Dear Wei,

Do you miss me like I miss you? These soles have blisters from walking around the realm asking for you, but to no avail. No one knows where you are. Not a single soul.

Wei, help me. I think, I am beginning to forget how you look! How you smell. How you felt. I think I am loosing it, Wei.

Now a days, I don't even hear you call my name. Before atleast I would hallucinate you whisper sweet things in my ears but now... now I have long forgotten how you sound Wei.

Your smile, your smirk, your mischief, your scent, your happiness, your sadness, your helplessness... I am starting to forget each of them.

Your warmth, your playfulness, you removing my band, you calling me "Lan Zhan", I am forgetting them all.

Did you forget me too? Have I ever meant anything to you?

Do you remember our kiss? Our only kiss? Our first kiss? Our last kiss?

Your lips against mine. My body pressed against yours. Your breath fanning my face. Me sucking the love out of yours.

Just once, let me hold you in my arms.

Just once, you hold me in your arms.

Just once, kiss me goodbye.

Just once, let me embrace you one last time.

Just once...

For this world you're long forgotten, but what about this soul who wails your name?

Wei, come back.

Please.

Have I been a hopeless fool to have loved you but never asked you anything in return? Had I confessed before, would that have stopped all the pain?

Why did you leave me? Didn't you have any mercy? I beg you, please come back.

That one moment where we shared, a toy between us. Maybe I fell for you back then. Lest I knew that kid would toy with my heart when we grew up.

Never have I felt so helpless Wei. Not back then, when I was 5 years old. Not even when there was no one to open the doors of Jingshi for me again. Not even when I had my legs broken by the Wen Clan. Not even when I bore scars of your name.

But I was helpless when you left me, all alone. My world ceased to perish.

You were selfish, Wei Ying.

So selfish.

You left me.

And now... all I can hope for is to retain your memories. Only Memories.

I can't Wei. I can't.

I am loosing this battle all alone.

Please come back.

Please.

Please.

Please.

If I can't be here, atleast take me with you!

Please.

Your,
Lan Zhan.

(Please listen to this music. "Somewhere" sung by O3ohn in The Guest. This song is apt for Lan Zhan. He's giving up and it makes me sad.)