state that he- for once in his life- didn't know how to describe. "I made a mess out of you, I'm sorry. Wait here, I'll get something to clean you up",a voice said softly after some time and something- or someone rather- moved off of him. Light wanted to protest at first, not wanting to be left alone, but he couldn't.

He wasn't really able to do anything right now. Never had he felt like this before, unsure if he liked or disliked it. It was new and odd but somehow his brain told him to feel good, which he probably did, just not like he had before.

Once his vision became clearer, he looked around to find L sitting next to him, staring down at him in complete adoration. "You look beautiful, Light",he whispered softly. Light only smiled shyly, imagining he must've looked everything but beautiful right now but the only thing that really mattered to him, was what L thought. And if L thought he looked beautiful like this, naked, tired, fucked and tamed, then he must've been. Beautiful.

"You should get some sleep, Light. I can see you're tired, staying up won't be good for your health"

Light smiled softly and turned over to L:"Stay with me. Just for tonight, please"

The other male looked into his eyes for some time, trying to find out what made Light so special. He was like a drug he had gotten addicted to, and he didn't know if he ever wanted it to stop. He didn't want to leave him. Not now, not tomorrow, not once their chains were removed forever, not after this case was over. Not ever.

If it was even possible to remove their chains forever. Physically, yes, no question. But there was something that held them together, connected their hearts. Both felt it, and both knew it. Denying their connection was what would hurt, not their connection itself. Denying their feelings was what would hurt, not their feelings themselves.

Then why should they ever part when neither of them wanted to. Moving on and living their life as they used to after they'd met, after this was impossible. How could they love again knowing that their love already belonged to someone else, and that this someone still loved them?

They wouldn't leave each other.
They would stay.
Together.
Even if it meant their death.

Crawling under Light's blanket, he pulled his friend closer to him. Red and blue, opposite ends, laying in each other's arms, listening to their heartbeats, together as one, violet.

"L... I love you"

"... I love you too, Light. More than you can think of"

How unfortunate that they were to be brutally parted, sooner than they could think of.