Wooyoung's POV

I've always known that I'm not the most good-looking guy around but when I joined ATEEZ and we debuted, I knew for sure that I wasn't good-looking at all. Everyone was the literal definition of beauty and then there's me. Even Atiny think I'm the let down in looks of the group. It's been over a year since we debuted and I've had enough. To make up for the my lacking in looks, I've decided to make sure I'm better in other things and put in more effort. For the past week I've been spending extra hours in the practice room, staying until 3am in the morning to be precise. I've managed to hide it from the other members because I know they won't understand and will most likely get angry at me and try to stop me but I need to do this. I need something in this group otherwise what's the point of being in the group. Practicing extra isn't enough though, so I've decided to work on my weight. I went online and searched up quick and easy ways to eat, finding a few articles and brainstorming the best ideas and writing them down in my notebook. Once I was satisfied with my list, I put my phone down and started to get changed for bed. Once I was ready, I left my room and quickly slipped into San's. It was 4am in the morning so he was dead asleep but sleeping next to San is the only thing that helps recharge my energy these days. I closed the door and quickly padded over to his bed, lifting up the blanket and slipping underneath with him. He stirred slightly and turned around to face me.

"Woo, what time is it," he asked tiredly.

"Late but I woke up and couldn't be back to sleep," I lied.

"M'kay. Sleep here," he mumbled, wrapping his arms around my waist and pulled me closer to him.

"Thanks Sannie," I whispered.

"No problem, I love cuddling you. Now get some sleep," he said gently. I nodded and rested my head against his chest and listened to his steady heartbeat, falling asleep not long after that.

~~~~~

I woke up a few hours later to fingers running through my hair and a soft voice talking to me.

"Wooyoungie, time to wake up. We have to start getting ready for bed." I slowly peeled my eyes open and saw a smiling, dimply San looking down at me.

"Morning. Did you sleep well after you came here," he asked gently.

"Yeah, it was great. You're very comfortable Sannie," I said with a grin. I was actually feeling pretty energized. Like I said, he helps me recharge my energy.

"What time did you get home last night? How many hours of sleep did you get before you woke up and came here," he asked me, his eyebrows furrowed in concern.

"I got home at about 12, I accidentally lost track of time but I still got about 3 or 4 hours of sleep beforehand," I lied. It's more believable to have it a little bit later than we're allowed because I'm known to sometimes lose track of time.

"Woo you've gotta get better at setting alarms, you'd be late to your own funeral," he said, rolling his eyes playfully.

"Yeah, yeah, I know. What time is it," I asked as I sat up.

"10 past 7 so breakfast time. Let's go," he said, grabbing my arm and yanking me out of bed. I was actually kind of excited, it was time to try out my new diet plan. When we got downstairs, Yunho was the only one sitting at the table and eating.

"Morning you two. Everyone else has already eaten but there's stuff in the fridge," he told us, not looking up from his phone as he continued to eat. San shrugged and went into the fridge, grabbing out the plate with left over bacon and eggs. He piled some stuff onto his plate and went over to the table, sitting down. I just grabbed an egg and two bits of bacon before sitting down next to him. Time to set my plan into action and make myself better. Throughout breakfast, I only ate three bites and drank some water, but I made sure to talk a lot and eat those bites slowly so it would seem like I ate more to Yunho and San and they wouldn't get too suspicious.

"Are you gonna eat more than that," San asked me softly as we both stood up to put our plates away.

"Nah, I ended up eating when I woke up this morning cos I thought that might help me sleep so I'm not too hungry right now," I lied with a casual shrug. I felt bad for lying because I never lie to San but I need to do this to get better. I'm too ugly at the moment and I need to step it up.

"Alright. I'll put this away, you go get ready," he said taking my plate. I nodded and walked back to my room. So far, so good. I only had a bite of egg and two bites of bacon. Now I've just got to keep up with the rest of my plan that I made which is no lunch and two bites of dinner, with lots of water to keep me going!

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Lunch was quite easy to skip which was great. We all had different schedules for the start of the day and were meeting up after lunch so I just skipped it and met everyone at the practice room. My stomach was rumbling internally and felt really empty which made me happy, I was doing well. They said that if my stomach was begging for food, then that meant I was doing stuff right and the results would show quickly.

"Did everyone have enough lunch? We're going to have a pretty intense practice today," Hongjoong said as we begun stretching. Everyone nodded quickly and continued to stretch.

"What do you have Woo? You didn't have a lot of breakfast and I know you ate early this morning but it's been quite a while and I don't want you getting dizzy because you didn't eat enough," San said as he walked over to me. I'm starting to think that San's going to be hard to find this from. We're usually together a lot and he always tries to take care of the younger one's which includes me.

"Oh, I just got some Bimimbap," I said with a shrug.

"You should've saved me some," he whined with a pout and I chuckled, sighing with relief on the inside.

"Let's get going guys," Hongjoong and we all got into our positions. Let's go.

~~~~~

I have never been as proud of myself as I am now. I have successfully managed to eat three bites of breakfast, no lunch, two bites of dinner, drunk lot's of water and have no snacks for two days straight. My stomach is practically begging me for food at the moment but I'm doing well to push it to the back of my mind. I skipped staying back later yesterday but right now I don't know how late it is but I'm sweating and running through some choreo. I got a little dizzy and stumbled, leaning against the mirror to steady myself. It was at that moment that there was a bang and the door swung open.

San's POV

Wooyoung is my best friend, my soulmate, my little brother, someone I care very deeply about. Which is why I immediately took note when he stopped eating. He may not realise but Wooyoung can never lie to me, it's just note in him. Whenever he does try, he looks really guilty and fiddles with his fingers subconsciously. His first lie was the morning after he slept next to me. He hardly touched his breakfast and I was worried that he didn't eat enough so I asked him and he told me that he had eaten earlier in the morning when he couldn't sleep but that was a lie, he didn't eat. That immediately set alarm bells off in my head and I made a mental note to keep and eye on him and what he's eating for the rest of the day. It was annoying because we were all having separate lunches but I asked him about what he had for lunch. He lied and said he had Bimimbap, so I'm guessing that he either ate nothing or like a bite or two of some food and that's not good. He survived throughout practice some how but I kept a close eye on him. At dinner, I caught him sneaking food onto other people's plates or into his pockets and my heart broke, he really is trying to starve himself. I ended up going to his room and sleeping next to him but not voicing my concerns. It could've just been a one off thing and I didn't want to scare him or embarrass him if it was nothing. That was until I watched him the next day and the exact same thing happened. That's when I knew that he was going on a crazy diet that wasn't healthy at all. I went home after practice and ate before sitting in his room, planning to confront him when he got home but pretty soon it was almost midnight and he still wasn't back. Maybe this is what he does, maybe we just haven't noticed that he says back way past the allowed time because we all went to bed and just assumed he would be responsible and come home at the right time. I didn't want Wooyoung getting in trouble so I decided to just go get him myself rather waking up Hongjoong or Seonghwa, and I might have a bit of a talk to him. I quickly put on a coat and left the dorm, taking the 15 minute walk to get to the company building. I waved hello to security who just nodded to me and entered the building, going towards the dance studio. I grabbed the handle and swung it open with a bang. I was originally going to tell him firmly that we're going home but then I noticed him gripping firmly onto the mirror and leaning heavily against it. I quickly rushed over to him, letting the door swing shut and I grabbed his shoulder gently.

"Wooyoung, are you ok," I asked quickly as I turned him to face me and held his shoulders so he wouldn't fall. His eyes were slightly gazed but he blinked them back into focus.

"Yeah I'm fine. Why," he asked.

"Because you were just leaning against the wall as if it was the only thing keeping you on your feet," I said worriedly as I placed my palm to his forehead where there was thankfully no fever. One less thing to worry about.

"No, I'm fine. I was just mucking around in front of the mirror." Yeah, totally not a lie.

"Woo, what're you doing," I asked with a frown.

"What do you mean? What time is it," he asked me with wide eyes.

"Almost midnight but that's not what I'm talking about," I said shaking my head.

"What're you talking about," he asked slowly and I could see the fear flicker through his eyes. He was scared, he didn't what anyone finding out. It pained me to know that he's been suffering in silence about something for who knows how long. How did I not realise earlier that he wasn't as happy and carefree as he always seemed.

"I mean, the last few days you've been acting different, doing things you don't normally do," I said as I placed a hand on his shoulder softly.

"Oh, uh, I've been a bit tired so I may have been acting a bit odd but don't worry, it's nothing," he said quickly.

"Wooyoungie, you haven't been eating," I said gently. His eyes went wide and I could see the panic in them as he looked towards the door but I quickly stood between him and the door while placing my other hand on his shoulder.

"It's ok Woo, I'm not mad or anything. I just want to talk to you for a bit ok. I won't force you to do anything alright," I said quickly, not wanting him to feel like I was trapping him. He still looked nervous but he let out a defeated sigh and relaxed in my grip.

"Why couldn't you just not care," he whispered.

"Because I do care Woo," I said sadly.

"I need this Sannie, I really need this. I-I don't have anything else. Just a month, that's all I need, please," he begged. Hearing the plea in voice broke my heart but I can't let him do this to himself.

"What do you mean you need to do this? You don't need to starve yourself Woo, please don't do that," I said softly as I cupped his cheek and gently wiped away the tears that began to fall down his face.

"But I do. You don't get it Sannie, I need this," he said angrily as he stepped away from me.

"Why do you think you need this," I asked frowning.

"Because I don't have anything else," he said shaking his head quickly. I don't get what he means by that.

"What do you mean you don't have anything else," I asked.

"I'm not good-looking like you guys, I'm ugly and fat and you guys are amazing. I need to lose some weight to even come close to you all. Please just let me have this," he pleaded. That's when the tears fell from my eyes. He thinks he's fat and ugly? That's why he's doing this? Does he not realise that he's one best visuals in our group and people go crazy when he shows even just a glimpse of his abs. I don't know what to say. Is there even anything I can say to convince him that he's wrong. No, to show him that he's wrong. God this is risky but I can't let him hurt himself anymore.

"Take your shirt off," I said quickly.

"W-What," he asked in confusion.

"Take your shirt off," I said as I grabbed the bottom of mine and pulled it off over my head, discarding it onto the floor. His eyes ran over my torso slightly and more tears started to fall. I quickly walked over to him and helped him get rid of his shirt before I wrapped my arms around his waist, placed my head on his shoulder and turned him to face the mirror. He immediately squeezed his eyes shut as more tears fell down his face. I gently grabbed his right hand and placed it on his stomach before stepping forwards and moving his left hand to my stomach.

"You feel that," I asked gently.

"Yeah," he nodded.

"Do they feel the same," I asked him.

"No, mine feels like fat," he replied but I could tell that he was doubting that as his fingers twitched over my stomach.

"Open your eyes," I whispered. He shook his head quickly and tried to get move but I tightened my grip around his waist once again.

"For me? Please," I asked quietly. I watched as his eyes slowly opened and he looked in the mirror.

"I love this right here, because it's so pretty and I love to just poke it when I'm bored," I said softly as I booped his nose. I small giggle escaped his lips as I knew it would whenever I boop his nose but he quickly frowned right after.

"These are amazing. Everyone say's there so kissable and gorgeous," I said as I gently traced my fingers over his lips. If he doesn't think he's good-looking, why not show him what I think.

"They aren't," he whispered.

"Yeah they are. Atiny say so and Atiny is always right so ha," I said with a small pout. I saw his lips twitch up slightly but not enough. Time to continue.

"These right here are the perfect shape and thickness, they really bring out your eyes which is awesome because you have stunning eyes. It's lucky you wear contacts sometimes otherwise I reckon people would literally die from how beautiful they are," I said softly as I pulled him closer to my chest and traced his eyebrows.

"That's so cheesy," he whispered.

"Just stating the facts. And even if they're watery and teary, they're still perfect."

"I love the shape of your face, it makes you look cute but sexy at the same time. It's hard to explain but many people love it, including me," I told him. His eyes finally met mine in the mirror and I flashed him a small smile.

"Is there anything else," he asked so quietly that I almost didn't hear him. Almost.

"Many, many more things. Like these right here. I swear you're almost getting as Jongho," I said as I squeezed his arms. That finally made a laugh escape his lips.

"I highly doubt it," he said but there was a small smile on his lips and hope in his eyes.

"This right here is, well. Do I even have to explain that? I mean, if any Atiny even get a glance at those they'll faint," I said as I started tapping his abs softly.

"That tickles," he giggled.

"Mhm, that means they're there," I said gently. He frowned slightly and looked down at his stomach. I unwrapped my arms from him and moved in front of him so he could see me.

"Look at me Wooyoung," I told him. He sighed and looked up at me.

"Please never say you're ugly or fat. You're beautiful Wooyoung and you are definitely not fat. I mean you've got a better six-pack then me so if you're fat then I much be ginormous," I said patting my stomach.

"No, Sannie you aren't fat. Please don't say that," he said immediately as he quickly stepped forwards and cupped my cheek softly.

"Neither are you Woo. And I know if you ever asked any of the other's, they would tell you the exact same thing that I just told you," I said softly. He eyes welled up again and tears started falling down his face again, making me panic. Before I could react though, I was pulled into a tight embrace.

"Thank you Sannie," he whispered.

"Do you wanna know my two favourite things about you," I asked him.

"What are they," he asked as he looked into my eyes.

"Well the first one is these. They're soft and the perfect size to fit into mine so I can always find comfort when I need," I said as I slipped my hands into his.

"And the other," he asked quietly.

"The other is right here," I said gently as I poked the mid of his right thigh. He smiled and pulled up his shorts to show the 'Amicus Ad Aras' tattooed on it. I showed mine and placed it next to his.

"Friends until death," he whispered.

"Yeah, friends until death Woo. That means that I'll always be here for you when you need me. You just say the word and I'll be here to tell you how special you are and how much I love you," I said softly.

"Thank you San. Can we uh, can we go home now," he asked nervously.

"Of course. Can you do a favour for me when we g-."

"Yeah, I'll have a snack. I'm sorry for worrying you," he said looking down sadly.

"Don't be sorry Woo. I'm sorry I didn't realise soon enough that you were hurting," I said pulling him into a hug.

"You ready to go," I asked him quickly.

"Yeah but we should probably put our shirts back on before we leave though," he replied with a giggle. I chuckled as I realized we both still had our shirts off.

"Oh, whoops," I said as I picked them up from the floor. We both put them on quickly and I grabbed his hand before pulling him out of the room, grabbing his bag on the way out.

~~~~~

We walked back together to the dorm and it didn't take long before we were inside.

"Go grab a yoghurt and eat it then get changed. I'll meet you in your room," I told him. He nodded and walked off towards the kitchen. I quickly went over to a room and opened the door, slipping inside quietly. I walked over to the bed and gently shook his shoulder.

"San what're you doing? It's the middle of the night." I smiled slightly at his dishevelled hair and tired eyes.

"Sorry Sangie but Woo's been pretty upset so I was gonna see if you wanted to join me in giving him some loving cuddles," I told him. His eyes went wide and he quickly stood up, moving his cover's to the side.

"What happened," he asked me quickly.

"He's been a bit insecure about his looks for a while and was having thoughts that he's ugly and fat but I talked to him about it and he's feeling a bit better about it but we should probably keep an eye on him for a bit," I replied. I left out the part about him not eating because no one needs to know that unless it continues but I trust that he's going to try and start eating again.

"Alright, let's go," Yeosang said as he slipped out of bed and we both went to Wooyoung's room. When we went inside, Wooyoung was just finishing buttoning up his shirt and his eyes went wide when he saw Yeosang.

"Sangie," he said quietly.

"Let's get some sleep yeah," Yeosang said gently as he walked over and pulled Wooyoung to the bed gently. It's good that we have double beds as there's enough room for the three of us to squeeze in. I flicked the switch of and slipped into bed next to them so Wooyoung was wrapped up between Yeosang and I as he had our arms around him.

Wooyoung's POV

I went into the kitchen and grabbed out a yoghurt, eating it quickly so I wouldn't have to think about it too much. I believed what San said but that doesn't mean I'm suddenly going to be 100% fine with everything, there still is some doubt. Once I finished the yoghurt, I put it in the bin and went to my room to get changed. I had just finished buttoning up my shirt when the door opened and I turned to see San, and, Yeosang? What's Yeosang doing here? Shouldn't he be asleep?

"Sangie," I said quietly.

"Let's get some sleep yeah," he said as he gave me a small smile and grabbed my hands, pulling me over to my bed. We both got in and he wrapped my arms around my waist softly. A couple of seconds later the lights went out and San climbed in on the other side of me and wrapped his arms around me, cuddling up to my back.

"We love you very much Wooyoungie and you're beautiful ok. Don't ever forget that," Yeosang told me.

"I love you guys too," I whispered back.

"Get some sleep alright. We'll stay here with you alright," San said quietly. I nodded and closed my eyes, snuggling closer to them both and letting their warmth comfort me. I heard both San and Yeosang start whispering sweet nothings into my ears and praise me. It was nice and it didn't take long for me to get sleepy and slowly drift off into a content sleep, safe with me two best friends protecting me from everything.

A/N

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