Chapter 32 -is it Love or pity?

JinHee POV

"Duh you're coming with us" Suho answered as they all nodded in agreement.

"Yeah right." I rolled my eyes at them.

"No really, you're part of the group now, and we don't leave any member out in any vacation" Kris answered.

I was expecting Jongin to retort but he didn't.

I looked at him and turns out he was already looking at me.

I blinked and looked away.

"I can't go to L.A with you guys, even if I can, I have a junior brother to take care of here"

"That's even better! The more the merrier!" Baekhyun shouted.

I rolled my eyes at him.

"Going to L.A means I'll see my family members" I whispered softly.

"Why? Isn't that a good thing?" Chen asked.

Good thing my ass.

"We'll get to see your mom, your dad,your family, Your house that'd be great!" Chanyeol added.

Family? Do I even have one.

The last time I heard from my dad was two weeks ago. He hasn't sent us money for those two weeks and he didn't even write us any letter.

I think they're happy with the way they're living and Going to visit them won't make them happy.

"I don't think it'd be actually great for them" I whispered softly with my head low.

Everyone got silent.

I looked up and saw the guys looking at me with soft gazes.

They're probably doing the one thing I hate right now- pitying me. 

I cleared my throat snapping them from their thoughts.

"Ok! Can we like end this discussion here? We'll plan the vacation when that time comes. Maybe we could ask Tao's mom for help" Jongin said as Sehun draped his hands around my shoulders.

I looked up at Sehun and gave him a small smile.

He knows, I don't like talking about my "family members" in L.A.

He understands.

There was silence for a few seconds before Chen spoke up.

"Come to think, you don't talk much about your Family and the one you talk much about,we haven't met him"

"Oh, Yeah" I said as I looked up at Sehun that had tightened his hold on my shoulders.

He was looking at the direction of Jongin and Xiumin with a smug grin.

"When will we met this brother of yours JinHee?"

"I don't know, when he's free I'll let you guys know" I answered.

"ow ow" Sehun said as I pinched his arms.

"That hurts!" He whined.

I gave him a glare.
"You're squeezing me idiot"

"Oh" he said and removed his hands that was wrapped around my shoulders and looked at his red arms with a pout.

I rolled my eyes and rubbed the spot with my hands.

He looked up at Me and beamed.

I rolled my eyes and turned to Chen that was asking what my brother is busy doing.

"Schoolling"

"Okay, but we can still come to your house on Saturday and see him!" He whined.

"No. You can't." I said sternly but it fell on deaf ears.

"We're going to come to your house and that's Final" Luhan added.

I gave him a glare.

"No way in hell am I allowing you guys to enter my house" I added sternly.

"Yeah right?--" Xiumin answered with a teasing smile.

"Say that to us when we ring the door bell"

SeHun's POV(that's a first lol)

JinHee wanted to argue but we cut her off.

"We know the floor your apartment is in though, so we don't need you to give us your address" Tao Said as he gave her a teasing smile.

She opened her mouth to say something but I cut her off.

"We know even your apartment number,1032 right?" Her eyes and mouth widened in disbelief.

"So don't underestimate us okay? We can even get in your apartment without you opening the door for us"Kris hyung added with a smirk.

She opened her mouth and closed it back.

Then and there we knew we had won.

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Since it was an Exam week, teachers won't attend classes.

Meaning free periods for us.

Some of the hyungs that had classes left and it was remaining eight of us.

That was Baekhyun, Chanyeol, Tao, Chen, Kyungsoo, Jongin, JinHee and I.

We were sitting on the couches(well Kai and JinHee were lying down with their eyes closed) while thinking of what we would do while we waited for school to end.

"Videogames anyone?" Baekhyun asked as he twirled the Videogame he has gotten from Jongin's collection in the clubhouse.

"Table tennis!" Tao shouted.

JinHee that was lying on one couch with her eyes closed opened her eyes and glared at him.

"I won't hit you this time JinHee I promise" he mused.

She rolled her eyes at him.

"Don't worry Jongin is here, he'll shield her face again " Baekhyun joked and they all laughed.

I looked at Jongin that lying beside me and saw that he had opened his eyes and his cheeks were red.

I looked in front of me where JinHee was lying with her legs on ChanYeol's lap.

She had her eyes closed but I didn't fail to notice the red tint on her cheeks.

A smile crept on my lips as I put two and two together.

"Time to use my Cupidial Skills"

"Sehun!" Chen hyung shouted snapping me from my Match making trance.

"Uh?" I asked as I looked up.

He was holding a tennis bat.

"What?"

"Table Tennis" He replied as he dragged me up.

"You're in my team with Baekhyun, we're competing against Tao,  Chanyeol and Kyungsoo"

"Oh okay" I stood up reluctantly as he dragged me into the game room.

"I want you to do your best okay, you know Tao knows how's to play, same with Kyungsoo, chanyeol isn't our problem but you should be prepared in case "  Chen rambled as we walked towards the game room.

I looked back and saw Jongin and JinHee.

I hope they'll be okay.

We entered into the room and Baekhyun shoved a bat towards me.

"Get ready to lose fellas"  Tao shouted from across the table.

"The last time I checked we aren't you" Baek replied as he got in position.

The thoughts of the JongHee couple- to be- left my mind as the game started.

★★★

JinHee's POV

We were engulfed in silence as the guys left.

The only sounds I could hear was the faint sound of the guys from the game room.

I turned and adjusted Luhan's coat that was covering my legs.

I looked at the direction of Jongin and saw that he was already looking at me.

"What?" I asked him.

"I--Nothing" he answered as he looked away and closed his eyes.

"Weird" I thought as I closed my eyes.

I've noticed that ever since that Day in the hall, jongin has Been utterly soft to me.

He's been behaving weird, like I always see him looking at me but when I look back at him, he'll turn away and pretend as if he wasn't looking at me.

He doesn't glare at me or even roll his eyes at me again, he doesn't make s
Hurtful comments whenever I'm talking and the guys seem to be looking at him whenever they're talking to Me.

Is perhaps going through the same thing that I'm feeling?

Does he perhaps like me?

Or is he getting there the way I am?

Who am I kidding?

Why will he like someone like me?

I mean, I'm not even as pretty as half of the girls that he's rejected.

And plus, why would he like someone that has been nothing than a pain in the ass for him.

He's probably just acting nice because he saw my vulnerable side last week.

*sighs* I haven't even confirmed my feelings for him and I'm already feeling rejected.

"Hey, Are you sleeping?" I heard his deep husky voice that didn't fail to set my heart in fast mode.

I composed myself and replied as this was the first time he was actually having a real conversation with me.

"No. Why do you ask?"

"I want to ask you something " he replied.

I looked at him and saw that he was looking at me with a indecisive look on his face.

"Shoot"

"what did you dream about that made you so scared that night?"

See.... I told you it was because I showed him my vulnerable side that he was being nice.

"Why do you care?" I spat. The irritation on the fact he didn't actually see me the same way I was seeing him was creeping in.

Yes I realize after much thinking  during the weekend I might actually like Jongin.

And seeing him caring for another reason is breaking my heart.

"I--I don't know!" He shouted a little bit higher than usual as he raked his hands through his hair.

He opened his eyes and faced me.

"I don't know okay? I don't even know why seeing you cry that night hurt me okay? I don't even know why I'm behaving like this! I'm not supposed to care but I--I ----dammit!" He shouted startling me.

The rest of the guys seemed to have heard the noise cause they were rushing into the room.

"I don't even know why I'm even hurting because of you, I don't even know what you're doing to me Jinhee! I don't---" he stood up and grabbed his hair.

I was suddenly short of words. I didn't even know what was happening.

I'm confused and at the same time happy that he was beginning to care.

"What's going on here?" Chen asked as they moved towards us.

"Kai calm down, what happened?" Sehun asked as he moves towards Jongin.

"Kai?" I asked.

"Dammit, Just forget I said anything" he said and stormed off out of the clubhouse, with Sehun following closely behind.

"Are you okay Jay?" Chanyeol asked as we sat down.

My eyes were fixed on the door Sehun and Jongin had gone out from.

"Yeah" I replied.

"If you don't mind me asking, what is Kai angry about?" Chen asked carefully as he sat adjacent to me.

"Kai?" I asked as I looked at Chen.

That's not the first time, I'm hearing them say Kai. I've been curious since the first day I heard it but I didn't want to ask about it seeing as they didn't tell me anything about it, I thought it was their group's secret or something.

"That's Jongin's other name" D.O answered.

"Oh. Kai" I repeated.

"So what did you say to Jongin that made him so mad?" Chen asked again.

"He asked me something personal and I asked why he cared? Don't know why he was even shouting" I replied as the images of the past few minutes flashed my mind.

I need air.

"Oh. Don't think about it okay, he's just going through a phase, don't worry he'll come back to his senses and apologize" D.O assured.

I stood up and grabbed Luhan's Jacket.

"Do you mind?" I asked them.

"Oh. No we understand. We'll just explain to the rest of the hyungs when they Come" Baek said.

I nodded at him and moved towards the door.

I heard him mutter a "Kai's so stupid" before I closed the door and went out.

I walked to the rooftop as my mind processed what Jongin had said.

"I don't know okay? I don't even know why seeing you crying that night hurt me okay? I don't even know why I'm behaving like this! I'm not supposed to care but I--dammit"

Does this mean, he might actually like me? I mean he said it himself that he doesn't know why he was behaving like that.

Was he angry at the fact that he cared or the fact that I asked him why he cared?

This thought lingered on my mind as I climbed the stairs to the rooftop.

I need answers and I'm going to ask Sehun since he might know why Jongin was angry earlier.

I got into the rooftop and closed the door slowly.

I was moving towards the direction of my bench when I heard two familiar voice conversing.

I didn't want to eavesdrop but I heard my name so I moved quietly towards where the voices was coming from.

I stood behind a flower pot as I saw two familiar backs I've come to know.

"Why did you shout at her?" Sehun asked the tanned skin boy who had his head down beside him.

"I don't know Sehun, I was just frustrated with what I was feeling?".

Feelings? Does this means he has feelings for me?

"Why don't you just tell her about your feelings Kai"

"What feelings? Tell her what?" He raised his head up and asked.

"That you like her"

He likes who?  Me?

Since when? How?

A smile tugged on my lips as the thought of him liking me came across my mind.

"I don't know Sehun --" my smile slowly faltered.

"I don't know if what I'm feeling for her is love or pity" he replied.

"Pity?" Sehun asked.

My theories were correct.

He's just being nice because I showed him my vulnerable side.

He doesn't actually care.

"Yes. Maybe the fact was she cried in front of me is confusing me. I don't think I like Her Sehun. Her crying in my arms was what started all this, so I'm very sure its--"

I didn't wait for him to finish as I turned around and left.

"He doesn't actually like me, it was just pity all along"

A tear fell as I ran down.

What were you expecting JinHee?

He doesn't like you.

He didn't.

And he probably won't.

"Who's there?" I heard Sehun asked as I opened the door.

But I was too pained to care.

"Why does it hurt so much?"

Sehun's POV

Kai was talking when I heard a bang.

"Wait. Did you hear that?" I asked Jongin.

He looked at me and Shook his head.

I was certain that I heard something so I stood up and moved towards where I heard the noise from with Jongin following behind me.

He opened the door and looked around.

"I told you, I didn't hear any---"

" shit!" We shouted as we caught a glimpse of our green haired seatmate climbing down the stairs in a hurry.

We turned towards each other with widened eyes.

Jongin looked even more shocked.

"S-she d-d-din't hear what I  j-juat said r-right?" He asked with a shaky voice.

I wanted to reassure him but I wasn't too sure myself.

I just hope she didn't.

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