When I was four years old
I was climbing a bunk bed ladder
And fell
I hung there by one foot for what felt like
An hour
And I don't think my heart beat once
The entire time

That feeling, though
Not the panic
Not the fear
Just that feeling of things... stopping

Sometimes I sit alone and think
It's dangerous, you know,
To do that
And I get that same feeling
I get trapped between
One moment and the next
And humans aren't meant to live in that space
You can't breathe
You can't even think, not anymore

I get it when I'm with people, too
But no one notices
I can never tell if no one sees me freeze
Or it just happens to no one else

Maybe I really get stuck between time
And that's why no one sees

Sometimes I hear myself
I see myself
I wonder how this happened

It wasn't meant to be like this
I wasn't meant to be like this