"Why can't I be that good?" you mumbled to yourself while watching SHINee's dance practice video for their latest comeback with 'Everbody'. You sighed and shut your phone off. setting it to the side next to your stuff, you stood up and walked to the middle of the practice room and faced the mirrors. "Two more hours and I'll call it a day." You nod and play the music while practicing the choreography for a dance that you would be performing for your debut stage... as a soloist.

For two hours you struggled with the dance, pushing yourself to the limit and further until you final collapsed on the floor. Breathing heavily, you lay there and thought back to everything that had happened leading up to you debuting as a solo artist.

*Flashback to three years ago*

"Hey Y/N, are you ready to go practice?" Minhee asked getting her shoes on then pulling her hair up into a high ponytail.

"Yeah, I just have to save this essay and grab my bag, then I'm ready." You saved the file and shut down your computer before getting up and grabbing your bag and walking out to the living room.

Minhee looked at you and held out one of her favorite scrunchies. "Here, you'll need this."

"No thanks. I like it down while I dance." You smile and slip your shoes on. "Besides that's your favorite scrunchie. I don't want to accidentally break it."

"One, you won't break it. Two, just take it. I don't want to hear you complaining that you can't dance well because your hair is in your eyes and you can't see!" You both laughed as you took it and pulled your hair back.

*Time skip to after practice*

"Oh! We should get chicken for dinner tonight! I haven't had it in so long!" You said turning around to face her while walking backwards on your way home.

"Y/N, we can't have chicken because we are supposed to be getting ready for our debut. We have to watch our weight. You know that."

"I know I know. But couldn't we just practice an hour longer tomorrow?"

"No, because tomorrow we have a photoshoot and then recording." She said looking up from the schedule on her phone. "Y/N, WATCH OUT!"

You turned to see a car speeding towards you and Minhee. You froze, your feet stuck to the ground and everything around you slowed down as if it were in slow motion.

You heard shouting.

Saw Minhee run and push you away.

Saw her face as you fell back hitting your head on the ground.

Saw everything.

Then nothing.

*Time skip to a month later*

You stood there in front of Minhee's grave.  dressed in black. Saying nothing, you cried and fell to your knees. "Why? Why did you push me out of the way?" You were angry. Angry at her for pushing you. Angry at the driver for driving while drunk. But mostly angry at yourself. Angry for freezing and failing to move causing Minhee to push you out of the way.

You sat there crying until you couldn't anymore then continue to sit there until you felt a hand on your shoulder.

You looked up at the owner widening your eyes slightly when seeing who it was.

Minho stood there with his hand on your shoulder and spoke again. "I'm sorry for bothering you. We were just looking for a trainees grave. Do you know where to look? Her name was Kim Minhee. She was in the same company as us but we were unable to attend her funeral last month and we wanted to pay our respects."

You nod unable to speak and point to the grave in front of you. Then remembering who they were again you jumped up and bowed greeting them. "Sorry. I'm Y/N. I-" You choked up holding back tears. "We were getting ready for our debut together."

"So you are Y/N?" He said after the paid their respect to Minhee. "Sorry for not introducing ourselves sooner. We're SHINee and I guess we are in the same company."

"Yeah." You nod. You knew they were in the same company, but you never had time to officially meet them because you both were so busy. You were training and getting ready for your debut and they were always doing something, from performing to being guests on different shows, they always had something going on.

"What are you going to do now?" He asked

"I-" you looked at your phone and read the notification that had come up.

'September 9th our debut is today!!!'

You teared up again. "I'm never dancing again."

To be continued~