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"Here."

Hindi alam ni Yoon kung ano ba dapat ang gagawin aa ganitong sitwasyon. Good thing there was Naia and Synn ready to help her out.

Naikwento niya sa mga kaibigan how lately her breasts were always sore. Saka napaka-antukin niya rin. Naia said signs na daw 'yon ng pagbubuntis kaya't bigla siyang nag-panic. Pano ba naman eh dalawang linggo nang delayed ang buwanang dalaw niya.

"Relax, Yoon," ani Naia habang naghihintay ito kasama siya sa isang pay lounge. "Hindi pa naman natin nasisiguro kung buntis ka nga. I also had the same symptoms pero pwede rin namang PMS lang yung iyo. Most women have sore breasts kapag magkakaron. Saka baka napupuyat lang kayo ni Inno kaya antukin ka. Don't stress yourself too much."

"We were never careful," saad niya. Kanina pa siya naglalakad ng pabalik-balik habang kinakagat ang dulo ng daliri. "Hindi kami gumagamit ng protection, Naia. So malaki ang chance na... na may nabuo. God! How can I be this careless!"

Not that she didn't want to have kids pero, paano kung hindi pa pala siya handa? Oo meron siyang business para suportahan ang sarili pero ibang usapan na kapag may bata. Will she even be a good mother?

"Yoon, you're already engaged. Konting kembot na lang and you'll be married to Inno," anito. "Kung hindi lang nga sukob eh baka pinakasalan ka na 'non agad eh."

"Pero pano kung ayaw niya muna magkaanak?" pagdadahilan niya. This is where insecurity kicks in. "I mean, pano kung kasal lang ang gusto niya at wala pang bata? Ganon ang ibang lalaki. And we're not ready yet. Busy siya sa kompanya and I'm still handling a business. Pano kung—"

"Yoon... Yoon relax, okay?" ani Naia sabay hawak sa kanyang kamay. "Nothing's certain unless you take the test. Mas okay na masiguro muna natin bago ka mag-panic."

Huminga siya ng malalim. Right. Tama ito. Know the results first before panicking. Baka late lang talaga siya dahil naninibago ang katawan niya since she's been active just recently. May posibilidad din na dahil sa stress kaya ga'non.

"Okay," mahina niyang sagot bago naupo sa tabi ng kaibigan. "I'm just scared. Pano kung buntis nga ako, Naia? What will happen? Kaya ko ba? Ni wala nga akong maternal instincts. I'm not like you. Baka... baka hindi ko kaya—"

"Ano ka ba, Yoon," ani ng babae. "If it turns out that you're pregnant, it's okay. Confident akong kaya mo. Ang independent mo kaya. You've been supporting yourself for as long as I can remember. Saka yung maternal instincts na 'yan, nadedevelop 'yan. Saka andiyan naman si Inno. Hindi ka 'non pababayaan. He loves you and I'm sure matutuwa 'yon once na malaman niyang magiging daddy na siya. And maybe that would stop him from threatening to kidnap Mavi. Lagi niya akong inaasar dahil pinanggigigilan ko yung ilong niya."

The idea of a little Inno running around made her unconsciously smile. Hindi naman siguro masama 'no? Having a child with Inno... inevitable naman 'yon kasi ikakasal naman na sila sasusunod na taon. So... why not, right? And marami namang pregnancy books na pwede niya gamitin—

"Nabili ko na!" bulalas ni Synn pagkapasok na pagkapasok nito sa CR. "Ang haba ng pila saka napaka-judgmental 'nung babae sa likod ko. Bumili na din ako ng tubig just in case hindi ka maihi or something."

Inabot nito sa kanya ang maliit na kahon na naglalaman ng pregnacy test kit. It's now or never. Huminga siya ng malalim.

Synn gave her a reassuring pat on the shoulder while Naia smiled at her. Pilit hinanap ng kanyang mata si Arika only to realize wala na pala ito. She missed her jokes that make situations as heavy as this be lighter. Again, she sighed.

"Wish me luck."

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Tahimik lang si Yoon nang pumasok sa kanilang silid. Hindi na siya nagpasundo kay Inno dahil sinabay na siya ni Jarvis nang sunduin nito ang asawa.

"Arabella?" rinig niyang tawag ni Inno mula sa banyo. Then the lights from there dimmed at lumabas ang kanyang kasintahan mula doon. "Hey, love. Kamusta ang girls day out niyo?"

Without a word ay agad siyang lumapit sa lalaki't niyakap ito ng mahigpit. And she started crying.

"Love? Are you okay? What's wrong?" nagaalalang mga tanong nito as he gently brushed his hand on her hair. Lalo niya pang isinuksok ang mukha sa may leeg nito. "Arabella?"

"I'm not pregnant," deklara niya. Inno gently placed a small space between them at tiningnan siya nito with wondering eyes.

"Not... pregnant? What do you mean?"

"A-Akala ko buntis ako," paliwanag niya. "Synn and Naia bought me a pregnancy test kit and it turned out to be negative..."

As it turns out, hindi pala talaga siya buntis. The one Synn bought only had one red line telling them that she's not pregnant.

Ang weird nga dahil instead of relief, nakaramdam siya ng kakaibang lungkot and it overwhelmed her. Oo nga't hindi siya buntis pero... a part of her wanted to be. Kahit nagpa-panic na siya kanina, iniisip niya pa rin how it would be wonderful to have a mini Inno or Yoon running around.

"I know I'm being stupid for crying over something I never even had pero... mali ba? Mali bang umasa na magkakaron na sana tayo ng pamilya? A complete family that I didn't get to experience?" tanong niya dito.

Inno's expression softened as he pulled her towards the bed. Umupo ito sa dulo ng kama'y dahan-dahang kinalong.

"Love, it's okay," anito as he lovingly stroked her hair. "Maybe hindi pa oras. But nothing says we can't try again, right?"

Napaangat siya ng tingin at napabaling sa kasintahan.

"You mean... you mean gusto mo rin magka-baby tayo?" gulat na tanong niya dito. "Okay lang sayo if mabubuntis ako?"

"Bakit naman hindi?" balik nito sa kanya. "Arabella, hindi tayo nagiingat for a reason. Mahal kita and that automatically means I want you to be the mother of my children. Kung ako lang nga ang susunod eh hindi tayo lalabas ng kwartong 'to hangga't walang nabubuo diyan sa tiyan mo.

"Matagal na akong handa, Arabella. Unang beses mo pa lang ako lundagin, may pangalan na lahat ng magiging anak natin," dagdag pa nito.

Hindi niya napigilan ang matawa sa pinagsasabing kalokohan ng kasintahan.

"Para ka nanamang sira..." aniya at unti-unti nang kumakalma.

"I'm serious," anito habang tinatabi ang mga hibla ng kanyang buhok na tumatabing sa kanyang mukha. "Kaya don't be upset, love. We can always try again, can't we?"

Impit siyang napatili nang bigla na lamang siya nitong hinila sa higaan. She was lying underneath him as he rained her with butterfly kisses all over.

"Inno..."

Hindi ito sumagot at halip ay nagsimula nang pagtuunan ng pansin ang kanyang tainga. Bumaba pa iyon sa may bandang leeg niya na ikinataas ng kanyang balahibo.

"We should get started," bulong nito as he busied himself trailing kisses across her neck. "Para bukas na bukas din eh may laman na 'yang tiyan mo."

Isang kakaibang sensasyon ang kanyang naramdaman as his hands started to do what it does best to her body. Hindi na nga niya alam kung pano nito nagawang i-unhook ang kanyang bra. All she could do was moan his name and let him. Pero pati ang pag-ungol ay hindi nanaman niya nagawa dahil pinigilan iyon ng mga labi nitong mapusok.

Maya maya pa'y naramdaman niya na ang umbok sa pagitan ng hita nito sa kanyang pagkababae. He deliberately positioned himself there to tease her. At sa sobrang busy niya tugonan ang mga halik nito, hindi na niya napansin ang pagkawala ng pamibabang saplot nila.

"Inno..." aniya nang makawala mula sa mga labi nito.

But his lips started to trail down—from her neck, to her collar and down to her hardened crowns. Napa-arko ang kanyang likuran nang maingat na pinagpala nito ang mga iyon. His tongue moved expertly maneuvered on her peak as his other hand caressed her sensitized breast. She was about to go crazy sa sobrang sensasyong dulot ng pagpapala nito sa kanya. No doubt, sa sobrang daming beses nilang ginawa ito, he knew exactly what she wanted.

Nang pagsawaan nito ang kanyang mga dibdib ay dahan dahang bumaba ang mga labi nito sa kanyang tiyan.

It wasn't that long when Inno bridged the gap from her bellybutton to the apex of her thighs. Muli nanamang napaarko ang kanyang likod as his tongue did wonders down there. He even lifted one of her leg and placed it on top of his shoulder to give him better access. She did not know how much of this sweet torture she could handle.

"Inno..." Medyo napahaba pa yung 'o' sa dulo ng pangalan nito.

Halos magdeliryo na siya sa sobrang sensasyong nararamdaman. Mababaliw na ata siya sa sobrang kaligayahan. Posible ba iyon? Because she swears, iyon ang mangyayari sa kanya kapag pinagpatuloy pa nito ang ginagawa. She was close to losing her mind. Really close.

It wasn't long enough when she finally reached her peak. But that didn't stop him from continuing what he was doing. She screamed as she felt her body convulse with too much pleasure. Inno just grinned as he listed his gaze and snuck a playful lick on her folds.

Nanginginig pa ang kanyang kalamnan at tila ubos na ang kanyang lakas. She felt herself fall—figurativelh. Kaya pa ba niya? Konti na lang ay papanawan na siya ng ulirat.

"Stay with me okay, love?" bulong nito in his sexy bedroom voice.

Kahit latang-lata na siya sa ginawa nito kanina, she felt her stomach churn once again. Sunod-sunod na tango lamang ang naging sagot niya bago muling kumibabaw sa kanya ang lalaki't siniil siya ng halik.

Ramdam na ramdam niya ang kamay nito sa kanyang katawan. The way his hands expertly traversed the contours of her body made her shudder. Then he broke their kiss and flipped her over. Kasunod 'non ay ang pag iwan nito ng magagaang halik sa kanyang likuran—tracing each rung of her spine.

Muli ay nabuhay ang apoy na tanging ito lamang ang may kakayanang bumuhay. Several minutes later, she felt his palm on her tummy. Next, he gently raised the middle part of her body making her kneel. Kinailangan niyang itukod ang mga siko sa unan upang suportahan ang katawang iniangat nito.

And then she felt it. Their bodies joined as one. Nakagat niya ang pang-ibabang labi sa sakit. It wasn't their first time but Inno wasn't average. But the pain was just short lived as pleasure started to overpower it.

She felt so full as he thrusted in and out of her. Hindi niya rin napigilan ang sariling lumikha ng ingay as he moved. His hands cupping her sore breasts a little bit painfully.

"Inno..."

His movements started to grow fast at tuluyan nang nanghina ang kanyang mga tuhod. The sensation was too much for her to handle and she fell into oblivion—again. But he wasn't done. Muli ay iniharap siya nito's siniil muli ng halik. She felt empty as he pulled out but squealed a little when he decided that what he did to her wasn't enough.

"Can you still keep up, love?" masuyong tanong nito as he gently brushed her hair.

"Mm-hmm..." she answered groggily making Inno chuckle.

"Good girl," anito bago muli siyang inangkin.

In between her broken moans and whimper, she heard a low groan on his chest as she laid underneath him. He was close. Kabisado na niya ito tulad ng kung pano nito alam kung pano siya pasisiyahin.

So she arched her back and spread her legs even further. That gave him the access to make his movements a bit more rough than the usual.

Akala niya'y hindi niya magugustuhan iyon but surprise, surprise. Her screams filled the four corners of the room and she silently prayed that no one was currently at home. Hindi niya kasi nasisiguro ang pagiging soundproof ng silid nito because of the teasing stares she gets from Inno's younger cousins.

"Inno," sambit niya as his movements became erratic. "I'm... close..."

"Open your eyes, love," aniyo as he kissed her lovingly on her cheek. "Look at me."

She tried her best to open her eyes but she couldn't. She slowly felt her consciousness slipping away as her insides clench.

And with one deep thrust, they both reached their peak.

"Inno!"

"Arabella!"

Iyon ang huli niyang narinig bago siya tuluyang panawan ng ulirat. Nagising na lamang siya kinaumagahan with Inno teasing her about passing out after that.

Demonyo talaga 'tong lalaking 'to. Pero mahal niya. Mahal na mahal.

Maybe it's not yet time para magkaanak sila but hopefully, they'll have one. Basta si Inno, kahit isang buong basketball team pa 'yan, game na game siya.

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feeling ko nagkakasala ako habang nagsusulat neto. 😂😂
please pray for my soul guys 🙏🏻🙏🏻