They're doing it again. I hate being left out.....

I hate being a shadow and I hate these stupid emotions. I wish I was dead so that my heart won't hurt whenever I'm sad.

I keep telling myself I'm not depressed or sad, because I hate self-diagnosing myself. I always play it off as "It's just a small reaction" thing and it freaking hurts me inside.

I hope I just sleep and never wake up, knowing no one would care. I don't even expect you guys to miss me since you don't know me that well, right? That's what people do, right? They'll only care if you're pretty, amazing, good, useful, or dying.

I wish I can be useful too :(

I wish I can sing, dance, and draw better. I wish I was smart. I wish I wasn't me.

Man, I'm being dramatic, sorry.

I really feel bad whenever I vent, since some of you guys probably have it worse than me.

Don't worry, I'll just shut up.

Bye.