Hyunjin's POV

I was sitting in the dorm all alone, again at 10pm. It's been over 3 months since I was put on hiatus for something I never did, 3 months since I've seen Stay and 3 months since I've gotten to perform with the rest of my family. It hurts, a lot. Watching them perform on Kingdom without me, like I was never there. I was originally not allowed to even stay at the dorm with the boys but Channie Hyung was not happy about that and a few weeks later JYP said I was allowed to stay in the dorm but if they were ever filming there, I would have to leave so I wouldn't risk getting shown in a clip by accident. The worst thing of all and the part that hurts the most, is I feel like I've been forgotten. Stay are going to forget me because I've been gone for so long but there's nothing I can do about it except sit back and watch myself be forgotten.

I was standing in the bathroom, looking at myself in the mirror as silent tears fell down my face. Why did it have to come to this? Why do people feel the need to try and ruin other's lives? What did I ever do to them to deserve something like this? I slowly sunk to the floor and put my head in my hands as I began to sob. I've been trying to stay strong for so long because I didn't want to worry the boys when they had so much going on already but I can't hold back anymore. All the emotions just came crashing down on me and I felt like I was going to suffocate if I held it in anymore. I leaned back against the wall and continued to sob. Everything hurt, I didn't want this. I just wanted to be with the boys, laughing and singing but instead I'm discarded to the side as an outcast while on hiatus. It was all getting too much, too much for me to handle on my own. I quickly staggered to my feet and stumbled out of the bathroom, all the way over to my bedroom. I collapsed by my bed and quickly grabbed my phone from my desk, dialling the only number in my speed-dial.

"Hey Hyunjin, we're really busy so can I call you back later." The sound of his deep soothing voice brought more tears to my eyes and I let out a choked sob.

"Hyunjinnie? Is everything ok," he asked quickly.

"L-Lix," I cried.

"What's wrong? Are you hurt," he asked me frantically.

"N-no. B-but I n-need someone. Please," I begged as I curled in on myself slightly.

"Ok, just hang in there Jinnie, I'll be home soon ok," he said quickly before the call ended. I stay sitting on the floor in my room, curled up against my bed for a while before I heard the sounds of a door opening and closing and some talking downstairs. I didn't have any strength left in me to move or say anything so I just continued to cry quietly from where I was sitting. Not long after, I heard my bedroom door open and close and my vision was invaded by the two September twins.

"Hey Hyunjinnie, we're here now," Felix said softly as the both helped me stand up and moved me onto my bed before sitting down next to me and hugging me from either side. I wrapped my arms around Felix and rested my head on his shoulder while continuing to cry. He just continued to hold me while Jisung ran his fingers through my hair and played with the strands, something I've grown to enjoy quite a lot since I started to grow my hair out. It wasn't until about 5 minutes later that I finally stopped crying but just stayed clinging to Felix and enjoying Jisung's gentle touches.

"I'm sorry for disrupting your practicing," I said sadly.

"You didn't disrupt anything Jinnie. We were just fooling around and you gave us an opportunity to come home early for once," Jisung replied quickly.

"Are you sure," I asked quietly.

"Of course. You're never disrupting anything," Felix replied firmly.

"Would you be able to tell us what happened though? Why were you crying," Jisung asked softly as he moved from the bed next to me to instead kneel down on the floor in front of me where I could see him. I looked down quickly, ashamed that I had just had a breakdown over nothing when they're both having to stress out about having perfect performances from Kingdom so they can win. I ended up worrying them despite trying so hard not to over the past three months.

"Please tell us Hyunjin. You're our brother and we care about you, we want to help you," Felix said gently.

"It's stupid and doesn't matter," I said shaking my head.

"Nothing's stupid when it comes to your feeling's and it does matter if it's upsetting you. When you're upset, so are we so you can choose not to tell us and stay upset but that means Lixie and I will be sad as well," Jisung said as he pouted. Curse Sungie and his ability to somehow always guilt people into getting his way, I blame Minho Hyung for teaching him how to use his cuteness to his advantage.

"I'm scared," I said quietly. I saw the confusion and worry immediately cross through both of their eyes.

"Scared off what. Is there someone threatening you," Felix asked quickly.

"No, I'm not scared like that. See I told you it was stupid," I said quickly as I shook my head.

"It's not stupid Hyunjin. Why are you scared," Jisung asked as he grabbed my hands and squeezed them gently.

"I'm gonna be forgotten," I whispered, hoping it was quiet enough for them to not here but judging from the confusion in their eyes, it wasn't.

"What do you mean," Felix asked me.

"It's been 3 months Lix, 3 months and it still doesn't look like I'll be coming off hiatus any time soon. Stay's going to forget me," I said, sniffling as tears started to fall down my face again. I saw both of their eyes softened and they seemed to do some weird twin eye talking thing which I will never understand.

"Let's lie down Jinnie," Jisung said as Felix got up and left the room. I was confused but allowed Jisung to guide me onto the bed properly and slip under the covers, snuggling up next to him. Not long after, Felix came back with his laptop and got comfortable in bed on my other side.

"What's that for," I asked him in confusion.

"This is to help you see that there is NO WAY that Stay will every forget you, no matter how long of a break you have," Felix said as he started the laptop and sat it in his lap. He went on to Instagram and searched the hashtag #WemissyouHyunjin and the screen was immediately filled with tons of different comments.

"Let's read through these for a bit ok," Jisung said as he leaned closer and placed his head on my shoulder to get a better look at the screen.

"This first comment is from Haileybahrman42 and she says 'I don't get why Hyunjin isn't back yet, he doesn't deserve what is happening to him and I wait for my favourite drama llama to be back'. That doesn't sound like she's forgetting you does it," Felix asked gently. I shook my head as I perked up at those words.

"Is there more," I asked quickly, making Jisung chuckle.

"Yeah. See this comment here from Hyunjiismybias883, they say that 'I miss Hyunjin so much as he was always my inspiration and gave me good laugh. I can't wait until JYP brings him back'. There's another from lucasjacbossss which says 'JYP better bring back everyone's favourite blonde or I'll be throwing hands'," Jisung said with a chuckle.

"This one is funny, leeknowbiaswrecker88 says 'I really hope that Hyunjin didn't take it too far with Lee Know and was cooked at 180 degrees for 20 minutes in the deep fryer'," Felix said, causing all three of us to burst into laughter.

"Do they really worry that Minho will fry me. I mean he's kidding, isn't he," I asked slowly as my eyes went wide.

"I honestly don't know when it comes to him to be honest," Jisung said honestly.

"Is there anything else," I asked timidly, wanting to hear more of those comments as they were making me feel all warm inside.

"Yeah. There's this one saying 'Hyunjin we all miss you but don't worry we'll never forget you. Take your time, we'll be waiting'," Felix said with a small smile. I felt my eyes well up slightly at that comment but I held back the tears.

"Can I show you something else that I found the other day," Jisung asked me suddenly.

"Uh, sure," I said with a shrug. He grabbed the laptop from Felix's laptop and went into YouTube before searching up, wait what? He searched up 'Hyunjin Come Back Home.' I watched in surprise and confusion when a video popped up and he clicked on it.

"Just listen to this ok. No one's forgetting you any time soon," he said before he pressed play. I listened quietly as soft music began to play and a girl's voice started to sing. As I listened to the song and took in the lyrics, understanding pretty well even though it was in English, the tears fell again. Someone made a song about me, about missing me and wanting me to come back and that I won't be forgotten. It was one of the nicest things someone's ever done for me and it made me happy, happy enough to cry.

Felix's POV

When Hyunjin called me, I was originally going to just say I'll call him later and get back to work but after hearing him sob, I knew he was in trouble. Jisung was the only one with me at the time so we both packed up and left quickly to get back to the dorm. Hyunjin has been having a really hard time these past few months after being put on hiatus and he's kept a strong front the whole time but now I'm worried that he might have finally reached his breaking point. It was quiet when we got home but we knew better and we ran up to his room to find him on the floor crying next to his bed. It broke my heart to see someone as strong as him in such a vulnerable state. Jisung and I were quick to try and console him.

"Hey Hyunjinnie, we're here now," I said gently as Jisung and I grabbed his arms, pulling him up and sitting him down on the bed. We both hugged him and he wrapped his arms around me and placed his head on my shoulder. He cried for another 5 minutes as Jisung played with his hair and I geld him gently before he finally quietened down.

"I'm sorry for disrupting your practicing." Trust Hyunjin to apologize for something out of his control.

"You didn't disrupt anything Jinnie. We were just fooling around and you gave us an opportunity to come home early for once," Jisung replied quickly.

"Are you sure," he asked.

"Of course. You're never disrupting anything," I replied firmly to get the point across.

"Would you be able to tell us what happened though? Why were you crying," Jisung asked softly as he moved from next to Hyunjin to kneel down in front of him instead. Hyunjin looked down at his words and seemed like he wasn't going to answer.

"Please tell us Hyunjin. You're our brother and we care about you, we want to help you," I said gently.

"It's stupid and doesn't matter," he said shaking my head.

"Nothing's stupid when it comes to your feeling's and it does matter if it's upsetting you. When you're upset, so are we so you can choose not to tell us and stay upset but that means Lixie and I will be sad as well," Jisung said with a pout. For once I'm glad that Minho Hyung taught him how to be a cute brat to get what he wants.

"I'm scared," Hyunjin replied and my eyes immediately went wide in worry. What's he scared of?

"Scared off what. Is there someone threatening you," I asked nervously.

"No, I'm not scared like that. See I told you it was stupid," he said shaking his head quickly.

"It's not stupid Hyunjin. Why are you scared," Jisung said grabbing his hands.

"I'm gonna be forgotten," he said very quietly but I managed to hear him. I was confused, forgotten?

"What do you mean," I asked him.

"It's been 3 months Lix, 3 months and it still doesn't look like I'll be coming off hiatus any time soon. Stay's going to forget me," he said as he sniffled and tears started falling again. Oh, I get it now. I looked into Jisung's eyes and wordlessly told him to lie down with Hyunjin. We have a special way of communicating that we will never disclose to anyone, it's our special form of communication.

"Let's lie down Jinnie," Jisung said as I quickly left the room. I went into my room and grabbed my laptop before going back to Hyunjin's room where he and Jisung were cuddled up in bed. I went over and slipped under the covers with them, cuddling up to Hyunjin's side.

"What's that for," Hyunjin asked in confusion.

"This is to help you see that there is NO WAY that Stay will every forget you, no matter how long of a break you have," I said, starting my laptop and putting it in my lap. I went onto Instagram and quickly searched up the hashtag I was looking for.

"Let's read through this a bit ok," Jisung said.

"This first comment is from Haileybahrman42 and she says 'I don't get why Hyunjin isn't back yet, he doesn't deserve what is happening to him and I wait for my favourite drama llama to be back'. That doesn't sound like she's forgetting you does it," I asked him gently. He should his head and I was happy to see he seemed slightly happier than before which means my plan is working.

"Is there more," he asked quickly as Jisung chuckled.

"Yeah. See this comment here from Hyunjiismybias883, they say that 'I miss Hyunjin so much as he was always my inspiration and gave me good laugh. I can't wait until JYP brings him back'. There's another from lucasjacbossss which says 'JYP better bring back everyone's favourite blonde or I'll be throwing hands'," Jisung said with another chuckle.

"This one is funny, leeknowbiaswrecker88 says 'I really hope that Hyunjin didn't take it too far with Lee Know and was cooked at 180 degrees for 20 minutes in the deep fryer'," I said as we all burst out laughing. Minho is an odd but funny person.

"Do they really worry that Minho will fry me. I mean he's kidding, isn't he," Hyunjin said slowly as his eyes went wide as if he just realised how serious Minho might be. To be honest I also worry how serious the second eldest is.

"I honestly don't know when it comes to him to be honest," Jisung said honestly.

"Is there anything else," Hyunjin asked quietly and I found myself smiling fondly at him.

"Yeah. There's this on saying 'Hyunjin we all miss you but don't worry we'll never forget you. Take your time, we'll be waiting'," I said, reading another comment.

"Can I show you something else that I found the other day," Jisung asked suddenly. I didn't know what he was going to do but I trust that it's going to help.

"Uh, sure," Hyunjin said as I handed the laptop to Sungie. Jisung searched something up before he clicked on a video and music began to play. I immediately recognized the song, it's one that I've been listening to everyday since I first found it. A fan made it for him and it's really sweet.

"Just listen to this ok. No one's forgetting you any time soon," Jisung said as he pressed play. Once the song was finished I turned to Hyunjin crying.

"I hope those are happy tears and not sad one's," I said nervously as I ran my finger through his hair.

"Yeah, it's happy tears. Someone actually made a song about me," he said with a small smile.

"I listen to it everday," I said honestly. His eyes went wide and he froze which worried me but then he burst out into sobs and that worried me even more.

"Hyunjin. Jinnie, I didn't mean to upset you," I said biting my lip nervously.

"N-No I'm not upset. Just, thank you," he said as he turned around and climbed onto my lap, hugging me tightly.

"It's ok, we're always here for you Hyunjin," I said softly as Jisung shuffled over and cuddled up with us.

"I miss you guys you know," Hyunjin said sadly.

"I know. I'm so sorry that you're going through all of this, you don't deserve this. We're here for you whenever you need us alright," I told him.

"I know and thank you for dropping everything and coming to help me," he said with a small smile before he snuggled his head into my shoulder.

"Do you want us to stay here tonight," Jisung asked him.

"Yes please. It just feels nice when you guys are here with me," he replied with a nod. Jisung got up and turned the lights off before hopping back into bed and we rearranged ourselves so we were lying down and cuddling Hyunjin who was in between us. He wrapped and arm around each of us and sighed in content.

"No one will ever forget you Hyunjin, don't ever think that," I said quietly.

"Yeah, you're far too much of an iconic meme for anyone to ever forget about," Jisung joked, earning a whack from Hyunjin.

"Thanks guys," he whispered.

"No problem. I love you Hyunjinnie," Jisung said happily.

"I love you too. More than him," I said quickly.

"Nuh uh, I love him more," Jisung said with a pout.

"I already said that I loved him more," I said with a shrug.

"But I said I loved him first," Jisung whined, making Hyunjin chuckle, exactly what I wanted.

"I love both of you. So much," he said, pulling us closer so we were both basically half laying on him. I sighed happily and allowed myself to relax completely in his arms. He's been going through a lot lately, but we're here for him and we'll do anything to make sure he's happy. Hyunjin is our amazing drama llama who always puts us first and looks after us which often leaves him alone to deal with stuff but whenever he's upset and needs us, we'll be there to help bring him back up!

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