I know I know.. I'm late. But I'm really ruined mentally. My mind stopped working.. and I'm going through with so much stress and pain. That I can't share. It's so hard for me to keep up with all things and maintain my job. I'm sorry that I'm giving you all an excuse but that's true..!. keep enjoy the story.

And please BE AWARE for the upcoming track. Because as I always said.. My story is not for faint heart person. My story is very dark so read at your own risk. After reading this part you will know the little hint about the track I'm planning. And I'm don't do or write lovey dovey story so don't tell me that why manik is so bad and making him good. because I can't. I can't just jumping on my story. just be patient with the story and you will soon find out everything. And love the all characters. and no bashing.

Nd ignore the grammatical and spelling mistakes.

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Chapter: 5 (Afraid of Self-torture)

Mukti's pov:

Life doesn't always lead us to happy memory, sometimes we have to learn how to breathe through with our painful memory in life.

Pain is life, life is pain.

Those words kept running on my mind from two days. After seeing Nandini like that way my inner strength just washed away and now I have nothing to hold. Nandini's vulnerable side broke me totally. I don't what's happened to her but I can guess that she might be went with so much worst that she lose her mental sensibility that she went this further to kill herself.

If anything happened to Nandini then I couldn't forgive myself. I would be on my downfall in hell by this time.

After taking responsibility of her willingly, I shouldn't have left her alone when I saw her how broken she is.! I shouldn't compare her to myself... not everyone is like me.

But at least she should fight back that she can come out from her fear.

I don't know what's happened with her; but I will be there to protect her if she trust me with her complication. We didn't talk so much about that incident but I know I have to talk with her. She also refuse to face me and didn't come to eye to eye contact and didn't utter any words. She just remain silent and closed her from me.

I sighed and watched her when doctor checking her.

"Don't worry, Miss Murthy you are fine but you need rest." Doctor told her and then face me. "Take care of her. She didn't overcome the mental state still." I nodded my head went to Nandini. She just looked at the bed sheet like a lost soul.

"Is she discharged..?" I asked.

"Yes she is... just complete the formality." I left Nandini and went with doctor.

In this two days I watch her scream in her sleep with a pain that someone will hurt her. If I find the persons who hurt her I will fucking kill them. I went to reception and fulfill the formalities then came back to Nandini. She is still sitting like a statue.

I sighed again and compose myself for her. I need her to cheer up not just sitting like a lost soul.

"Hey doll... it's time to go home.." I said as I went to her. I saw she shook as her eyes went teary.

"Hey, what's happened...?"

"I have no home." She whispered.

"Who said you have no home doll? You have a home with me. Come." As I slowly hold her face and press my mouth on her forehead. I can hear her heavy breathing as she hugged me tightly.

I also hugged her back to assure her that I'm with her. I slowly broke the hug and smiled at her then told her to come with me.

I hold her to give her support as I know she has no strength right now. We are going to take the elevator but Nandini stops walking. I tugged Nandini's hand but she doesn't move. I observe her carefully and saw the fear in her eyes like she is afraid of elevator. So I decided to take the stairs.

I don't know how to deal with Nandini's fear. Her vulnerable state making me crazy. How could I help her if she just shut herself from me and the entire world? She has no idea how this world works. If she becomes like that then she will always fallen into the ground and the cruel people just destroy her.

I sighed again and call a cab.

I make Nandini sit on the car and me also sat beside her. In 15 minutes we will reach our house. Hope the land lady doesn't notice us or else I have to explain everything to that cruel lady which I don't want.

I wrapped my arms on Nandini's shoulder to make her feel safe because I know she needed that. Hope that I can protect her. I don't want her to suffer like me. I know she suffered a lot but not anymore. From now I will be there for her. I can't see that another life just destroyed like me.

A tears just was ready to come out but I control it because I have to be strong. I can't break down.

I noticed Nandini fallen into sleep. I smiled at her innocent face which holds so much pain. How could a person hurt this beauty.? Maybe it's taken so much time for her to escape that cruelty. Maybe still she can gain her confidence for a life.

"Mam we reached." The driver said. I just didn't notice that we reached so soon. I nodded my head and collect my things then shook Nandini.

"Nandini wake up baby. We reached." I slowly called her.

"Hmm.. a little more.." she murmured.. I smiled.

"No. No little more. Come." I tugged her hand. She opened her eyes and give me little puppy look. I hide my smile.

"Mukti, I want to sleep, please." She begged like a 3 years kid.

"Nandini, we are in car. You can sleep at home." I firmly said. She pouted and step out from the car.

I give a cash to the driver. Then went to my old clumsy apartment. With one hand I hold a bad and with other hand I hold Nandini that she doesn't fall.

When we reached 4th floor I took a rest. It's really hard to manage. Two more stairs. We again started to climb the stairs. Nandini is really behaving like kid like she won't go anywhere and I had to tugged her forcefully. But I also remain careful with her arms because she cut her hands. After struggling for 20 minutes we reached our floor. I unlocked the door and also heard that Our land lady is opening her door.. so I quickly opened the door and pushed Nandini in and I closed the door. Ufff thanks god.. you save us or else that fat lady will kill us with her nonstop questions.

She is such bitch land lady you know god. uff.. well anyways.. I turned to face Nandini.

"Nandini sit on the couch. I'm going to make you soup." I went to the kitchen to check the groceries. Well my groceries are shortage but I can manage tonight. Tomorrow I will buy the staffs.

I looked at Nandini who is peacefully laying down on the couch. I went to my room and freshen up quickly so I can cook for us.

I went to kitchen and grab some vegetables from the fridge to chop it for the soup. I want to make vegetable soup for Nandini and want to make some chicken curry and rice. Doctor said it will be good for her. She needs some protein to get well soon.

I saw Nandini is watching cartoon and laughing with that. I smiled and pay attention to my cook.

I never fond of cooking but at the end I had to learn it to feed myself because my asshole of a father didn't find it necessary to feed me rather than eye raping me all time. It sounds pathetic but it's true. My own father is the sick bastard who destroyed my whole life.

A father! My own father ruined me.

Father and daughter is the most beautiful relationship in this world that god gifted to us but that bastard ruin that for me. I sighed as I looking at Nandini. Hope she can find peace unlike me.

I take out two plates and set it on the table. I don't know why I feel attached to Nandini but when I see her I felt like protecting her and it's made me happy that I have someone with me now.

I watch the time its 9 pm. two hours passed... Oh god I almost forget the time when I cooked. Idiot.

The soup is almost done and the rice is also cooked. So it's time for making a chicken curry.

Narrator's pov:

The dark place where Nandini is captured herself for long time that now she afraid of the light. The torment she went through her whole life now become her poison and also a drug that help her to breathe through in her darkness.

Afraid of self-torture.. She should feel that but she live through this self-torture. It helps her to compose her inner soul. Her mind was becoming dark whole where no light can reach. Strange erotic painful scene always hunting her either she is in her sleep or awake.

Torturing yourself is not the way to escape your pain but there is no way that Nandini can escape this. Nothing is worth in her life that can assure her that she can live her life now.. Because fate is also unknown about her destiny. Slowly a darkness coming to her life that can torment her life more. The memory she is tried to escape now ready to find her through the most darkest way.. Her life is sold out a man whom she never met and now he is searching for her.

The selling ceremony she was once escape to protect herself now become her fate.

Unknowingly she tied herself to that person.

And that person was beyond shocked when he first saw her face to face. He never thought that she will look so beautiful in real. The picture didn't capture her true beauty.

'The real one is more beautiful than the girl of that picture. Maybe i need to thanks Atish for this girl.' The person thought.

He remembered his first meeting with her.. The eyes.. Lips.. Which was so inviting but yet she was looking so delicate and innocent at a time.

That time he was bound to his duty that he didn't do anything but now he is determined to find herself.

He evilly smiled in the bed when he thought about Nandini.

'Finally i found you girl.. Finally. And no matter what's you will be mine to pleasure Me.' he lost in his thought and time someone called his name.

"Manik. Why are you smiling like that?" the guy Manik cringed at her voice.

'Annoying bitch.' Manik thought.

Manik glared at her acting. "Mind in your own business. Never ever tried to forget your place." with that Manik gets up and grabbed his shirt and pant.

"Are you leaving?" The girl again tried to acting like a sweet girlfriend.

"Am i looking like person who will answer to you?" Manik asked in a cold voice that the girl eyes tremble with fear.

"Your money. And don't need to call me again. Your work is done. And most of it, I'm done with you." with that Manik zipped up his pant and leave the condo.

The girl cursed Manik continuously.

"You think you can get rid of me mister Malhotra..? No way.. I'm Anya.. and i get what i want."

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Other side Manik was so angry at her. He knew that he was with her for one year and she thought that he took her as a girlfriend but he didn't it was just a nearly physical pleasure they had gone through together. Nothing else. And now she is acting like a real bitch.

It's the time when she has to go away from his life.

A slut like Anya will never be the trusted one for him.

He bring out his iPhone 6 and dialed Harshad's number.

"Hey Bro."

"Did you get the info?" Manik comes to the point directly.

"Well i'm fine thank you." Harshad said in a mocking tone.

"FUCKING tell me what i asked." Manik growled.

"Oops.. yeah i get the info and i was little surprised to see the address and you will be shocked also."

"Fucking tell me what you get. Just don't pulling the matters so far that you will regret later."

"She lives in the building or should i say in the opposite building where you killed Raghav." Harshad said in a serious tone.

"Okay. Leave the file on my desk and lock my room." with that he cut the call.

And opposite side Harshad cursed him.

"Asshole. is it really heard to act like a gentleman.?" Harshad asked.

"You should asked yourself first." Dhruv hit back his word to Harshad. Harshad glared at him and went to Manik's room.

Other guys just laughed.

Manik smiled when he realized that he heard a sound when he was killing that man. So he wasn't wrong that he saw someone through that window.

'So little boo.. Get ready to meet your master finally which you decided to escape.'

"Damn girl you will get your punishment for this." Manik mumbled and drove his bike.

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I know it's a little update but. Guys at least I updated. As I said I will try to update at least three of my stories. so one is that. I writing this chapter for one month or more.. but I couldn't write properly as my brain stopped working. So please forgive me for my delay.

Hope you like the update.

Poor nandini. I felt so bad for her. and Mukti is so nice. I'm F loving her. and Manik.. oh god.. I'm really scared for nandu.

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And I don't have to utter the same words.. I think.. but I have to I know..! it's a dark story.. so please.. don't expect sweet things now.!

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