Luna

Classes were exhausting since exams were nearing. We didn’t get the date sheet yet, but they said we might have our exams in a month and then practicals; it’s just October now. The extra classes and long lab hours were too much, and my schedule was so packed. Academic pressure is something when I need to do well, because of my plans.

I was going through my wardrobe, because Jeonghan wanted to go out today, more like I don’t know why I was feeling nervous. Going out with Jeonghan was becoming normal yet today.

I heard a notification, I went to check my phone and there was a notification from Jeonghan, which read ‘It will take an hour or so for me, I’ll come and pick you up’ I smiled at the text, and replied, ‘okay’

I went back to my wardrobe to find a dress, I finally found the green dress, I’ve been wanting to wear. Jeonghan didn’t tell me where are we going, he just told me that we would have dinner together but didn’t even tell me where.

After almost forty minutes I was ready after taking a shower and wearing the green dress with ruffle hem. I looked at my reflection in the mirror and wondered where are we going today. Usually, he would tell me the name of the place or send me the location of the place, unless we randomly decide to go through a particular place or random streets discovering new places to hangout.

I was waiting in the living room then heard the doorbell ring. I went to wear my shoes and opened the door of my apartment, Jeonghan smiled at me. “You…” he trailed off, “look so pretty” I smiled at him, “Thank you”

“Let’s go then” I nodded, and once I locked my apartment, I followed him downstairs. Once we were near his car, he opened the car for me and then he got inside. Once we were inside, he turned to the back seat and took out a bouquet and they were gerberas, if I counted correctly then there were six gerberas, and a smile lit up on my face.

“For you, my moon”
“Thank you so much.”

He started driving and turned on some music, I was just lost somewhere in the music, the flowers, and the night view. My mind had a lot of thoughts today, and I wanted to enjoy this, till it lasted because I knew once I went back to academics, I would be so busy and stressed, that I would forget to give myself a break.

Soon he pulled over, and we were in the parking lot. “Where are we?” I asked him, “Just, wait. You’re going to love it” I tilted my head curiously. I turned to look at him, and once he was out of the car, he came to open the door for me, “thank you”

Once we were, infront of a pretty rooftop café, he led the way. The place looked cozy from the outside, but I wondered how would it be from inside this place. We went inside, and the moment we went to the rooftop, I saw it was decorated beautifully. “It’s so pretty” he smiled at me, “Told you, you will love it” I nodded and smiled at him. He pulled the chair and gestured for me to sit that’s when I realized there weren’t people on the rooftop today, it was just us and it was decorated prettily.

“So, how was your day?” he smiled at me and we were given the menu, “exhausting because of academics.” He tilted his head, “Then let’s light up your mood today” I smiled at him and just trusted him. “Choose what you want to eat and then we can continue talking” I nodded, and we ordered whatever we wanted to eat. I looked at the surroundings and the wind was being the unpaid actor there. It wasn’t chilly or something, it was just the way I loved it. The whole setting was peaceful and beautiful. Talking with Jeonghan about almost everything was making me feel light, it was mostly Bora with whom I talk out everything usually and she takes away my stress but these few months, it’s been Jeonghan with whom I do stress-talking and it works just like Bora.

Jeonghan was becoming my comfort person slowly and who knew he would be one of my closest people now.

“Give me a minute” Jeonghan got up and I nodded. I opened my phone and saw Bora’s texts, I was about to reply to her that I was out with Jeonghan and then I heard Jeonghan’s voice, “Moon”

I turned to look at him and he was walking with a bouquet of roses this time, I got up trying to understand what was going on. Once he stood opposite me, he extended his hand towards me and smiled. “Moon” he paused for a second and stepped closer to me and I was lost on how to react to him now. He smiled sweetly at me, “There’s something I have been wanting to tell you, and it’s been months already.” I was getting nervous with him. “It started when I saw you for the first time when I took Kkuma and then that one month where we didn’t meet and misunderstandings happened, made me realize that I have feelings for you and you’re the one.” I was surprised because I never, ever thought that. “I want you to be my girlfriend, would you be my girlfriend?” I was more than surprised because I didn’t know he was feeling like this. “Jeonghan” I didn’t know how to say this, because I knew I felt happy, with him and he was getting close and giving me the comfort Bora gives me and I don’t think I have seen him more than a close friend. There were times when I would wonder about a lot of things, I couldn’t stop thinking about him at times but I don’t think, I like him like that to be his girlfriend or like him like I should like or love a boyfriend.

I wanted to take a step back, did I mislead him? Was I at fault? Was I leading him unknowingly and giving him the wrong idea this whole time? “Jeonghan” he was looking at me dearly, “I don’t think… I see you more than… a close friend or a best friend” Jeonghan was surprised, “Moon” this time, the name sounded so different from him, “I thought… I thought” he was probably trying to collect himself, “the feelings were mutual, wasn’t that the reason you gave me a birthday meal?” did he get the wrong idea with birthday meal?

“Jeonghan… I wanted to celebrate your birthday just like I do with Bora and that’s why cooked a whole birthday meal like I do for Bora” he took a deep breath, “Bora… Bora… Moon, tell me you never felt anything for me” I didn’t know how to answer that, “Jeonghan” I took a deep breath, “of course, I felt a lot of things but they were a part of friendship. And I don’t think I am in a place to have a relationship right now, considering my exams are coming and I don’t know what am I going to do right now. Jeonghan I am sorry if I gave you the wrong idea.”

“You are telling me you never felt anything for me?” I shook my head, “No, Jeonghan I didn’t mean that. I was happy to be with you but I don’t think it was… the way you feel for me. I don’t think… I am… ready for any of this. Jeonghan I am sorry” I didn’t know how to respond anymore, this was not what I expected and I didn’t know how to face him anymore, somewhere I wanted to run away while blaming myself because I was so comfortable with him that I even invited him over my place and now, the mess I created. “Jeonghan” I took a step towards him but he stepped back. “Jeonghan, you always gave me comfort and you were always there for me but Jeonghan… I don’t think… I never thought…” I wasn’t sure how was I sounding right now but I knew I was breaking his heart and things might get ruined right now, “Jeonghan…”

“Luna” no moon anymore, “I thought we had mutual feelings, looks like I assumed too much. I am sorry.”

I was feeling sorry, I felt I should be blamed for everything, and I felt terrible for breaking his hopes. “Jeonghan” he was looking down, “Jeonghan… listen to me once” and I saw him taking a step back.”Jeonghan, I-I am sorry” I didn’t know how to react, console, or comfort. I don’t think I could give him the love he wants because I don’t think I loved him the way he loves me or wants me to. But I didn’t want to lose him as well, “I-I am sorry” his voice sounded as if he didn’t have any soul anymore.

“I need some time alone” I looked at him, unable to say anything, “Please…” For the first time, his voice sounded so different. I took a step back, not knowing what else to say. I grabbed my phone which was on the table and headed downstairs.

I was feeling terrible, I wanted to run away somewhere, did I just… what did I do?

Author’s Note:

Can’t believe I am going to update after almost seven months, I was so stuck with this story, like I wasn’t sure what to write and how to deliver and I am trying to work up again and try to continue this story :>

So here’s an update and hope I can update more and soon

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Happy Reading :)