Luna

“Are you ready?” She asked me, and I was applying the lip tint, “Yes”

“Good, I am about to leave as well. Let’s meet up at the bus stand. I’ll be waiting for you, then we can go together from there” I knew she was excited. I hung up after agreeing with her. I knew I needed to clear my mind, and I needed to get off ‘Jeonghan’ from my mind. I couldn’t understand why was I hurting like this when I was the one who let him go, I was the one who told him to live a life, and find someone else and I was hoping for his happiness but now that he is happy then why am I feeling like this?

I haven’t told Bora about the café incident yet, but I was pretty sure she sensed something was off since that day, and he wanted to cheer me up. I don’t go out that often, but Bora kept on insisting. The way I was the one who canceled the meetup for the last exam, she deserved to get one day from me. I was hoping this outing would take my mind off unnecessary stuff.

After getting ready, I went to the bus stand to see Bora waiting for me while playing on the phone. I let out a chuckle when I saw her playing Genshin impact and went to surprise her it didn’t work because she saw me.

She hugged me tight, “I missed you, it feels so long since I last saw you” I smiled at her, the moment she broke the hug, “Same. I missed you as well.”

“So, Luna. Are you ready for today?” I smiled and then nodded. “Let’s go then”.

We planned to visit COEX Aquarium. Yes, the same place Jeonghan took me as our first outing, or was it a ‘date’? I am not sure if I can say anything now.

It wasn’t that far. On the way, Bora talked about almost everything, about her exams, about my exams, and how hectic the whole exam schedule was. I felt happy looking at her like this. I felt so pleased that I almost forgot to think about Jeonghan until we reached the place.

“But Luna, I want to drink Hot Chocolate, are you going to make it for me today? Like, we can drink it at any café but I am craving for yours” I nodded, “I will make it for you and yes, let’s watch a cozy movie at night then” The way Bora’s eyes lightened up, I was almost lost in her happiness. I wished to tell Bora about Jeonghan, but I didn’t have the courage to talk to her. I didn’t want to ruin her mood by saying all this. I didn’t want to make her sad by telling her all this, and I knew she would just say, ‘Why these formalities?’

But if I could be honest, then I would say I needed the courage to admit my feelings to myself. Then only I could talk to her about Jeonghan because I needed to figure out things about myself, about these feelings, which were just haunting me each and every second, making me feel so many things that I couldn’t name.

“Luna” Bora shook my shoulder, I turned to look at her, “Huh?”

“Where are you lost?” I shook my head, “I’ve been calling your name to let you know we are almost there, and we are getting down in the next stop.”

“Oh”

Oh

And we got down at the next stop.

Once we were outside the aquarium, all the memories hit me.

“Is this your first time here?” I turned my head towards Jeonghan and didn’t know what to say. I didn’t want to admit but then it would be good if I told him the truth despite the way I was feeling, “Never got the time to come here, I went to other places but not here.” His eyes softened, and he nodded. “Then, let’s make your first time special here. Everything has a first time.” I smiled at him.

“Well, I need to say this as well” He spoke while we were in the marine touch zone, I tilted my head and gestured to him to continue, “This is my first time here as well” I was surprised.

“And,” he continued, “I am happy that my first time is with you; it became more meaningful, and from now on, every time I come here, I think about you and your reactions.” I was about to ask him if he wanted to come here often. But you know what, Luna, I don’t want to come here with anyone else except for you, because I want my memories of this place to be filled with us only.”

I was taken aback by everything he said, but I wanted to believe him and enjoy our time together.

“I am excited!!” Bora held my hands, and we went inside. We went to the Amazon side first, and I saw how much Bora liked it. I enjoyed every second, yet my mind replayed the moments I spent with Jeonghan here months ago.

It was getting hard to come out from the memory loop, but I wanted to give it all to Bora today. She was so happy.

After visiting Amazon, the seven seas, and then we went to the marine touch zone.

Bora was excited, and I was looking at everything, I noticed there were fewer changes than the last time. “Stand here, let me take your picture.” Bora dragged me and made me stand.

I was just standing and looking at her, so that she could click my picture but the moment she clicked and started walking towards me to show the picture she clicked, my eyes caught someone even without my will I couldn’t take my eyes off.

I almost froze when I saw the same girl grabbing Jeonghan’s arm and Jeonghan looked…

Happy.

That was it. If Bora saw them, then she would call him over and ask things that I don’t want. I didn’t want Bora to see them, but my mood was ruined already. I was feeling betrayed, I wasn’t even sure why. Was it because he told me he wouldn’t come here with anyone else? or was it because I believed him? or was it because he was with the same girl with him who was with him in the café? Or was it because of how they looked at each other, eyes full of love? Or was it because of the way she was linking her arms with Jeonghan? I couldn’t let him see myself looking this miserable.

I took a deep breath and tried to keep my composure, “Luna? Are you okay?” I smiled at Bora and held her arm, “Let’s go eat something, I am hungry?”

“But you didn’t even see the picture I clicked”
“I trust you, I am sure you clicked pretty pictures.” She looked unsure, but I couldn’t help anything right now. I couldn’t see anything anymore, I didn’t want to cry infront of anyone or didn’t want to show any signs. I wanted to block all my emotions.

I didn’t understand, that the person who made me so happy all this time, now it was painful to even see him or get a glimpse of him.

I didn’t want to admit, but seeing him smile and laugh with someone else, who wasn’t me, hurt so much.

And the fact, I let him go was ripping my heart out.

“Okay, let’s go then” Bora linked her arms with mine, and we walked away before Jeonghan could see us or Bora could see Jeonghan and the girl with him. I wish he is happy and he could replace our memories with her by now.

By the time we came out, me and Bora checked out a few places to eat and went straight to eat, I couldn’t stay there anymore. I was feeling so bad that I wished I could’ve just enjoyed the whole day with her, and it took just a second to ruin it. “Luna” I looked at her, she sipped from her coke can, and kept it on the table. “You know that I am here. right?” I nodded.

“You know that you can always tell me when there’s something wrong, right?” I nodded. “So don’t be so hard on yourself. If there’s something you can always let me know and we can go back home if you’re feeling under the weather. There’s no need to force anything; if not today, we can just plan one more day. it’s fine” I know she sensed it, I know, but before I talked with her, I needed to figure out things a bit. I feel like I don’t even know myself anymore. I feel so lost.

“I know, and thank you so much.”
“OH PLEASE, if you want to say thank you then” she narrowed her eyes, “pay for the meal” and I started laughing. This was her attempt to lighten up the mood, I knew her, and this is why I love her because she never pushes me to the edge.

“Okay, and next time, hot chocolate for sure, and mind it, Christmas is around the corner. And AND LUNA, let me tell you, you have to make hot chocolate on Christmas.” It was our thing. We always celebrated Christmas, and making hot chocolate was my part.

“Yes, I would make twice for you that day as an apology to ruin to-”
“You didn’t ruin, and like I told you, we will go out another day soon. Okay?”

I was happy to have her by my side as my best friend.

Author’s Note:

Well... finally, an update!! And no, I didn’t abandon this fic, it’s more like I was having writer’s block in this fic, but I will try my best to come out of that.

I know all of you wait a lot and honestly thank you so much for waiting but please understand, this book got totally different trope and genres from which I am used to and writing this was a challenge for me and that’s why I think I get stuck a lot but I will always thank you for waiting and showing love to “Lavender Haze”

And what do you think, going to happen next?

Happy reading :)