Lunch with Lisa was nice. We talked a little bit but it wasn't enough time. I honestly don't know what's gotten into me lately.

At first I kept my distance because it was necessary. I didn't want her to know how I knew her brother. Now the secret is out, and she is starting to trust me, like really trust me, I can't hold myself back.

It's like I needed her to know about me and her brother. And for her to forgive me....

It actually allowed me to forgive myself just a little. I don't know if she really forgives me but not that the guilt is any lessened but at least now I know, the one main girl in his life, knows how and why he died.

He died by doing what he was trained to do his whole life, and what he would found was honorable. And I think Lisa accepts it, but still hates that's he's gone, which is understandable.

I walk Lisa to entry of base to let her go home and study. She has the nurse exam tomorrow and needs to study.

We both pause before saying goodbye. Her eyes didn't really show me anything but her nervous fingers was twiddling. I found it cute.

"Well I guess I have to go." She said with a smile.

I nod my head. "Don't study too hard. Make sure you sleep early."

She smirks, "Don't worry about me. I'm a big girl."

It was my turn to smile. "I know." I put my hands in my pocket. "Sooo...."

"Sooo...." She repeats after me.

We both chuckle at our stupid self. "How about I take you to dinner tomorrow to celebrate being done with studying and all."

Her eyes widen. "Yeah sure."

"Ummm.... How about I text you the details." I suggest.

"Yeah but I don't think we have each other numbers?"

I nervously heated up. Yeah now that I think of it. We don't. I rub the back of my neck nervously.

It's like I damn high schooler.

"Can I have your number?" She laughs quietly and nods her head. She clearly is enjoying this. I grab my phone in my pocket to feel that my pocket is empty.

My lips went into a thin line. My phone is in my locker. We aren't allow to have our phones during practice and I forgot to grab my phone when it was lunch time.

"I don't have my phone." I admit.

She grabs her phone in her back pocket. "What's yours?"

I tell her my number and she smirks as she enter my number in her phone. She looks at me when she's done. 

"I just text you. So now you have my number."

"Perfect."

"Jungkook!" I hear my name being called. I turn to see Namjoon with Doctor Jisoo watching us.

Namjoon does not look happy. But Jisoo on the other hand is smiling from ear to ear. That makes me less nervous.

I turn back to Lisa. "I guess that's my que to go."

She smiles. "Yeah. Same. Well have a good training day. Just don't forget to text me."

I watch her walk out of base, then jog it Namjoon and Jisoo. When I was in front of them I straighten my poster and solute to them.

"At ease." Jisoo giggles. I look at her then at Namjoon's face. I turn back to Jisoo with wide eyes, i subtly shook my head. She rolls her eyes and nudges Namjoon.

"At ease." Namjoon grumbles. I did what I was told. "Jungkook, what are you doing?" He asks me.

"I'm being friends with Lisa." I tell him.

"Please, you were totally blushing." Jisoo points out. "And Lisa seems a little nervous. I know it doesn't fully seem like it, but I known her awhile. She never twiddles her fingers." Jisoo squeals and Namjoon did not seem please Jisoo found this as a good thing.

"You two weren't talking for awhile what happen?" He questions.

I sign out, "She found out about me and Nick and how he took my place."

Jisoo smiles faded. She comes up to me and rub my arm, "Are you okay?"

I gave her a confuse look. Shouldn't she ask if Lisa is okay? I didn't loose my brother, she did. And it was because of me.

"I know Lisa was in pain, but so were you. I treat soldiers wounds, they don't always have to physical. You all have mentally wounds as well." She tells me. "So now that she knows, and it seems like you two are starting to understand why Nick did this, maybe you two can both move on. It's not good holding guilt or sadness for long."

Namjoon smiles as he listens to Jisoo. She really is smart and amazing. Namjoon can be hard leader but he have always have a soft spot for people acknowledging the mental mind.

"Just please be careful. Does General Yang know?" Namjoon ask.

And honestly I don't know. "He had been super busy, I don't know if Lisa talked to him. Actually kind to think of it, I don't really know if she had seen him."

Both Namjoon and Jisoo posture stiffens. But Namjoon was the first to realize their odd behavior and smile slime he didn't do anything unusual.

"Well, that's a job of a General." He clears his throat. "Go back and get ready for training."

My brow furrow in confusion, as if he was purposely trying to change the subject. It was weird. I didn't move but Jisoo gave me encouraging smile to do as I was told but it wasn't natural. It seems more force.

Never the less, I did what he said. And I left my unsettling feeling on the side. The faster today goes, the faster tomorrow comes, and the faster I see Lisa.

Before going to sleep, I check my phone and see Lisa's text.

It's Lisa. 😺

I check the time. It's 2100 hours, it's still a decent time.

Goodnight. I'll see you tomorrow.
1930 tomorrow. Dress nice, I'll take you to dinner in the city.

In a minute I received a text back.

Lisa:
The city?
Are you sure? That's seems a little much.

Me:
No, it's not. Please don't argue. Just do well on your exam. And we will celebrate.

Lisa:
Okay if you say so.
Good night.

Me:
Goodnight .

And like that I fell in a peaceful sleep while thinking about Lisa.