There's a lot of things leading to my constant hiatuses, I'll be unpacking the majority of the reasons. There might be name drops, but I'm writing this at 7:26 and will probably take an hour to finish, and at this point I don't care that much. Blah blah blah, don't harass, blah blah blah.

One: Overwhelmation

As you know, I have two roleplay books with many chains, and it comes a lot to juggle after a while, and so a lot of roleplays end up going on the backburner in favor of the ones I enjoy and the very quick ones. About 3-5 ones, occasionally picking up a 6th and 7th out of feeling obligated and them getting dropped too. Other times I focus on the more needier ones, and eventually it goes so long it eventually just becomes weird to reply after like a month of silence, so I just go back to try and juggling the same 3-5. With othet people hounding me for replies, the pressure builds up and eventually...

Two: Burn Out

I tend to burn out more easily than more people do. I can handle only so much at a time until the pressure of maintaining my quality standards of replies and I eventually cave and stop going on wattpad for weeks to months on, because I don't wanna deal with that. I only occasionally making an announcement or only talking to people if it's something I'm interested in. And this interest doesn't translate to most roleplays because:

Three: I'm the one that's usually doing the heavy lifting

I'm— on average —the one to think of a scenario, starting roleplays, setting a scene, taking time thinking and writing and making good replies, only for none of that effort to be reciprocated. Oftentimes, most often with TheHeroKing, I just say "fuck it" and just stop trying all together which I don't like. I don't like replies that are 5 sentences. I don't like how unengaging these roleplays are. You turn your brain off and just mindlessly shovel out verbal diarrhea and I. Don't. Like. That. The plotlines move at a snails pace, dragging its feet on the floor which could be resolved if you started being PROACTIVE. WE WOULDN'T HAVE THIS PROBLEM IF YOU PUT IN ANY EFFORT WHATSOEVER. I'M the one who is always moving the plotline forward. I'm the one that's actually trying. I'm the ONLY ONE WHO ACTUALLY DOES ANYTHING. The only two exceptions for this on this book is Maia, Sanix, and SleepyKing. They try. They actually try. Three people on this book. THREE. OUT OF TEN.

I've been roominating on how to say this ever since this morning, but there is no nice way to say this: Most people on this book are not good at roleplaying. Maia is the only one who matches up to my efforts in roleplay, I enjoy roleplaying with Sanix, despite that they're slightly lagging behind because of poor puntctuation and grammar issues but it doesn't matter that much, SleepyKing is average, leaning towards good. Everyone else is either mediocre or just bad. And it's the bad roleplayers that get on my ass about replies the most. If you've seen the rule update, you know what I mean but I'll say it anyway: I have to spend A LOT of time just thinking about what I'm even supposed to do with these replies. They're so vague and open ended it just loses all sense of direction. If I said "I'll reply in X days", chances are this is why. I have to take time off to think and stress about what I'm going to say, I write it the day on or the day before my deadline, they reply, now I gotta take more time off because when you give me four sentences in response to my five per paragraph, what am I supposed to do with that? And this cycle repeats where I'm pissing away my time and effort where I start back up chains, chains fall to the side, get hounded for replies, I need to take time off to think of what I'm going to say next which doesn't always happen but happens barely enough to where it's worth mentioning, more hounding, then I dip.

It's become clear to me that most people here do not appreciate my effort. At all. It's obvious how they demand replies when I haven't in like 5 days and put piss-all into their replies and how I gotta drag the story along, if not be dragged by the story going at a snails pace. Here's the rules I've implemented since yesterday:

No DM roleplays moving forward

Must have at least 2 years experience in writing

And match the effort I put in.

The forms now have a required roleplay example.

I've been thinking about just up and giving a few people the boot, but I'm not sure. Maybe another reasom is because I subconsciously knew that nobody appreciated my effort at all. More speculation, but honestly I'm too drained from stressing about this for a long while to really give a shit.