Part 12 | Confessions

I met oscar Piastri and I instantly clicked with him, he was the sweetest and most calm guy I had ever met.

We went over the basics and he told me his thoughts of joining Formula 1, which we talked about for hours and hours.

Actually so long that Lando had begun to spam my phone repeatedly. It kept vibrating and I shifted uncomfortably during the meeting.

As soon as I was done, I called him back. "Lando! Why did you spam me?" I hiss in annoyance.

"I finished Qualifying, where are you? I have an interview in an hour, I want to see you before it" Lando says and whines like a child.

I chuckle and shake my head even though he can't see me. "I'll be there in five minutes" I tell him before hanging up, leaving no room for discussion.

I head down to the paddock where I see Max and Lando waiting on two chairs. "How did you do today?" I call out, Lando looks over his shoulder with a grin.

"I'm starting P4 tomorrow" He says and I cheer for him, I hug Max and then Lando before moving to sit down beside him, but Lando had other plans and stands up and takes my hand in his.

"Actually, can we talk?" He asks and I nod confused for him to go on. "Not here" He says and his eyes flickers to Max, who looks back and forth between us trying to figure out what was going on.

"Oh?" I say and Lando begins to walk towards his room.

"There's something I need to tell you, Lando" I say once I close the door begin me and we're alone. I'm about to burst into flames, I have to tell him that I'm joining his team.

"Yeah? What's up? Is everything okay?" He asks and steps forward with a worried look in his eyes and I chuckle before nodding my head yes.

"I'm fine, but there's something I need to tell you" I repeat and he nods before sitting down and I follow suit.

"I got a job here in Formula 1" I start out to see his reaction, it's like seeing a child on christmas morning, his eyes lights up and I smile a little before continuing.

"I actually got a job here at McLaren. I'm going to be the new drivers PR manager, I wanted to tell you, to see how you feel about it" I finish and wait for his reaction.

"How I feel about it? It's great! We can hang out everyday!" Lando says and puts his hands on my knees as he leans forward.

"So, you're not pissed that I have to work for the guy that replaced one of your best friends?" I ask to make sure. "Well, when you put it like that, it kind of sucks. But I'm happy for you" He says and I smile at him before exhaling a deep breath in relief.

"Thank god" I mumble and Lando laughs before biting his lip. "Now it's my turn, I have something to tell you" Lando says and I nod at him to go on and I squeeze his hand.

"Luisa and I are not together anymore. I realized I wasn't really in love with her, so we're over. We're good friends though" Lando says.

My jaw drops for the second time this weekend. Is everyone breaking up with their girlfriends? What the hell is happening here? Is there something in the water?

"I-I did not see that coming—I'm so sorry, are you okay and everything?" I ask him, my eyes narrow in confusion by his calmness.

"Yeah, I feel like it was the right thing to do. I love her—but I'm not in love with her, if that makes sense?" Lando says and winces a bit at his explanation.

"It makes sense and I understand" I say and give him a soft smile. He returns it and I realize we're now just sitting here, holding hands.

Lando rubs his thumb over my hand and smiles a bit wider as he take as deep breath, it felt like he was preparing for something.

"Jamie—go on a date me with me" The words escaped Lando's mouth, causing my smile to fall. My reaction seemed to make Lando realize he might've made a mistake.

"Lando, I'm sorry—I told you, but—shit—I don't date celebrities, I'm sorry. I thought I made that clear, I'm sorry" I manage to apologize three times in one go. Lando's face fell, the warmth and loving smile on his face turned void of any emotion and he pulled his hands to himself like my touch had burned him.

"Oh right, okay. I just thought that—" Lando stuttered, puzzled and disappointed as he stopped himself. I opened my mouth to explain further but decided against it, my mouth shut like it had been sewed closed.

"Lando—we need to go" Max called out as he stuck his head into the room, Lando's head snapped up to his best friend and then back to me, my heart ached in my chest as I dreaded him leaving after this.

Him asking me out and me rejecting him, I knew things would change now, I didn't want him to go.

"Right, the interview" Lando mumbled, his eyes found mine and I silently begged him to give me a minute, just one last minute before he left.

But he didn't.

He got up, I could see the struggle on his face, but he chose to ignore the silent pleas on my face and he walked away.

"Lando! Wait—I—" I called out, Lando froze and turned his head slightly to see what I had to say.

"I'm sorry" I said. I knew that my apologies didn't mend his hurt feelings, he continued walking away so I did both of us a favor and I left.

I left the McLaren paddock tried to figure out what to do, most importantly why my chest hurt so badly, I used my hand to put pressure on my chest as I tried to breathe properly.

"Jamie? What's wrong?" Charles' voice got my attention. Was I having a panic attack? No, no, I haven't had those in years.

"Jasmine?" Charles called out once again, I heard someone run towawrds me and I opened my eyes my face cringed in pain.

"What's wrong? What happened?" Charles asks me, Carlos is beside him and both are trying to make me calm down and respond.

"Come on, sit down on the ground" Carlos said and helped me down. Charles put his hand on my wrist, feeling my pulse.

"Count with me" Charles said and looked into my eyes, I nodded as I took deep breaths. Charles counted in Italian, the french and english, he mixed them in different order, so I had to focus as I had to repeat after Charles.

Pierre ran up to us and handed Charles a juice bottle, he unscrewed the cap and brought the bottle up to my mouth as I had calmed down without noticing.

I took a large sip of it and swallowed it, I was still breathing heavily when Charles pulled me into his side and Carlos and Pierre kneeled in front of me.

"Breathe, just breathe. You're fine" Charles muttered in my ear and I nodded my head. "What happened?" Pierre asks after a few minutes.

"I guess I didn't drink enough. I felt dizzy and confused" I slightly lied, I didn't want to call it a panic attack, but Charles knew.

Carlos and Pierre nodded. "Are you okay?" They ask and I nod and smile at them gratefully.

"Thank you, guys" I say and Charles rubs my shoulder. "We should get going" Charles says and I nod, Charles gets up and help me up as well.

We leave the track together, his arm wrapped around my waist for support and the whole way back to the hotel, I only kept thinking about a solution to save my friendship with Lando.