Skrrt I'm hella sad. Also idk if parole works the same in Cuba as it does where I am but I'm not tryna research rn- trash author

-No pov-
  You see lance has always been what most would call "carefree". As a kid he never looked both ways while crossing the street, never listened to what the signs said. He wouldn't listen to his teachers or him parents when they told him to be careful, he did what he wanted. Always asking the same question.

Why not?

Now of course this got him in trouble a lot. He had got parole for  a year once because he was caught with alcohol and weed, which is common in Cuba so he only got 2 years but got out after his first year. Of course it wasn't the only time he had said substances but we don't talk about that.

Anyways his carefreeness carried on, even to age 16 where he was the proud paladin of the blue lion of Voltron. During battles he does as he pleases, often straying from the plan. This got him scolded many times by shiro and the other team members.

He never cared, he did what he did already so he couldn't take it back. With that being said why should he care that he did something wrong? It couldn't change. Nothing changes, ever.  

No matter how hard he wants to take it back, which he never did, he was unable to. This is his mentality. It's unreasonable but isn't everything? He sees it as a result of his loose upbringing, you know coming from a family with so many people can cause a lot of things tend to slip past the adults.

One time he and his brother snuck out and went to the beach late at night, lance almost drowned that night and yet no one in his house cared.

  It always scared him how much he got away with but he was in no place to complain. Now sure he wanted affection sometimes but that happens. He always thought as if he were a real life tinker bell, needs attention all the time or he'd die.

  In the castle he doesn't get enough of that though. He feels unsafe and generally sad, because no one there really likes him. They tolerate him, sure but they don't necessarily care for him. Knowing this can really damage someone's self esteem.

It can hurt it enough to where it feels like you're not enough or that livings not particularly worth it. Lance wasn't an exception to this and found himself caring less.. feeling less.

He always tried staying happy, but one day it got too much. They had just gotten back from a mission and it hadn't gone the best. Everyone took their frustrations out on lance, per usual. They would ignore him, and glare, lance just left and as he was he heard Keith say it, the only thing he needed to catapult his last bit of strive to live of a fucking mountain then run it over with a steamroller.

"Why won't you just go back home?"

Lance just turned and smiled. "As you wish"  and left. He went to the armory and without a second thought, splattered his skull and blood all over the room. He was carefree in those moments, he just wanted to please his friends.