Jungwon's POV

"I love the idea for this song but I just don't think it's good enough for the album just yet. I'm going to have to say no but maybe if you work on it more, you can have it done by the next album," the manager said to me as we were seated in the meeting room. I discretely wiped my sweaty palms on my jeans under the table as he talked. I could feel my shirt sticking to my sweaty back and I felt really hot despite the fact that I've been sitting in an air-conditioned room for the past 30 minutes or so.

"Don't be disheartened Jungwon, it's just one song. You may go now," he said softly.

"Thank you manager-nim," I said, standing up and bowing to him. I left the room quickly as I felt my heart rate increase and my hands start shaking. I could feel the panic attack creeping up on me so I tried to settle my thoughts but all I could think about was how much of a failure I was. What are the other members going to think when their own leader doesn't even have enough talent to produce a song. I started to run as the first tears slipped out. I needed to get into an empty room so no one would see me having a breakdown. I can't be a leader who cries at the silliest things, god the other's would be so ashamed of me if they realised. I quickly ran until I found our old practice room that we used to use. None of the members are supposed to be at the company anyway and no one ever really uses this room anymore but it's soundproof. That makes it perfect! I swung the door open quickly and then slammed it shut before I came crashing down to the floor, sobs ripping from my throat. I grabbed my hair tightly in my hands and tugged at it, trying to cause any sort of pain to distract me from the stabbing in my chest and the tightening of my throat.

"Jungwon? Jungwonie, hey don't do that." I heard a voice speak out quickly but I couldn't recognize it. God, I can't even have a breakdown alone properly.

"Jungwon STOP, you'll hurt yourself." Hands were suddenly grabbing mine and gently pulling them away from my hair. I tried to struggled but they were too strong and managed to successfully get them away. Without the pain from my hair I started to feel the other pain that was in my chest and throat. I clenched my hands into fists and squeezed my nails into my palms, closing my eyes tight.

"Jungwon. Come on baby please stop doing that." My hands were forcefully unclenched and two hands were slipped into mine, linking our fingers together.

"Make it stop, please make it stop," I begged. Moving my hands that were still connected with the other's over my chest.

"You need to calm down Jungwonie. I don't know what's going on but everything's going to be ok. You're having a panic attack but it can't hurt you alright. You just need to try and breathe with me. Follow my breathing." My hand was suddenly placed on a chest and I could feel a steady heartbeat under my palm. I sobbed and tried to move it away but whoever was holding it was stronger than me. They let go of one of my hands and used that arm to wrap around me and pull me closer. I felt myself sitting in their lap and my head was placed on their shoulder, their lips next to my ear so I could hear their steady breaths. I moved my free hand to their waist and clenched their shirt in my hand.

"Breathe with me Jungwon, just breathe with me. Nothing else matters except my voice, my heartbeat and my breaths. I'll protect you, I promise. Nothing's going to hurt you," they whispered. I felt weirdly safe in this persons arms. Their voice was calming and their scent smelt like home. The pain in my chest slowly decreased to a dull throb and my throat unclenched, allowing me to breathe better. I gasped for breathe and nuzzled my nose into their neck, breathing in their cologne. I felt a hand being dragged across my back in comforting circles and I melted into the touch.

"I've got you, I promise I've got you." I wrapped both of my arms around their neck and pulled myself up a bit, cuddling closer to them with my head on their shoulder and finally opening my eyes. I still didn't know who it was before I was looking behind them but I was feeling better then before.

"I'm sorry," I whispered.

"Why are you sorry? There's nothing to be sorry for," he replied. That's when I finally recognized the voice, Jay.

"Because I'm being a cry baby. I didn't think anyone would be in here, that's why I came here," I said with a small sigh. Jay suddenly pulled me back so I was still sitting in his lap but he was looking at me closer. I saw nothing but concern in his eyes.

"You were trying to go through that alone? Jungwon that was a terrible panic attack. If I wasn't here you could've badly hurt yourself and even passed out. We would've all been sick with worry and you would've been in danger," he said shaking his head.

"I didn't want to be a burden," I said quietly.

"A burden? Jungwon you're never a burden," he said rubbing the back of my neck gently with his hand.

"But I'm the leader Hyung, I need to be strong not an absolute cry baby," I said shaking my head.

"I think you're forgetting something baby. Yes you're our leader and you're doing an amazing job at it but you're also one of our maknae's. You're the second youngest in our group and you need comfort as well," he said. I sighed and looked down, grabbing his hand in mine to fiddle with as a distraction. He didn't comment about it, just let me do whatever.

"Can you tell me what brought this panic attack on? You're usually so composed," he said with a small sigh.

"I'm not sure if it was really a panic attack or just a breakdown," I said, blushing slightly.

"Still, what triggered it do you know," he asked.

"My song for the album was rejected," I said sadly, my hands starting to shake again as I feared he would see me as a failure. I felt him place two fingers under my chin and pull my head up so I was looking into his eyes again.

"I'm sorry about that, I know how much effort you put into it but you can have it ready for the next album. There's nothing wrong with having a song rejected for the album, they do that with a lot of songs. Even some of the other's have had songs rejected," he told me. My eyes widened in surprise as I heard him. Did they really?

"So, I'm not a failure," I asked quietly.

"WHAT!?" I jumped slightly in surprise but he quickly apologized.

"Come with me," he said standing up. I stood up with him and squeaked in surprise when he suddenly picked me up bridle style. I flung my eyes around his neck to stop me from falling, my cheeks turning pink.

"Hyung put me down," I whined.

"Nope. We're going somewhere and you're going to be quiet," he said. I wanted to argue but he gave me a stern look so I buried my head in his should in embarrassment. I heard the sound of a door opening and closing and then Jay stopped.

"Is everything ok? What's wrong with Jungwon." I lifted my head up at the sound of Sunoo's voice and saw that Heeseung, Jake, Ni-ki and Sunghoon were all there as well.

"Wow, have a dance practice without me. I feel so appreciated," I said as everyone gasped.

"What happened, why do you look like you've been crying," Jake asked as they all walked over and Jay let me down.

"I'm fine," I said quickly.

"He thinks he's a failure," Jay let out quickly and I looked to him with a betrayed look.

"What do you mean he thinks he's a failure," Ni-ki asked quietly.

"He ran into the old practice room and was going to have a panic attack all alone and a very bad one as well but luckily I was there. Turn out he's song wasn't accepted just yet and now he thinks he's a failure," Jay listed off.

"What no. That's not the only reason I think I'm a failure, there's other stuff like the fact that I'm a horrible leader as well," I huffed as I crossed my arms. That's when I realised what I said and quickly shut my mouth. Everyone was standing looking at me with a shocked looks on their faces.

"I mean, I don't think I'm a failure," I said weakly as tears welled up in my eyes again. Sunoo suddenly rushed forwards and engulfed me in a massive hug, Ni-ki joining not long after, the other's all coming in after as well.

"Don't cry Jungwon. I hate seeing any of my dongsaeng's crying, especially you Maknae's," Heeseung said softly.

"I'm s-."

"Don't you dare apologize again," Jay cut me off.

"You're a great leader Jungwon, otherwise we wouldn't have you as our leader," Sunghoon said.

"And you're a great Hyung as well, you aren't a failure," Ni-ki said, giving me a small grin as we all parted.

"I know, I just. I cant help but think that I'm always letting you guys down. You have to put up with have one of the youngest people in the group as your leader," I said, fiddling with my finger.

"We definitely do not have to 'put up' with you. We love you and we're so grateful to have you as our leader," Jake said.

"Are you sure," I asked him.

"We're positive," Heeseung said. I smiled slightly as everyone quickly nodded to assure me.

"Ugh, I hate you guys," I said wiping my eyes quickly, only this time the tears were of happiness. I don't know what I would do without these boys.

"We love you too Jungwon," Jay said, ruffling my hair.

"You need to tell us if you ever feel like this ok. We're a family and we need to be able to come to each other if any of us are ever in trouble," Heeseung said sternly.

"Sorry Hyung, I just didn't want to be a burden," I said nervously.

"You're never a burden alright. Just promise you'll come to someone if you ever start feeling like this again alright," Jay said softly as he placed a hand on my shoulder.

"I promise Hyung, and thank you," I whispered as I gave him a tight hug.

A/N

This one was a lot shorter than I usually do so I apologize but then again, this was only shown in one point of view.

This was once again requested by @jojosten so I hope it was what you wanted.

Hope everyone is doing well!