I've cried myself to sleep today.

It hurts so bad.

I'm broken even beyond repair.

Why?

Why did this pain have to come back ten times worse?!

I thought my mom would lay back,

That the emotional abuse was dying down.

NO

She knew,

She knew the whole time.

But does she know that now I wanna die?

I have new scars upon my skin,

And I plan to add more soon.

My wish to die is growing stronger.

It's feeding away at me from the inside out.

No more time to hide,

I got to come outside.

Face the pain that tears away at my body.

Allow the darkness to shield me,

Guide me,

Even protect me.

I love my friends,

And I am sorry.

Sorry for bringing you pain,

Sadness,

Misery!

But I can't help it.

My body is breaking down,

And soon,

I'll be no where to be found.

I just ask for one thing please?

Stop this pain and suffering,

This is my eternal offering.

Do you hear me?

I will give up whatever I must,

Just to end all of this pain.

Well now that i've said this,

I guess I should go back.

Where?

To the pits of hell,

And into the shadows.

I love you all,

And I can never forget you.

But that's what comes with a price.

That price is called,

Pain.