Mark's POV

I am so screwed. I have a feeling this is not going to end well but since there's a chance that I should be fine, why not just try and do it anyway. Ok, I know I'm probably lying to myself and I just don't want to admit to everyone that I have a fear of heights. I mean I've had it for ages, I've just never told the rest of NCT, not even Taeyong about it because I'm embarrassed. Right now, we're getting prepared to go into an elevator that lifts us very, very, very, very, very high up onto a platform so we can go bungee jumping for a video for NCTzens. As we waited for the platform to be lowered and talked amongst each other, I contemplated telling everyone about it but backed out at the last second. I don't want to ruin this for everyone else.

"Alright boys, let's get into the elevator," Taeyong said. We all nodded and the 10 of us all managed to squeeze into the elevator. I ended up stuck between Taeyong and the wall. It was a bit tight and uncomfortable but Taeyong seemed to notice as he wrapped his arms around me and moved so he was the one pressed against the wall and I was pressed against his chest instead. I took the chance to snuggle up to the leader and try to get as much comfort as I could before I had to face my fear.

"You ok, you're shaking slightly," Taeyong whispered gently, making me look up into his concerned eyes.

"Y-Yeah, I'm fine. It's just a little cold," I lied. At least that's believable though, as I'm not wearing a jacket. He pulled me closer to him before letting go as the doors open. We all walked out of the elevator and my breath caught in my throat. I can do this, all I need to do is not look down and think of happy things. I jumped in surprise when I felt something being gently placed on my shoulder and I turned to see Taeyong giving me a small smile, looking different from before. It took me a few seconds to realise he had taken off his jacket and placed it over my shoulders.

"Hyung," I said in surprise.

"You're still shivering. Just put it on, it'll make me feel better," he said before walking off towards Yuta. I smiled to myself and quickly shrugged the jacket on.

"Alright everyone, come here so we can explain what is going to happen," Manager told us. We all walked over to him and my breathing picked up as I got closer to the edge. I tried to take some deep breaths but that didn't help at all.

"There's two ropes so you'll go down int groups of two's so partner up while the instructors get everything set up," Manager-nim said. Everyone started partnering up but I could hardly hear anything. My hands were shaking and my breathing was practically non-existent. I thought I had it under control, that I could survive this but once I got closer to the edge, everything went downhill. I can't do it.

"I-I c-can't do it," I whimpered quietly as I backed up quickly. I bumped into someone and froze, gasping for air.

"Mark? Mark what's wrong, you don't sound too good," I heard Haechan say quickly as his hands snaked around my waist.

"I-I can't," I sobbed as my whole body began to shake. We were too high, way too high. I found myself picturing myself falling off the edge and falling to the ground. Judging from how high it looked from the ground, it's gonna be even higher from up here.

"Mark? Hyung's, something is wrong with Mark," Haechan called out. My knees felt weak and they gave out beneath me as the arms around me tightened and I was lowered to the ground. I gasped and choked for air, sobs leaving my lips as I braced myself up off the ground with one arm and used the other to clutch at my chest.

"Mark, Markie what's wrong? Can you tell me what's wrong," I recognized my English speaking Hyung as I felt a gently hand placed on my shoulder. I flinched away from the contact and whined, curling into myself as my arm gave out and I collapsed to the floor.

"Mark, you need to breath baby, you need to breathe." I tried so hard to listen to his words but whenever I tried, I would start thinking about how high we were and it would start getting harder. I tried to call his name, to ask for some comfort. I know I flinched away mere moments ago but that was because I was surprised, I need someone to hold me right now, to talk to me and tell me I'd be ok but I can't get the words out. Instead I continued to struggle to breathe, my vision growing dark, my body feeling weak and my eyes gently slipping closed.

"MARK! MARKIE! Open your eyes, baby please open your eyes." I felt my head being lifted and placed into a lap as fingers calmly ran through my hair, another set of hands rubbing gentle circles into the side of my hips.

"Mark, come on baby, please." It was hearing the crack in my Hyungs voice that gave me the last wave of strength to open my eyes slightly and look up at Johnny who had wide worried eyes.

"I-I'm o-k," I whispered before my eyes slipped close once again and I finally lost consciousness.

Johnny's POV

"There's two ropes so you'll go down int groups of two's so partner up while the instructors get everything set up." I grinned at Yuta and we high fived each other in excitement.

"We're gonna be the best duo of this video," he chuckled and I nodded.

"Mark? Mark what's wrong, you don't sound too good." I turned my head at the sound of Haechan's confused voice and I saw him with an arm around Mark's waist.

"I-I can't," Mark cried and I tensed. What's wrong with him.

"Mark? Hyung's, something is wrong with Mark," Haechan called out, gaining the attention from everyone. I quickly started making my way to them, gasping and rushing over as Marks legs gave out and Haechan quickly caught him before lowering him down to the floor. His breathing was loud and ragged and he was sobbing while holding himself up and holding his chest.

"Mark, Markie what's wrong? Can you tell me what's wrong," I asked quickly as I knelt down next to him, converting to English quickly. I placed a hand on his shoulder to try and comfort him but he flinched away with a whine so I immediately retracted it. The arm that was holding him up gave out and he crashed the rest of the way to the floor before curling in on himself. His breathing was really bad and I was starting to get worried. I could see Taeyong and Yuta stopping the other's from coming any closer, knowing it was probably best not to crowd him and I was thankful for that.

"Mark, you need to breath baby, you need to breathe," I said quickly as I bit my lip. I desperately wanted to grab him and pull him into my arms but from the way he flinched earlier, it probably isn't a good idea. It hurt, to see my usually happy and smiling Dongsaeng in so much pain and I don't even know why he's having a panic attack. What triggered it? I felt tears forming in my own eyes as I saw how pale his face was and how small his breaths were. My eyes went wide as I saw his eyes slowly slip closed.

"MARK! MARKIE! Open your eyes, baby please open your eyes," I said quickly. Stuff it! I moved forwards and quickly pulled Mark's head into my lap, running my hands through his hair in hopes of soothing him as best as I could. Haechan moved forwards and gently started rubbing circles into Mark's hips gently.

"Mark, come on baby, please," I said sadly, my voice cracking at the end as I tear slipped out and rolled down my face. I held my breath as his eyes slowly blinked open but it didn't soothe my worries at all. He looked exhausted, as if he had no energy left at all.

"I-I'm o-k," he said, so softly I almost didn't hear him before his eyes fell closed yet again and he went limp in his hold. My breath caught in my throat as I gently shook his shoulder but his eyes remained closed. I gently leaned down and put my head by his mouth, hearing the slow and steady breaths escaping his lips. At least there's one good thing from him passing out, maybe it's a good thing because now he's not in anymore pain.

"Tae," I said, turning my head to look at him. He immediately rushed forwards and knelt beside us as everyone else stayed back, including the staff.

"He passed out," Taeyong asked softly as he ran a hand through Mark's hair.

"Yeah, but he seems fine now. Him passing out was probably good because he's breathing fine," I said with a sigh.

"I don't get it, why did he have a panic attack," Taeyong said with a sigh as he shook his head.

"I don't know either. Channie, do you have any idea," I asked the Maknae as he was sitting there with his head rested on his knee as he held Mark's hand.

"I dunno. After they explained what we'd be doing, he froze and then walked backwards straight into me. He kept saying he can't do it and then he just fell into a panic attack," Haechan replied.

"Oh my god, I'm such an idiot," Taeyong groaned.

"Hyungnim, Mark needs to be taken back down to the ground. Can Haechan and Johnny take him," Taeyong asked. True, we should probably get him down cos he can't bungee jump while unconscious.

"You aren't an idiot Yongie Hyung," Haechan said with a frown.

"Yes I am. Mark started shaking in the elevator and when I asked, he just said he was cold so I ended up giving him my jacket. With what just happened added to the mix, I'm pretty sure I know what the problem is," Taeyong said shaking his head slowly.

"Care to share what it might be," I asked, raising an eyebrow.

"He's scared of heights, now go get him back to the ground before he wakes up and get's scared again. I'll talk to the other's," he said before patting my back and getting up, walking over to the other's to talk to them. Ok, that actually makes a lot of sense.

"You coming Haechannie," I asked softly. Haechan nodded and helped me lift Mark into my arms and I carried him bridle style to the elevator. We were silent the whole elevator trip down, Haechan just rubbing Mark's shoulder gently. It wasn't really doing anything for Mark but I could tell it was helping the Maknae stay calm so I didn't say anything. When the doors opened, I carried Mark over to the a bench and lay him down with his head in my lap. The security saw us but must've been told about the situation as they stayed back.

"Channie, can you grab a bottle of water from over there," I asked, pointing to the table of food and drinks. He nodded and moved quickly, coming back a few seconds later. We stayed quiet for a few minutes as we waited for Mark to wake up.

"H-Hyungie." I quickly looked down and ran my hand through Markie's hair.

"I'm here baby," I said gently, switching to English yet again as I gently lifted him up so he was sitting and resting his back against me.

"Here Mark," Haechan said gently as he uncapped the bottle and held it up to Mark's mouth. Mark opened his mouth and Haechan gently poured water into it for him. Once he was done, he held a thumbs up to Haechan who pulled the bottle away quickly.

"H-How did we get here," Mark asked, using Korean which gave me the go ahead to do the same as well.

"You passed out so I carried you down with Haechan," I told him gently. I could see the gears turning in his head and he looked down sadly. I knew he was feeling embarrassed so I stepped in quickly.

"Hey, it's ok Mark. We don't mind alright. As long as you're ok now, no one cares," I told him gently as I gave him a soft back hug. I heard a sniffle and both Haechan and I's eyes widened.

"Hey, Markie what's wrong," Haechan asked quickly as he cupped the slightly older's face and lifted his head to face him.

"I-I'm sorry," Mark sobbed sadly. I quickly tightened my hold around his waist and rested my head on his shoulder.

"You don't have anything to be sorry about Markie. You didn't do anything wrong," I said softly.

"B-But I didn't t-tell anyone," he said shaking his head. Even though he didn't say anything, I knew what he was talking about.

"That's ok, you have your reasons for not telling us and that's fine Markie," I told him. He turned slightly in my grasp and looked up at me with tear filled eyes.

"You know," he sniffled.

"Yongie figured it out," I said softly.

"But there's nothing wrong with it Mark. Everyone has their fears," Haechan said quickly.

"Yeah but not everyone has a phobia like I do. I mean I just passed out over being a little high off the ground. I'm such a baby," he groaned.

"You do realise that Jisung once passed out when he had a panic attack because he thought everyone had left him," Haechan said. That got my attention, I never knew about this.

"Well, yeah but that's di-."

"How," Haechan asked, raising a challenging eyebrow and making Mark pause.

Mark's POV

"H-Hyungie," I said gently as I blinked my eyes open and saw Johnny running his fingers through my hair.

"I'm here baby," he said gently as he lifted me up and propped my back up against his side.

"Here Mark." I looked up to see Haechan holding a bottle of water out to me. He brought it to my mouth and helped me drink until I let him know I was good. I looked around and realised that I was no long on the platform, instead I was safe back down on the ground. It was reassuring, but confusing.

"H-How did we get here," I asked slowly.

"You passed out so I carried you down with Haechan," Johnny said. Great, I panicked and passed out, causing them to have to worry about me. This is so embarrassing. I looked down as tears welled up in my eyes at the thought of so much embarrassment.

"Hey, it's ok Mark. We don't mind alright. As long as you're ok now, no one cares," Johnny said softly as he hugged me from behind. The tears started to fall and I tried to stay quiet but accidentally let out a sniffle.

"Hey, Markie what's wrong," Haechan asked quickly as he cupped my face and lifted my head, making me look into his gentle eyes.

"I-I'm sorry," I sobbed, my emotions getting the better of me. Johnny squeezed me tighter and I felt him place his head on my shoulder.

"You don't have anything to be sorry about Markie. You didn't do anything wrong," Johnny said quickly.

"B-But I didn't t-tell anyone," I said shaking his head. They probably have no idea what I'm talking about right now.

"That's ok, you have your reasons for not telling us and that's fine Markie," Johnny said. I froze when I registered what he said and I turned to look at him quickly.

"You know," I asked with a sniffle.

"Yongie figured it out," Johnny told me. Of course he did, the leader always knows everything.

"But there's nothing wrong with it Mark. Everyone has their fears," Haechan said quickly. It's so much more then just a small fear like he think. I passed out for god's sake.

"Yeah but not everyone has a phobia like I do. I mean I just passed out over being a little high off the ground. I'm such a baby," I groaned.

"You do realise that Jisung once passed out when he had a panic attack because he thought everyone had left him," Haechan said with a raised eyebrow. Now that's just sneaky, using the Maknae against me.

"Well, yeah but that's di-."

"How," Haechan asked cutting me off as he raised an eyebrow up at me.

"I, well, um," I broke off as he had me cornered, I couldn't say anything without undermining Jisung's fear or insulting him.

"I hate you," I said with a pout, making him grin in triumph. Everything was quiet after that for a little bit before I spoke up again.

"I'm sorry for not telling you guys," I said with a sigh as I slipped my hand into Haechan's. He gave me a soft smile and squeezed gently.

"Don't be, it's ok," Haechan said firmly.

"We love you, you know that right," Johnny said gently.

"Yeah I know and I love you guys too," I said with a small smile, already feeling much better.

"Shall we go watch our Hyungs and Dongsaengs scream like little girls," Haechan asked with a mischievous grin.

"That, I can definitely do," I giggled as Johnny laughed.

This is much better, I dunno what I was even worried about!

A/N

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