I saw my reflection in the mirror. No expression just a blank face with puffy eyes. I have been crying for days and it seems that the pain is not going away. I hoped crying would make me feel better even though I would feel tired. But what do I expect?!!

He left me...

I am alone once again...

First my mom and now him.....I'm again hopeless,  all this time trying to find the happiness and love that I was missing from my parents but it turned out really bad.

I tried so hard to find what I was missing since I was young but now I realise that true happiness  is not for me. Maybe I don't deserve it at all,  even though I never did anything wrong all my life,  I honestly wish I didn't.

But I tried so hard to create a better world for myself and my family, that I fell apart. I wasn't able to deal with my life...

I  suffer from depression for years..

I even tried to commit suicide..

But my father was the person who saved me.  I don't know where I would be without him.  He was always taking care of me since my mother divorced him for another man and left us alone not even caring for me and my father.

Anyways when she left I started hating her for leaving us alone. I was always thinking how could she leave my father for someone else.  He was even caring and never treated her badly.

.. But that was her decision,I still can not understand the reason why she left us, anyways I can't even remember her face. The last time I saw her was 10 years ago.

After the big news, media reacted leaving everyone speechless about the divorce between the well-known businessman and businesswoman. During that time I was really young and I could not understand quite good the situation.

After the family drama my father replaced the mother's role in my family. He was there all the time taking care of me,  taking me to school,  taking me to different therapies and always buying all the things that I needed.

As a really successful businessman, it was not that easy for my father to take care of me and at the same time to run one of the best companies in Korea.

I am thankful that I have a father like him....

At least had...

He died a week ago

In a car accident.

I'm still shocked and I don't know
what to do. His funeral was the other day after he died.  I tired to stay strong but I couldn't...  In my father's funeral came a lot of people who respected him with their presence but none of then was part of "my family".

Even my best friend was not there for me cause she is out of town taking care of her little sister. I understand her situation so I didn't force to come,  anyways I know she would support me.

But luckily I also have one of my fathers best friend.  Mr.  Han who was there for me and my father all the time. He is like my uncle who takes care of me.

He worked as an assistant in our company and really did a great job supporting my father. He also took care for the funeral and at the same time told me to stay strong because he was there for me.
I don't know where I would be without Mr. Han especially now.

Not long ago he called me and asked me to meet him in the coffee bar . I don't have a clue why he wants to meet me because he was here in the morning taking care of me and the house as always. But I got that feeling that he doesn't want to have
just a chat and a coffee with me.
I truly hope everything is alright.

I can't handle more..

~ Additional cast members information~

Name: Rose(not Rose from blackpink)

Surname: Kim

Age: 17

Education: senior year of high school

                         Rose's father
Name: Soo In

Surname:  Kim

Age:  47

Job: Businessman of one of the most well known make up brands in Korea.

                         Mr.  Han
Name: Dong Ri

Surname: Han

Age: 47

Job: Assistant of  Mr.  Kim

                      Rose's best friend

Name;  Hazel

Surname;  Park

Age; 17

Education;   Senior year of high school

                                  A/N                            

Jello guys! ᕕ( ՞ ᗜ ՞ )ᕗ Diss is da first chapter of diss fan fiction.  In fact I'm not really satisfied with this chapter (╥ω╥')but I promise I'll try hard to make better chapters. Please tell me what you think about diss chapter ヾ(❀╹◡╹)ﾉﾞ❀~     

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P. s:  diss is so depressive lol sorry
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