This is for BluSnowflake

You know in every romance movie the girl ends up getting the guy,and they kiss in the moonlight or somewhere romantic. In real life,it's a totally different thing,there's no kissing in the rain,no love interests,and no god damn happy endings. Keith learned that the hard way.

He has fallen in love with a boy named,Lance. Keith didn't know what made him so special,but Lance was so...perfect. Was it his blue eyes that shimmered in the light,his radiant skin,his cute face,his strong built body,his attractive smile? No, it was everything. Everything about him was so perfect. Keith fell hard.

When you fall for someone,you don't feel the ground yet. You feel the wind passing through your body,and after a while,you'll start to see the ground below you,and as each second pass you can see it get closer and closer until you go,splat! Right on the concrete floor.

Keith always had such false hope. He thought that he might have a chance,but what the hell was he thinking! Lance is straight as a line! He is the definition of heterosexuality,which is why Keith's heart broke into dust.

He confessed,a terrible mistake,he wishes he could get an eraser,and erase what he said,erase the words that flew out of his mouth,erase his memories of meeting Lance,to erase himself from the face of the Earth.

Lance didn't approve of Keith's love,and he rejected him,yelled at him,"You're a fucking faggot!" Lance's hateful words still rang in Keith's head like a never ending bell. After the rejection Keith felt weak. His knees couldn't walk anymore,he collapsed. His heart wasn't whole anymore,it wasn't as full as it used to be.

Every night,Keith would lay on his bed,and look through all the texts,all the pictures he took with Lance,he looked through everything. As he stared at one picture of Lance's arm on his shoulders,he feels tears slide down his face,and he thinks to himself,why,Keith loved Lance,but Lance didn't accept it.

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One year later,Keith's heart grew while again,but it grew back crooked. His heart wasn't as bright and loving. Keith was a new person. His hair was cut short,his eyes always had bags under them,his eyes never had twinkle in them,and his whole body was almost nothing but bones. If you compared him to what he looked like before and to now,you'd say that they're two completely different people.

Keith wasn't too happy with his life,but he was content. Content that his heart isn't broken,he's okay with his looks,and he's okay being alone. He's fine,right? Wrong.

He's at the roof of his apartment,standing on the edge. He's planning on to jump,tears fall down his face,and finally les go of life,as he falls everything seems to have slowed down. Time slowed down.

As he falls towards the ground,he smiles,knowing that he's finally free from all of his worries,his regrets,his rejection,his failures,his life,and most importantly Lance.

               
                 It's better this way