Too much love for me

I should be bursting at the seams

With happiness

I don't posses

Where is the joy?

Why is it void?

I long to love

But I think not

I need the one

But just want to rot

I think I desire the pain

Not the gain

I want to be wanted

I long to feel fated

I won't have my desire

I don't truly want that fire

I think I want something else

I can't be sure what I felt

I love too many

Too much to count

I have to stop me

I can live without

But I sound so sad

Yet I don't feel so bad

Not right now

Not here somehow

I need to change

But don't mind my fate

I can't find the downside

But now I reply

I'll fight my crush

I'll hold back my rush

Because I don't need them

To reach my happy end

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Heyo y'all, I actually wasn't quite in the mood to write today but, I HAVE 200 ISH READS I'M SOOOOO DEAD. OMG THX Y'ALL <3 <3 <3