Sunghoon's POV

Most people know I used to be a figure skater for over 10 years and for those who don't, well, I used to be a figure skater. There were a lot of demands both physically and mentally that were involved in order to be a figure skater if you wanted to succeed. One of which is constantly having to watch your weight and never gain any extra, just a couple of kilo's could completely change how you're performing or how you look. Even now I still watch my weight and make sure I don't gain anything. I don't know why, I just can't stop and when I noticed that I've gained weight, I freak out and hurriedly diet and workout until all of that weight is gone. I looked it up online and apparently there's a name for something like that, Obesophobia. Obesophobia is the fear of gaining weight, which I guess is what I have. I can't help it, it's just who I am now I guess...

"Hyungie, can you please hurry up. I need to pee," Ni-ki whined as he pounded on the bathroom door.

"I'm almost done," I said, frantically trying to pack up with scale without making too much noise. I quickly shoved it under the sink and closed the cupboard before opening the door. Ni-ki rushed past me and shoved me out, slamming the door with a thanks Hyung. I chuckled and walked into my shared room with Jake to find him doing just finishing getting changed.

"Hey Sung, you ready for practice," he asked me.

"Yup, I'm good to go," I said giving him a quick thumbs up.

"Alright well go eat, I'll meet you downstairs," he said. I nodded and went downstairs, going into the kitchen to get some breakfast.

Ni-ki's POV (Sorry for the early POV change but I feel like this is needed for the fic)

I grabbed Sunghoon Hyung and shoved him out of the bathroom as soon as he opened the door. I slammed it behind me, yelling a quick thanks and rushed to the toilet. Once I was finished, I got up and washed my hands before my knee bumped something. I looked down and noticed that the door to the cupboard was open. I tried to push it closed but it seemed like it was caught on something. I opened it completely and out slipped a rectangular thin box. I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion and picked up the surprisingly heavy box. When I turned it over to try and see what it was, my eyes went wide as I saw it was a scale. Why would there be a scale? We all know we should never check our weight as it can be very bad for an idols mental health if we're constantly checking our weight. I thought back to the rushed movements and small noises I heard before Sunghoon came out. Is he weighing himself again? When we first met each other back at the start of I-Lander, Sunghoon Hyung used to always weigh himself but we all thought he had stopped when we became a team and started looking after each other. I sighed sadly and put the scale away properly, closing the cupboard door behind. This isn't something a 15 year old can handle, especially because Sunghoon Hyung is a lot older than me. I left the bathroom and walked over to Jungwon and Jay's room. I know Jungwon is only a year older than me but he's the leader and needs to hear this. I opened the door slowly and poked my head inside, thankful to see that Jay wasn't in there.

"Hyung, can you come with me for a second," I asked him. He looked up at me when I called his name.

"Sure, what's up Ni-ki," he asked as he walked over.

"I need to talk to you and Jake Hyung about something," I said. He nodded and followed me over to Jake and Sunghoon's room. I knocked on the door and Jake opened it poking his head out.

"Oh, hey Ni-ki, Jungwon, what's up," he asked.

"Is Sunghoon in there," I asked him.

"No, he went downstairs if you want him," he replied.

"No, I need to talk to you two. It's about Sunghoon Hyung," I said quickly. He frowned before ushering the two of us inside and closing the door behind us, locking it as well. I walked over and sat down on the edge of Jake's bed, fiddling with my fingers and looking down.

"Do you wanna tell us why you brought us here." I looked up at Jake's words and saw my two Hyung sitting across from me on Sunghoon's bed.

"I think Sunghoon Hyung is weighing himself again." They both turned serious at my words.

"What do you mean," Jungwon asked quickly.

"I went to the bathroom after him and the scale was hanging out of the cupboard," I said with a sigh.

"Thank you for telling us, I'll look into it," Jake said. I nodded and went to get out before pausing and looking down when I felt tears well up in my eyes for some reason.

"Ni-ki. Hey Riki you ok." I felt fingers on my chin and I lifted my head up to come face to face with a concerned looking Jake.

"Hey, it's ok. I'll look after him, I promise," he said, sitting next to me and pulled me in for a quick hug.

"But Hyung you know what it was like when he was a figure skater, what if he's still worried about his weight," I asked nervously, blinking away the tears.

"Then I'll help him out. Why don't you go downstairs and have some breakfast ok," he said. I nodded and left the room, leaving him and Jungwon to talk. I went downstairs and found Heesung, Sunoo and Jay all eating their breakfast. I wasn't very hungry so I walked over to Sunghoon and pulled his chair out a little, flinging a leg over his legs and sitting down in his lap so I was basically straddling him and wrapping my arms around his waist, resting my head on my shoulder.

"Uh, hi to you too Ni-ki," he said in surprise. I just sighed and snuggled closer to him.

"Um, I'm in the middle of eating Ni-ki," he said slowly.

"You can still eat," I mumbled. I heard him chuckle and move he started chewing, obviously going back to eating.

"I love you Hyung," I whispered so only he could here.

"Random, but I love you too," he whispered back.

Sunghoon's POV

I was surprised when Ni-ki pulled my chair back and sat on my lap cuddling up to me. Ni-ki isn't much of a skinship person usually so I was surprised to see everyone else looking confused.

"Uh, hi to you too Ni-ki," I said in surprise. I heard him sigh and he snuggled closer to me if that was even possible. I sent a helpless look to Sunoo who was laughing quietly into his hand.

"Um, I'm in the middle of eating Ni-ki," I said slowly.

"You can still eat," he mumbled. I chuckled and grabbed my spoon, spooning some more cereal into my mouth. I almost dropped my spoon in surprise when I heard Ni-ki whisper in my ear.

"I love you Hyung," he whispered. My heart swelled at his words and smiled brightly.

"Random but I love you too," I whispered back. I put my spoon down and leaned back rubbing his back gently with one hand and holding him steady with the other. I couldn't really put my finger on it but I could tell something was bothering the Maknae and even if he doesn't tell me, I want to comfort him a little.

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"Come on Sunghoon, it'll be fun," Heeseung whined with a pout. Sometimes I wonder how this boy is the eldest in the group.

"I'm tired Hyung, I just want to get some rest. Plus I've already eaten a lot today," I said with a shrug.

"I'm not very hungry today as well, I'm gonna head back with Sunghoon," Jake said, wrapping his arm around my shoulder. I grinned and gave him a half hug back.

"Fine. Just don't blow up the house," Heeseung said.

"Um, Hyung we aren't you," Jake said, ducking as Heeseung went to whack him.

"Aish. Just go away, no one wants you here," he said with a frown. We chuckled but the two of us left the building and went into one of the company cars, telling them to drop us off at the dorms.

"What're you thinking about doing," Jake asked me as he closed the front door behind us.

"Uh, I'm not sure," I said with a shrug.

"Alright, well I'll be the room if you need me," he said with a shrug before walking away. I sighed before going into the kitchen. Truthfully, I was hungry I just couldn't be bothered going out to eat. I grabbed a pack of chips and began to eat them, telling myself that I was just going to have a few. Before I knew it though, I had eaten the whole bag. I stood in the middle of kitchen in shock, did I really just do that? How many calories were in that? I quickly threw the empty bag in the bin and bolted to the bathroom, closing the door. I quickly pulled the scale out and set it up, my heart pounding in my chest. I stepped on and took a deep breath before looking down at the numbers. My heart stopped! I gained an extra Kg. No way. A whole Kg!? I felt my breathing pick up and tears welled up in my eyes, some slipping down my face. The door suddenly swung open and I was suddenly being picked up off the scale and rushed out of the room. I was brought into my room and placed on my bed, looking up to see the concerned face of Jake standing above me.

"Hey, hey don't cry," he said gently, pulling me into a hug. I didn't want to cry, I didn't want anyone knowing that I still weigh myself because I promised them that I had stopped but I was too upset to care. I began to sob and I quickly clutched onto the fabric of Jake's shirt.

"You need to breathe for me Sungie. Can you do that," he asked me quickly. I shook my head and let out another sob as I struggled to take a breath. All I could think about was that extra Kg I had gained and what I would have to do to drop it.

"Look at me Sunghoon, look at me," he said, grabbing my chin softly so I was looking up at him.

"Breathe in."

"And breathe out."

"Follow my breaths, come on." I followed along with Jake's breathing, slowly finding it easier and easier to follow until I was breathing properly. I was still crying but not as loudly.

"It doesn't matter Sunghoon. It's just a stupid number," Jake said suddenly. I looked up at him, sniffling slightly and saw a determined look in his eyes.

"It d-does matter Jake. You just don't understand. I need to keep myself at an exact weight and no higher, I can't gain weight," I said sadly.

"Why do you think you can't gain weight," he asked me softly as he grabbed my hand in his.

"Because I can't. If I gain weight, I'll be fat. Everyone says you can't gain weight," I said in frustration.

"Am I fat," he asked, surprising me.

"What? No Jake you're perfect," I said shaking my head quickly.

"Come with me then," he said pulling me up. I let him drag me all the way over to the bathroom in confusion. What is he doing? To my surprise he stepped onto the scale and pressed the power button.

"Look at my weight. Is it more or less than yours," he asked me. I looked at the number on the scale and blinked in surprise when I noticed it was 5KG more than mine. But how? Jake is in great shape and looks good, how could he weigh more than me.

"There you go. Now look at me and tell me the truth, tell me I'm fat," he said firmly.

"What but-."

"No, tell me I'm fat Sunghoon," he interrupted.

"But you aren't Jake. You aren't fat," I said quickly.

"What do you mean I'm not fat? I'm above the weight limit aren't I? That means I'm fat right, that's what you just said," he shrugged.

"No Jake. You aren't fat, I was wrong," I said shaking my head.

"Then why are you doing this to yourself," he asked and I was surprised to find that his eyes were watering.

"I love you Sunghoon, and so do the rest of the guys. You're our brother. You look perfect and your weight is perfect, gaining a few kilo's isn't going to change that, if anything it will help you be healthier. So why're you doing this to yourself, stressing yourself," he asked sadly. I looked to the floor so I wouldn't have to look in his eyes because I knew I would crack.

"Ni-ki came to me this morning. Poor kid almost burst into tears when he told us how he found the scale in the bathroom and thought that you were weighing yourself again." I looked up at his words. Ni-ki found out? Is that why he was so upset this morning?

"We don't want you beating yourself up over gaining a few kilo's. It was bad enough during I-Land when we didn't know you well and doing it, now we do know you and we love you so much. We only want what's best for you," he said, placing his hands gently on either side of my waist.

"I can't stop," I admitted.

"Why not," he asked quietly.

"I just can't. I try to and I want to but I can't. I went half my life having to watch my weight and getting stressed out when I gain weight. It's not easy to just switch it off, it's engrained in my brain Jake," I said shaking my head sadly.

"I know, I know it would be hard but you've got 6 brother's to help you get through it. It won't be easy but we can help you," he said honestly.

"How," I asked slowly, intrigued as to how they could help me.

"Well we can start off by getting rid of this," he said, holding up the scale. I bit my lip nervously and followed him as he walked outside and threw the scale in the bin.

"Jake," I whined, going to grab it out but he grabbed my hand and pulled me to his chest, running his fingers through my hair.

"Leave it Sungie, you don't need it. I'm not going to stop you but I would love it if you could leave it," he whispered. He placed a small kiss to my forehead before letting me go and walking back to the door, standing in the doorway. I walked over to the bin and looked inside, immediately seeing the scale that was at the bottom it. I desperately wanted to get it back out but then I remembered what Jake said earlier. Ni-ki found out and was almost crying, not to mention Jake almost cried. And he's right, they do love me. I know they love me, Ni-ki even told me earlier today which was a surprise because he doesn't usually say that to us. I looked over at Jake who waiting patiently in the doorway before looking back to the scale, immediately knowing my decision. I reached forwards and grabbed the handle of the bin, taking a deep breath before closing the lid. I walked back up the path and over to Jake who was grinning like a Cheshire cat.

"I don't know why you're so happy, I didn't even do anything," I said raising an eyebrow up at him.

"Are you kidding me? You did great, I'm so proud of you," he said, pulling me in for a big hug. I blushed in embarrassment but hugged him back, enjoying the warmth of his hold and temporarily forgetting about anything to do with weight.

"Now, I have two important questions," he said as he pulled away.

"First of all, does that mean you're willing to let us try and help you," he asked me.

"Uh, yeah. I'd like that," I said nervously.

"Great. Now do you want to talk to everyone when they get home or do you want me to," he asked.

"Um, is it ok if you talk to them? I don't think I have it in me to explain again without breaking down," I said honestly.

"Of course. You seem tired, why don't you go to bed, I'll talk to the other's when they get back alright," he said, giving me a small smile. I nodded and went up to my room, flopping into bed and slipping under the covers. I closed my eyes and drifted off to sleep quite quickly, I guess I really was tired.

~~~~~

I felt movement and I blinked my eyes open slowly, surprised when I felt and arm wrap around my waist, a body snuggle up to my back and a chin rest in the crook of my neck. I could immediately recognize the smell of the Maknae's body wash.

"Hey Ni-ki, you ok," I asked quietly, turning around so I could face the younger. It was dark but I could still see the tear tracks running down his face. I sat up quickly, worried about the Maknae but he quickly tugged me back down.

"I'm fine Hyung," he said with a small chuckle.

"Who hurt you? I will personally beat them up! No one hurts the Maknae," I said, making him smile brightly.

"I'm ok, really. It's just, Jake told us about earlier," he said quietly. I froze. My heartrate increased and I found myself worrying about what Ni-ki would say. Would he hate me?

"We're in this together ok Hyung? If you ever start feeling bad about yourself, you can come talk to me," he said. My heart swelled and I felt tears well up in my eyes, but this time they were happy tears and not sad tears.

"I love you so damn much Riki," I said pulling him closer to me so our faces were inches apart. Surprisingly it wasn't uncomfortable at all.

"I love you too Sunghoon Hyung. I know I don't say it a lot but I really do. I love all of my Hyungs and I wanted to make sure you knew that," he whispered.

"God Ni-ki, you're gonna make me cry," I said with a groan.

"Yeah Ni-ki, stop being so lovey dovey, it's so weird." I turned my head in surprise to see Jake looking at us from his bed.

"Sorry Hyung," Ni-ki giggled.

"No, he's a liar. He loves the lovey dovey stuff. Come here Hyung and join this lovely cuddle session with your two favourite Dongsaengs," I said grinning cheekily. He chuckled but got out of bed and slipped in behind me so I was being cuddled between Jake and Ni-ki.

"Ni-ki's right, we're in this together and we'll help you get through it," Jake whispered.

"I know. That's what family is for..."

A/N

This is was requested by @jojosten I hope it was what you wanted and you enjoyed it.