This was requested by wetlouisismylife I hope it's alright <3

I just have no motivation for online school right now, and I keep over sleeping and missing my first two lessons and if my parents knew they would kill me and I've barely been doing any work. I dont know why but I just cant do it, I'm so done with school.

BUT ANYWAY HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY TO WALLS!!! OMG I CANNOT BELIEVE IT, I FEEL LIKE IT ONLY JUST CAME OUT. I LOVE LOUIS AND HIS ALBUM SO MUCH AND IM SO PROUD OF HIM!! AND THE FANART ON SPOTIFY, AHHH

Harry's P.O.V

We had to leave for a meet and greet in 20 minutes, I love meeting fans and talking to them but today I just wanted to sleep. I have a massive headache and I'm extremely tired, we spent all night writing songs and sorting out the melody for our third album that we only got three hours of sleep, well, the boys got three hours of sleep I got none. I couldn't fall asleep no matter how hard I tried.

I was currently laying down on mine and Louis' bed in our hotel room, trying to fall asleep, at least for 20 minutes. I had my arm over my eyes, trying to block out the sunlight when I heard Louis step out the bathroom. I opened my eyes and saw him walk over to his suitcase with a towel wrapped loosely around his hips, his hair was wet and water droplets were still lingering on his tanned skin.

Normally I would have loved to see Louis like that, but today I couldn't have cared less. I closed my eyes and leant my head back against the pillow while Louis got changed. It must have been only a few minutes before I felt the bed dip next to me and a hand was running through my hair. "Are you okay, babe?" I heard Louis ask as he placed another hand on my forehead.

I just hummed and opened my eyes slightly to look at him, his face was full of concern as he looked down at me. "What's wrong?" He asked, removing his hand off my forehead.

"Just tired." I mumbled as Louis' hand continued to play with my hair, he looked at me skeptically, almost like he knew there was something else.

"Just tired? That's it?"

I sighed figuring he wouldn't let it go until he knew the truth. "I've got a bit of a headache too." I whispered as I closed my eyes.

"Is it bad?" His voice was laced with worry.

"A little." I lied. I didn't want to tell him how bad it actually was, I felt like I was being silly. He didn't say anything, he just stood up and looked through his suitcase for a few minutes before walking back over to me with something in his hands.

"Take this." He said as he handed me some ibuprofen and then grabbed a bottle of water from beside him before handing it to me as well. He kissed my temple before grabbing his phone and sitting against the headboard of the bed while I swallowed the pills.

I managed to fall asleep for at least 15 minutes before Louis was waking me up saying we needed to go. I groaned but got up anyway, my head still hurt but it wasn't as bad as before. I walked down to the lobby with Louis and saw the boys all sat in chairs waiting for our security to take us to the car.

Right now I wanted nothing more than to be close to Louis, I wanted his comfort but I knew I couldn't, not while we were in public.

I pushed aside the comfort I craved from my boyfriend and sat down next to Liam. We were waiting for only 5 minutes before security came and took us out to our car.

The flash from the paparazzi cameras was not helping my headache one bit, but I just kept my head down as we walked out of the hotel. We all got into the car and our driver started taking us to the meet and greet.

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We were rushed into the building before any paps could take pictures and lead into a room, there was a backdrop in the middle of the room and a camera set a few feet in front of it. They got all of us ready and we went and stood in front of the backdrop before the security let the fans inside.

I immediately heard screams from a few girls as the security made them all line up before letting the first two girls come over to us. One of them was crying and the other was smiling widely as she walked over to Zayn first and gave him a hug. "Don't cry, love." I heard Louis tell the other girl before hugging her, I smiled fondly at him before realizing that there was other people in the room.

They hugged the rest of us before we took a picture, sometimes people ask us to do certain things for the picture but these two girls just wanted a normal picture. We smiled and hugged them one last time before they left and a group of 3 girls and guy walked up to us.

You would think that my headache would be getting worse because of the screaming but surprisingly it wasn't that bad anymore, it was still there but I could ignore it now. We spoke to the group for a couple of minutes before we took a picture, they asked if we could do the Charlie's angels finger gun pose. We agreed and took the picture before they left and a new group came over.

This continued for another hour before my headache started getting worse again, I rubbed a hand over my face just as a girl left. Louis must've seen, as he walked over to me before quickly rubbing his hand up and down my back, he smiled sadly at me before walking back over to Zayn.

I hated that I couldn't kiss him or even show that I loved him in public, it felt like I was locked in a glass room. You can see out but you cant reach what you really want. I wished we could come out, I wanted that more than anything else, but we couldn't. And I dont even know when we will be able to.

I looked up when more fans came over, one immediately gave me a hug and I hugged her back. I always made sure the fan pulled away from the hug before I did. We took the picture with them before they left and a girl came in by herself. She had long blonde hair and blue eyes, and looked around our age, she smiled and walked over to Louis first before hugging the rest of us. We took the picture, she had asked Louis to kiss her cheek, he agreed.

I didn't want to be jealous, I hated being jealous because I knew it meant nothing but I couldn't help it. Why couldn't he kiss me in public?

She stayed after the picture was taken and was talking to Louis while we all stood around and listened. I only paid attention when I heard her compliment Louis and run a hand through his hair, that caught my attention. But what made me more jealous was that Louis didn't even looked like he cared that much, he stiffened slightly before laughing and letting her mess around with his hair. I rolled my eyes and tried to look away.

'Stop being stupid, it's nothing.' I told myself as I turned back to the group seeing the girl practically drooling over Louis who was flirting with her. She laughed at something he said and pulled on his shirt a little making him stumble forward, I was expecting him to move back a little as they were practically chest to chest, but he didn't. He stayed where he was and kept smiling. I scowled and looked down at the ground, why couldn't he just step back a little?

She bit her lip while she stared at Louis, she was blushing as she placed a gentle hand on his arm, he looked down at it before looking back up at her saying something that made her laugh. My headache was long forgotten about now, I was too busy thinking about why my boyfriend was flirting with a fan, it was painfully obvious that he was, even Liam, Niall and Zayn had now stepped away and started their own conversation.

I wanted to go closer and know what they were talking about. Don't judge me, I want to know what my boyfriend is doing. I grabbed Niall's arm and dragged him over to them before giving the girl a fake smile. "Louis, you two look quite cozy." I said smiling between him and the girl, as Niall looked between us worryingly.

"Yeah, just having a chat with Becca." He smiled, missing the hint of jealousy in my voice. "She's telling me how handsome I am." He chuckled before looking back at Becca who was twisting her hair on her finger.

"Well you are." She laughed playfully hitting his chest. "And he says he doesn't work out, but he's so handsome."

I fought the scowl trying to make its way onto my face and bit my lip as I gripped Louis' arm secretly. "Thanks sweetheart. You look amazing too." He smiled back at her as she blushed and pushed her shoulders back a little showing off her boobs. I really wanted to shout that he liked dick but I decided that this wasn't the right place.

I made Niall stand with me as they continued to flirt, making me want to gag or take Louis away. When Louis told Becca she had an eyelash on her cheek she blushed and asked him to get it for her, he only hesitated slightly before reaching closer and wiping it off her cheek. I took my hand off Louis' arm and moved it to his back before moving it down closer to his bum, he froze and looked over at me as I smiled innocently back at him.

I moved my hand lower and moved closer to him when she said complimented him again, my hand was now resting on his bum and I was shoulder to shoulder with Louis, Becca had backed off a bit and Louis was looking at me nervously.

It felt like they were flirting for hours when really it was only a couple of minutes. She hugged Louis once more and he kissed her cheek before she smiled and waved goodbye before walking away. As soon as she walked away I took my hand off Louis and stepped back, he looked like he wanted to say something but more fans came in before he could.

I kept my eye on Louis every time someone went over to him, and for the rest of the hour I was doing my best to hide how annoyed and jealous I was. I even kissed Niall's cheek in multiple of the pictures making Louis scowl at Niall.

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We had finished the meet and greet and we were being escorted back to the car so our driver could take us to the hotel. Louis was walking behind with Zayn while Liam and Niall spoke about something random next to me.

It was a 30 minute car journey before we were back at the hotel, Niall had gone off to Liam and Zayn's room as we were all going to hang out there but Louis and I were going back to our room to get changed first.

"Are you okay?" Louis asked once we got to our room.

"Yup." I said as I took my shirt off and grabbed one of my hoodies from the suitcase.

"You can wear one of mine Haz." He said as he watched me walk over to the bed, he normally gave me his jumpers to wear and was probably confused as to why I actually put on my own.

"Nope. But I'm sure Becca will love your hoodie." I shot back as I ruffled my hair up a bit, I turned around to see Louis stood in the same place with a stern look on his face.

"Is that why you were ignoring me? Becca?" He said as I sat down and shrugged. He shook his head and leant against the desk in the room. "Really Harry? You're jealous?"

"Well you were the one that was flirting with her for ages." I fiddled with the hem of my jumper as Louis sighed.

"So what? It doesn't mean anything, I went along with it as a joke. I couldn't just walk away." He said as he crossed his arms over his chest.

"A joke. Alright. Well your joke seemed pretty real, I mean you may as well take her on a date. I'm sure she would love that. She had her hands all over you." I rolled my eyes. "I'm sure she's better than me anyway, she's the complete opposite, she's got long blonde hair and blue eyes, a model body and everything your 'supposed' to like."

"What are you talking about? You're perfect. I think you're perfect. I don't care how she looked, she was a fan and I was trying to make her happy. And I'm dating you, not her." He sighed again when I didn't say anything "And she's actually a nice person, y'know. She was just excited to see us."

"See you more like." I muttered. "She clearly wanted you only, she probably would have been very happy if you went home with her."

He scoffed and pushed himself away from the desk and grabbed his phone. "You know what? When you want to talk about this like an adult, I'll be in Liam and Zayn's room. Because clearly you're too wound up right now to talk about this and listen to me properly." He took a deep breath and walked towards the door.

I sighed and put my head in my hands, I didn't mean to be so childish or stupid about the situation. I'm just exhausted and I've got a killer headache and I guess seeing Louis flirt with someone tipped me over the edge. I rubbed my face as I heard footsteps coming back towards me, I thought Louis had left already but I looked up to see him walking back over to me.

"Look, I dont really know why this has annoyed you so much." His voice has risen and he was close to shouting. "It means nothing, you know that, I know that, and this is stupid! You have no reason to be jealous, I love you. Not her. I don't even know her, I was just being nice. It's not like I could have pushed her away and said 'Sorry love, I've got a boyfriend.'"

"That's the fucking problem!" I snapped making Louis freeze. "That's the problem." I sighed and looked down as Louis put his phone down and slowly walked closed to me. "I'm sorry okay? I shouldn't have gotten jealous, I know it means nothing. But do you know what it feels like to see you flirt with someone that's not me? It hurts because I know that I cant do that with you." I confessed as I looked up at Louis who was now crouched in front of me.

"So that's what this is really about." He sighed as he rested his hands on the side of my legs.

"Lou, the most we can do in public is stand next to each other, sometimes not even that. I don't know when we will be able to do anything more than that and it hurts. So yeah, I am jealous. But I jealous of what we cant do. I'm jealous of what you can do with other girls in public but never me. I don't know if we're ever going to be able to be together in public." My voice broke a little as I closed my eyes and took a deep breath.

"I'm sorry." Louis whispered as he rubbed his hands up and down my thigh, in a calming way. "I didn't think that you were upset by it. I was just trying to be nice and make a fans day and I didn't think that I was hurting you. I'm sorry, love."

I opened my eyes and looked into Louis' sincere ones. "I'm sorry I said that stuff, I bet she is a nice person."

"Just a bit touchy." Louis chuckled making me smile a little, he got up and sat next to me on the bed. I moved closer and leant my head on his shoulder while he ran a hand through my hair. "Y'know I love you right? And you're beautiful to me, I love every single part of you. No one will ever look as perfect as you in my eyes."

I nodded and yawned making Louis pull out his phone quickly. "What are you doing?" I asked as he started texting someone without removing his hand from where it was massaging my scalp.

"Telling the boys that we're staying here tonight." He said before turning his phone off and looking back at me.

"But you were excited to go hang out with them tonight?"

"Yeah but I'd rather stay here with you." He smiled and kissed my lips quickly before wrapping an arm around my waist and dragging me further up the bed so we were leaning against the headboard. I put my head back on his shoulder as he wrapped an arm around my waist and kissed my forehead. "One day we'll be free, Haz. I promise." He whispered, placing his hand back in my hair.

"How do you know that? Cause right now I feel like we're never going to be." I mumbled.

"Because I will make sure of it. It might take some time but I will make sure that one day I will walk down the street with your hand in mine. Everyone will see, and I will make sure they all know how much I love you." He turned his head a little bit to kiss me again, I smiled and kissed him back. "I wont flirt back with someone now I know it upsets you. I don't ever want to be the reason you're hurting." He said once we pulled away.

"It's okay Lou, I just wasn't having a great day. I know it didn't mean anything and you were just being nice." I smiled sincerely at him making sure he knew I meant it.

"Well I still wont flirt back. I'm going to save it all for you, because one day I'm going to kiss you in front of the world and make sure that they know the truth. The truth that I love you, and it's always been you." He smiled as I turned my head to look at him, I place my hand on his cheek and looked into his blue eyes.

"I love you too." I whispered before leaning in to kiss him, I could feel him smiling into the kiss making me laugh and pull away.

He chuckled and laid down more, pulling me with him. "You still got a headache?" He asked as he turned the light off so the only light in the room was coming from the window.

"Yeah, It's been killing me all day." I sighed, closing my eyes. I felt Louis get up but I was so comfortable and I really just wanted to fall asleep so I didn't bother looking to see where he went.

"Take some more of this." I heard him say after a couple of seconds. I opened my eyes and took the pills from his hand before putting them in my mouth. Louis handed me a drink which I gratefully took and took a sip from, helping the pills go down.

I thanked him and got under the covers as he put the pills away. I closed my eyes and felt the bed dip when Louis got in beside me, he kissed my temple and wrapped an arm around me. "Go to sleep, love." He whispered. I hummed and moved further back into his warmth as he held me close.

I was about to fall asleep when I heard Louis whisper one last thing.

"I am hopelessly and completely in love with you Harry Styles. Don't ever forget that."

I smiled and moved impossibly closer to him, knowing he was it for me. Louis is everything I will ever need. All I ever wanted. And I'm glad he found me, because otherwise I would be lost. But he guided me home. Home to him.

He was my home.

He always will be.

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I hope that was okay, I didn't really know how to end it :(

I'm sorry I've been gone for a little while, I just needed some time to myself. Remember to give yourself some time too, I know that life can suddenly just be too much so take time to relax and be yourself without stress. It's okay to take care of yourselves. Speaking of, dont forget to eat and drink and have a nap if you haven't slept much.

I love you all and thank you. Thank you for making me smile in times I didn't know I could.

Jealousy is a form of hatred built upon insecurity - Unknown

"How do you spell love?" - Piglet "You dont spell it. You feel it." - Pooh