Did not update yesterday because of their tour. Their stage presence is so amazing 😍 I want to see them again.

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With a deep sigh Inho turns away from the window after half an eternity and goes to bed late. He has a restless sleep and lies awake all night because his thoughts and dreams are so confusing.

Why does he imagine himself to be so close to Hyunuk as you only can be with a girl you love? Like holding hands or touching his cheek gently or cuddling together. The idea of beeing held in Hyunuks arms feels so good. Is something like that really okay?

He feels bad for thinking of Hyunuk this way and doesn't dare to look him in the eyes when he sees him in school, in case his heart flutters again like it did in the night when Inho thought of Hyunuks soft, deep, and warm brown eyes. It feels really strange, maybe he should see a doctor to check on his heart. Feelings like this couldn't be normal.

The following night is not better. It's even worse because Inho dreams about how he saw Hyunuk standing in his corner during the lunch break and could adoringly stare at him a little. Inho would like to look at him closer and maybe see his adorable smile again.

The next day he looks for Hyunuk at school. Inho has the feeling that he might sleep better again when he clears the matter. He just doesn't know how it works. With girls you just smile friendly and ask for a date, his friends told him. Is it the same with boys? He decides to just talk to Hyunuk. But as easy as it is to imagine something, as hard is it to do it.

As soon as he sees him on the school yard, he has to take all his courage to only stand next to him. Hyunuk smiles but continues to eat his lunch in peace. Inho just looks at him, and so the break is over faster than he can open his mouth to talk. Hyunuk gives him one last smile, then Inho stands alone in the yard, surrounded by students walking into the school building.

It's so easy to talk to his friends. Why is it so hard with Hyunuk?

He desperately tries to find Hyunuk all day long. On some other days they have seen each other in school all the time, but today he seems to have vanished. Inho has to go home without having achieved anything that he planned and stares at his dinner plate without any appetite.

"Is something bothering you again?," his mother asks.

"A boy. I want to talk to him but I hardly see him, and when I do I can't say anything," he complains.

His mother giggles. "That never happens to you! You always talk all day long!"

"Exactly, that is why it is so terrible! I really have to talk to him!"

"Do you like him?"

"He certainly likes me..." Otherwise Hyunuk would not have kissed him, would he? He really needs to talk to him.