Hyunjin's POV

"Why're we all having a meeting? And why isn't Seungmin here with us," Jeongin asked as he sat next to me on the couch. I was wondering the exact same thing. Chan called a meeting at 6pm in the, while Seungmin is at vocal practice. It's probably about Seungmin's birthday because it's tomorrow.

"As soon as Jisung and Minho get here, I'll let you know why I called this meeting," Chan said, leaning against a bench.

"Sorry, we're here. Jisung didn't want to get out of bed," Minho said as he dragged a still half-asleep Jisung into the loungeroom and they both flopped onto the floor in front of the couch.

"Alright. So as everyone knows, tomorrow is Seungmin's birthday," Chan said. Ah, so it as about that.

"Manager-nim and I came up with a good idea. We're going to do a prank video like other idols do. We're going to ignore him for the rest of the night and then surprise him tomorrow," Chan said with a grin.

"That is so not a good idea," I said immediately, making everyone turn to me and raise eyebrows.

"What, I seriously can't be the only one who thinks this isn't a good idea," I said with a small frown. I mean I'm not sure if people pay enough attention but if they do, they'd notice that Seungmin always likes to know where we all are, always wants to know what we're doing and get's anxious if he's left out.

"I actually think it's a good idea and it'll be really funny," Jisung said with a giggle.

"I don't think Seungmin will like it though," I said shaking my head slightly.

"Come on Hyunjin, it'll be funny. And if we're lucky we might manage to get him to shed a few tears. The only time I've seen him cry is when we've won an award," Felix said, nudging my shoulder gently.

"I agree with Lix Hyung, it'll be fun," Jeongin added.

"I really don't think so guys," I said uncertainly.

"Well then just go to the dance studio for the rest of the night and don't ruin it for us because you're the only one that doesn't want to do it," Minho said with a frown. Jeez, no need to get all narky on me.

"Oi, don't rude Minho. Apologize to Hyunjin," Chan said immediately.

"Right, sorry. I didn't mean for it to come out like that, but could you please just let us do this," Minho said softly.

"Sure, whatever. Just know if this ends badly, I warned you," I said, rolling my eyes as I stood up. I went to my room and quickly changed into my practice gear before heading out to the studio. I have a really bad feeling about this...

Seungmin's POV

Ever since I first joined Stray Kids, I've had this lingering fear of being left out, left behind by the other's. All my life I've been left behind by those I thought loved me, my parents, my siblings, my friends, everyone. It's only natural for me to understand the same thing is going to happen again. The boys are so much better than me, it'll only be a matter of time before they continue on without me. You must be thinking; if you know they're going to leave you, why would you subject yourself to that pain? Despite knowing what will happen, I can't help but want to feel loved and included for as long as I can, feel like I belong for once and not be looked at like an outcast. When the time comes, I can put myself back together. I just wasn't expecting the time to come so soon. I bumped into Hyunjin just as I was finishing from vocal practice.

"Hey, what're you doing here," I asked in confusion. I thought no one else had anymore schedules for the rest of the night.

"I just came to do some extra dance practice," he replied with a small smile.

"Oh. You really don't need it though," I pointed out, making him chuckle lightly.

"Everyone can do with extra practice," he said quietly. He seemed a bit off for some reason, as if he was holding something inside.

"You ok Hyunjin," I asked softly.

"What? Y-Yeah, I'm fine," he nodded quickly but he was fiddling with his fingers nervous, a tell that he was lying.

"Just know that I'm here for you if you need to talk," I said, giving him a small smile. He paused slightly before lunging forwards and wrapping me in a tight hug, surprising me but I hugged him back.

"You know I love you right," he whispered.

"Yeah, of course," I said quickly. Why is he even asking that? Does he think I don't love him?

"I love you too," I added.

"Don't forget that ok," he said quietly.

"Are you sure you're ok," I asked again. He's acting really weird.

"Promise me you'll remember," he said.

"Ok, yeah. Wait, you aren't dying are you," I asked, pulling back quickly.

"No, of course not. I just, I dunno, I'm feeling sentimental," he shrugged.

"Ok. Well, if you're still feeling sentimental later, I guess you can come cuddle or something," I said with a shrug.

"Thanks Minnie," he said with a small nod.

"Enjoy your dance," I said as I started walking off.

"Will do," he replied. I quickly walked out to the parking lot where Manager-nim was already waiting for me and went into the car where he drove me back to the dorm. I thanked him quickly before leaving the car and heading into the dorm.

"I'm home," I called out into the surprisingly dark dorm. It was so empty and quiet which is quite unusual for the boys. Usually Felix is yelling, Minho and Jisung are being all lovey dovey platonically, Jeongin and Changbin are complaining or annoying each other and Chan is wondering what he did in his past life to have to deal with a bunch of man-children. I slipped off my shoes and moved further into the entry, looking around.

"Hyungs? Jeonginnie," I called out but there was once again no reply.

"Guys, where are you," I yelled out. After once again not even hearing a peep, I went and looked in every room. There was no one in any room, not a single member. I don't really understand what's happening. Where could they be? They knew I would be back soon so where would they go? I went back to the kitchen and looked around, pausing when I saw a note on the fridge. I grabbed it quickly and begun to read.

Seungmin

You should be getting home soon so we just wanted to let you know we're going out for dinner. We wanted to have a group dinner but Hyunjin didn't want to come and you weren't here so we just went as us 6. Don't bother waiting for us, I don't know how long we'll be, so just have dinner at home

Chan

Wait, what? They went out for a group dinner without me? By the sound of it, they only left not long ago and were expecting me to come soon. Why wouldn't they just wait a bit for me? Or at least ask me if I wanted to meet them there. I mean they even asked Hyunjin but he said no. Why wouldn't they ask me? Don't they care about me? Oh my god. No, no, no. I thought I had longer. I always knew they would leave me but I was expecting it to last longer than this. It's only been a couple of years, I was hoping with the boys it would last at least 4 or 5 years. But they're already leaving me out. This is how it starts, it's how it begins. They leave me out now and soon enough they'll be completely leaving me out in everything and then they'll realise they don't want me around and then I'll get kicked out of the group and th- When did it get so hard to breathe? Why is my chest so tight? It took me a few seconds to realise I was falling into a panic attack. I've had enough of them to know when I'm having one but I still can't manage to pull myself out alone. Maybe I'm overreacting, maybe they aren't leaving me already. I just need to call them and talk to them and everything will be ok. I quickly pulled out my phone, taking quick, sharp breaths. I found Chan's contact and called him, lowering myself to the floor and leaning back against the dishwasher. It's a precaution, in case stuff happens and I pass out. it wouldn't be the first time. My eyes begun to well up with tears as the phone just continued to ring and ring before it went to voicemail. He didn't pick up. Why wouldn't he pick up? M-Maybe he just didn't see me calling. My breathing hitched and I quickly loosened my shirt collar, trying not to feel as suffocated. It's not uncommon for Chan to not answer her phone, maybe I should call Felix, he always answers his phone. I dialled his number and once again waited, my panic only increasing as it suddenly shut off. It didn't ring through completely, it hung up before it should have. That means Felix hung up on me. He saw I was calling and he chose to hang up instead of talking to me. They really are leaving me already, they don't want me. I don't understand, what did I do? I thought they loved me, that we were family. Why so soon? I tucked my knees up to my chest and let out a sob, unable to think of anything else to do to help myself. Wait, they might not love me, but I know someone who definitely does. I mean, I know he said he was feeling sentimental but he did say he loves me. M-Maybe he might be willing to help me one last time, before they all leave me behind. As a last effort, I called Hyunjin. It rung three times and I almost gave up entirely when there was a small click and I heard soft pants through the speaker.

"H-Hyunjin," I whimpered, hardly able to get the words out.

"Seungmin! Seungmin what's wrong," he asked quickly.

"I c-can't. I can't breathe," I whimpered, letting out another sob. I couldn't stop crying by that time and I was only just able to choke out the words.

"Min, Minnie I'm on my way but I need to try and calm down. I won't be there for another few minutes. I'm here from you Seungmin, I just need you to take some deep breaths for me. Can you do that for me please," he said softly. His gentle voice helped me stop sobbing, now only crying quietly. My breathing was still quite harsh but it wasn't as bad as before.

"That's good, that's great darling. I'm going to be there soon, I promise. I'm not leaving you, I'm gonna be there ok," he said, breathing heavily. It was then that I realised that he was running here, he didn't even wait for Manager-nim to help him with the car, he just ran. And it's like he knew exactly what to say to me, reassuring me he wasn't going to leave me behind, he was going to be there for me. I cuddled my knees tighter to my chest and sniffled.

"I'm almost there Seungmin, I'm just coming up the stairs, hang in there for me bud," he said quickly. I just dropped the phone to the floor and rested my head on my knees, crying into them helplessly.

Hyunjin's POV

I hadn't been dancing for too long in the studio, less than an hour actually when my phone started ringing. I paused the music and jogged over to my phone, taking deep breaths to try and calm my heartrate before I answered, seeing it was from Seungmin.

"Hey Seungminnie, what's up," I asked with a deep breath.

"H-Hyunjin." I froze at the small voice from the younger boy and hearing the pain in it.

"Seungmin! Seungmin what's wrong," I asked him quickly, extremely worried as he continued to cry.

"I c-can't. I can't breathe," he cried. Shit, this is not good. I swear to god if this is because of the other's, I'm going to flip out. I quickly shrugged on my jacket and ran out of the practice room. It's clear that Seungmin is in some sort of distress, even having a panic attack. If he's calling me, it means no one else is there with him to look after him so I need to get there as soon as I can. I don't have time to wait for Manager-nim to come back from his meeting so I just ran straight out of the building, running towards our dorm room which thankfully is only a few minutes away.

"Min, Minnie I'm on my way but I need to try and calm down. I won't be there for another few minutes. I'm here from you Seungmin, I just need you to take some deep breaths for me. Can you do that for me please," I asked him softly, trying to help him calm down a little before he got too worked up. It took a few seconds but I heard his cries and harsh breathing calming down a little.

"That's good, that's great darling. I'm going to be there soon, I promise. I'm not leaving you, I'm gonna be there ok," I said. I don't know if the problem actually is that he's scared of us leaving him or that it's something else entirely but my words seemed to calm him down slightly. I finally got to our dorm building and begun to run to the stairs.

"I'm almost there Seungmin, I'm just coming up the stairs. Hang in there bud," I said quickly as I continued to run up the stairs. My heart dropped as I heard a clatter and then the call dropped. I sprinted quicker and pulled out my keys as I got to the dorm door. I swiftly unlocked it and rushed inside, closing and locking it. I could immediately hear Seungmin's cries and I followed them to kitchen where I found his distraught figure huddled on the ground against the washing machine as he sobbed. I rushed over and quickly sat down next to him, wrapping my arms around his shoulders and squeezing gently.

"It's ok Seungmin, I'm here," I said softly. He hugged me tightly and cried into my shoulder, sobbing sadly.

"Shh, I've got you," I whispered, placing a soft kiss to his temple. His breathing was still slightly off so I moved his head to rest on my chest where he could listen to my heartbeat and ran my fingers through his hair until a few minutes later, he finally calmed down. He was no longer hyperventilating, only sniffling occasionally. I pulled back slightly so I could look at him but didn't remove my hold around him.

"Do you want to talk about what just happened," I asked quietly as I wiped his the tears from his face. He was silent for a few seconds before slowly nodding.

"Are ok with telling me what caused your panic attack. Don't stress yourself, you don't have to answer. Only answer if you want to," I told him gently.

"I al-always knew you guys were, were going to leave me behind. Ev-everyone leaves me b-but I didn't e-expect it so soon," he said sadly.

"What do you mean, we'd never do that," I said softly.

"Y-You're lying, they al-already are," he said as his eyes welled up once again with tears.

"They went t-to dinner as, as a group. And th-they didn't in-vite me. It's already st-starting. You're going to l-leave me behind like everyone else," he cried.

"Oh aegi," I cooed softly, hugging him tightly once again as he cried sadly. I am so going to become a mass murderer tonight. He choked slightly on his tears and clung to me tightly.

"Don't cry Seungmin, no ones leaving you behind, I promise. We're with you for life, don't cry," I whispered gently.

"It was supposed to be a prank but I never thought it was a good idea," I said quietly.

"W-what," he asked in confusion.

"It's your birthday tomorrow so they planned to ignore you for tonight and tomorrow morning before surprising you. I told them not to because I've always thought that you weren't comfortable with people leaving and ignoring you," I told him. He started to sob even harder and held me tighter, burying his face in my chest as he half crawled into my lap.

"I didn't like it, I really didn't like it. It wasn't fun," he sobbed.

"Shh, hush baby. It's ok. I know it wasn't nice and I'll talk to the other's about it," I told him as I rubbed his back softly.

"I'm tired Hyung. C-Can I sleep," he asked quietly.

"Of course. C'mon," I said quickly. I managed to stand up and pulled him with me before gently picking him up and carrying him to our room. I flicked the light off and managed to place him down on his bed before slipping into bed next to him and wrapping my arms around him tightly. He immediately cuddled into my side and rested his head on my chest.

"You get some rest alright, I'll be here when you wake up. I promise I won't go anywhere," I reassured him. He hummed quietly before letting his eyes slip closed and relaxing in my arms. I just stayed like that, rubbing his back gently until he drifted off to sleep in my arms.

Changbin's POV

"Are you sure it was a good idea not picking up when Seungmin Hyung called us, I kind of feel bad. What if he really needed us," Jeongin asked as we were on our way back to the dorm from dinner. I agree with him, I kind of feel uneasy.

"He'll be fine," Chan replied. Everyone else was silent for the whole trip home before we walked into the dorm.

"Oh look, Hyunjin's back already," Jisung said, pointing out the discarded phone on the bench by the kitchen.

"Ugh, do you think he's given away the prank," Minho asked with a groan.

"I dunno. Where are they," Chan asked. No one knew the answer so we all just shrugged.

"I'll go check their room," I said before heading towards it. I opened the door before pausing, seeing the lights off while Seungmin and Hyunjin were cuddled on Seungmin's bed. There goes the ignore Seungmin.

"Channie Hyung," I called out, making Hyunjin turn his head slightly to look at me, Seungmin not even moving. Was he asleep? Chan came up behind me a few seconds later and looked into the room.

"Is Seungmin asleep," Chan asked quickly.

"Yes, he is. So don't wake him," Hyunjin replied. There was a slight edge to his voice which surprised me but I didn't say anything.

"What're you doing Hyunjin? You promised you would go to the studio and not ruin the prank," Chan scolded him.

"Oh fuck of Bang Chan." Holy shit. Did I just hear him right!?

"Hwang Hyunjin, what has gotten into you? I have never seen you be this disrespectful," Chan yelled angrily. I mean I was kind of pissed as well, he can't just swear at someone like that.

"Hyungie." I looked back over to see Seungmin raising his head slightly as Hyunjin sat up with him. Seungmin immediately clung onto Hyunjin's side and the older held him gently, looking a lot more gentle then before. Chan quickly turned the lights back on and went to yell again but I quickly flung out my hand and stopped him. He looked at me in confusion before I jerked my head towards the two huddled up on the bed. He finally turned and noticed what I did. Seungmin had dried tear tracks on his cheeks and his eyes were slightly red and puffy. He had been crying.

"Seungmin aegi, did you cry," Chan asked softly, making Hyunjin scoff.

"Yeah. Your prank was so good it gave him a panic attack," Hyunjin said bitterly. Oh god.

"Y-You had a panic attack," I asked in disbelief. Seungmin curled closer to Hyunjin before nodding slowly, his eyes slightly downcast.

"Minnie, I'm so sorry," Chan said quickly as he walked over and knelt in front of the two youngest in the room.

"W-What happened," I asked quietly.

"Do you wanna tell them," Hyunjin asked Seungmin quietly. He nodded so Chan backed away as Hyunjin and Seungmin stood up, walking out to the loungeroom where everyone else was. Everyone immediately noticed that Seungmin has been crying but they stayed quiet, understanding that Seungmin was going to explain. Hyunjin sat down and Seungmin sat in his lap, allowing the older to wrap his arms around his waist and he whispered something in his ear, making Seungmin nod.

"I'm sor-."

"Don't you dare say sorry Seungmin. You've done absolutely nothing wrong," Hyunjin interrupted quickly.

"But it's stupid," Seungmin whined.

"Being scared isn't stupid," Hyunjin said gently. Seungmin took a deep breath before nodding.

"I, thought you guys were going to leave me behind. I just, everyone in my life always leaves me. I always knew that you guys would eventually leave me but I didn't expect it so soon. It just scared me," Seungmin said quietly. My heart broke at the sadness in his voice and I felt extremely guilty about what we had done.

"What do you mean you know we'll leave you eventually? We'd never leave you behind Seungmin, you're our brother and even if we don't always say it, we love you," Minho spoke up, making Seungmin turn to look at him.

"R-Really," Seungmin asked quietly.

"Yes really. You can't get rid of us that easily," I told him.

"I just, everyone leaves," he said sadly. I remember hearing a story about his family and I understand what he's saying.

"We won't leave you Seungmin. We only wanted to surprise you tomorrow. I promise you're with us for life alright," Chan said before moving over and hugging him and Hyunjin. The rest of us quickly followed and joined the hug.

A/N

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