It's not that anyone actually left me.
But it feels like they did.
I can feel them,
Drifting away like the tide,
Growing further and further from reach,
Until my voice is lost in the wind,
Trying to call out to them.

Meena,
I know you don't realize you're leaving.
Or if you do,
I'm grateful it looks like you don't.

Vix, Sarah, Penny,
I know you didn't want to hurt me.
But I feel your absence.
I hope you're well,
Because I can't go a day
without thinking of you.

Mom,
We're not as close as we used to be.
I know it's not your fault.
You try.
I know you think Alex needs you more,
And who am I to take you from my brother.
Just remember that I need you too.

Everyone else but a couple,
I was never close enough to you,
To lose you.
You wouldn't notice my absence.
But the loss I feel,
Is the knowledge that our friendliness
Will never develop.
I lost the hope of a real friendship with you.
And it hurts.

I see you all on the horizon,
Swimming in the waves together,
Leaving me trapped on shore.
Alone.
Watching.